Monday, December 31, 2007

The last day of the year..

Last day of the year... I am going out soon... Going to a place where I never step my foot in it before... Victoria Station! Slurp~~~ Anticipating for the steak... HOPEFULLY I can foot the bill (-.-)" Darn broke... My hp left with RM0.02... Pathetic new year indeed... Hahaha... Sending out too many "wishes"... =P

My dog is sick... She vomited in the house early morning, around 6am. I put her inside the house yesterday, don't ask me why, I don't have an answer for you... She didn't even want to eat her breakfast! I felt sad for a moment and I decided to bring her for a walk. She started to eat some of the grass while walking and after the walk she ate her breakfast! ^^ Happy~~~ She's still a bit blur though... Sleeping besides me now ^^

Ok... Happy new year to all and may you enjoy your last day of the year. Blessed 2008!

Saturday, December 29, 2007

烟火

生活就像烟火,一开始如此的漂亮,但下一秒就消失不见。

真的觉得你可以不面临死亡吗?你以为等你年老了才开始害怕有用吗?你就那么有信心你会有明天吗?你能控制吗?虽然很多东西我都得放手, 很多东西我都不舍, 但我知道总有一天你会明白。。 虽然难受但我会忍耐。

神是永恒的, 你,会选着害怕的面临死亡还是以平安的心,面临死亡因为你知道,死, 只不过是一个阶段。。 过了这阶段,你,即将拥有永恒的生活。。

Friday, December 28, 2007

The end of everything...

Found my bible at last ^^ In safe hand now..

Tired... Deleted a lot of things today... Things that are now categorized as "rubbish". Though I used to love them but things that will hinder me to come closer to Him need to be taken away. Rather than allowing myself to be tempted, I rather it to be painful for a short while. Wielding the knife is never easy... Never... Never look back but to look forward..

My FYP research is in a slow pace. I can't seem to concentrate at all due to various reasons. I am so dead... Left 16 days to submission but I am still here not knowing what I will be doing for my FYP. GAMBATEH! Stay focus my dear!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

The lost bible...

Speaking of stupidity, I have never meet with someone with such a "fish memory" except for the one and only 633.

She forgotten where she put her bible and the last thing she remember is she saw it in the recording room in church... ZzzZzZzzZzzz... How can she FORGET????? HOW??? T.T Suffering without the bible................................................................ Hopefully it's still there.....

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Xmas...

Merry Christmas to all... Though it's a little too late to say so... Anyway, I am very happy today yet at the same time disappointed and sad.

Sad and disappointed, because my parents nor friends were there to witness the event. Though discouraging, but I know I am not alone in this walk on earth. I shall stand firm and please God in every single step I take. I know He has His own plan. I know God had a better plan ^^
Sad and disappointed, because people who are dear to me are still outside of the Kingdom. Though so, my prayers will be utter out even more and hoping for a transformation of life to take place. I know it well that God is working in each and every heart... Patient and press on!

Happy, because God allowed all things to be good today.
Happy, because I am baptized together with my sister, Willy.
Happy, because I manage to share my testimony with the hearers. Though it's not a good and perfect testimonial, but may all glory be with God.
Happy, because many came to witness the event.
Happy, because I got xmas presents from the church and a brother.
Happy, because I am certain on my faith and knowing that I will meet with God in heaven when I were to die.
Happy, because I had a nice time at pastor's place.
Happy, because I had a great and happy meal with 737 and his wife together with my darling.
Happy, because God made all things happened today.

In short, it is a memorable Christmas indeed. I'll be going shopping tomorrow as someone dear to me is celebrating his birthday tomorrow. Hoping to get a present for him by then. ^^ Ya, miss those day where I went out shopping alone and feeling free on what I want to do.... Hopefully to go to my favorite place to shop ^^

Signing off

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

彩虹

彩虹 - 周杰伦

哪里有彩虹告诉我 能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静 所有的云都跑到我这里

※有没有口罩一个给我 释怀说了太多就成真不了
 也许时间是一种解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药

#看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着 你的身影这么近我却抱不到
 没有地球 太阳还是会绕 没有理由 我也能自己走

*你要离开 我知道很简单 你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
 就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱 当作我最后才明白

Repeat ※,#,*

(Rap)
看不见你的笑 要我怎么睡的着 你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕 没有理由我也能自己走掉
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药


Sunday, December 16, 2007

Wishes...

What is/are your Christmas wish(es)? Well, I know mine well.... Though it is impossible, I still hope for the best. I know God will eventually listen to my prayers. He knows well what is in my heart. I know things will never work out without His grace and mercy upon us. I just hope that things will be changing in the years to come. I don't mind waiting, but I just hope that His hand will not withdraw from all.

Wish you all a merry and blessed Christmas =) May God bless each and everyone of you out there...

Last Christmas

Last Christmas
By Beatles

Wait
Oh yes, merry Christmas little girl
Wait
Last year, you left me, little girl...

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance
But you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me?
Well
It's been a year
It doesn't surprise me

I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you"
I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now
I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special, special
Oh oh baby

A crowded room
Friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My god I thought you were
Someone to rely on Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore him apart
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore him apart
Maybe next year I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone special, special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

http://www.tongcom.co.kr/dingani_13.htm

Saturday, December 15, 2007

笑吧, 上帝在你身旁。。

今天,是我最后一天看到那灿烂的微笑。。 心虽然如此的痛, 但我知道一切都是上帝的安排。。 愿他的旨意我全心全意地顺服。。 因为有上帝的出现,我有了希望。。 也凭着这希望,我会继续的祷告。 我,依然相信上帝所说的。。。 也因为如此,我站了起来,告诉自己千万不可让魔鬼打败。坚强的走下去。感谢上帝,因为,我知道,我也相信,他的安排是有他自己的原因, 而且他的安排是最好的。。。 给我力量吧上帝 =)

*Edited*
一切负担都已被拿走了。感谢上帝因为他开始了新生活,感谢上帝因为他的心已得到了平安。虽然永远都看不见那微笑,我知道上帝会保守他。。 =) 我,硬着我的心, 把一切的东西都仍掉了。 即使是多么的不舍, 我还是把它扔了。不希望这一切再次的带我回去。 他对我的轰吓, 还在我耳边不停 的在响。。 他发怒的模样,我一一记得。 现在,我只能把一切交透与上帝。我,累了。。 我相信他比我累一倍吧。 对不起。。。 愿上帝祝福你。。。 

爱上了这首歌。。。 与大家分享。。 =)


Friday, December 14, 2007

Misogyny

Ahhh..... 2nd week of Level 3 is over.... Approaching to the 3rd week in few days time. How were the classes? So far so good, I THINK.... Had some confusion between the two subjects as taught by the same lecturer and both the subjects are overlapping.... Sometimes, I go in the class without knowing what subject I will be learning on that day... Ok... Not sometimes but everyday, for that 2 subjects... Ya.... I am a bad student.... I only know I need to get my butt on the chair, listen to the lecturer and off I go...

Learnt a new word today... Misogyny... The antonym of philogyny. Ya.... A term that can be used to describe CMI??? Bahh.... I am just too 'yong sui' (ugly face) therefore the lecturer kept on picking on me... *Shake butt* Interesting lecture indeed... However, I still can't accept some of his teaching as contradict with my own believes... I still can't agree with the statement whereby a lie is considered as rightful depending on situation. A lie WILL ALWAYS be a lie.... It's a sin and that's the end of it... Nothing can be mark as right when it's actually wrong!

Feeling tired...................... Anticipating for the Youth camp.................... I need a break.......... Anticipating for Christmas to come.... My wishing list is cancelled..... Sigh............ No bible this year.............. Money went for fixing my laptop.................. Sigh................... Never fear.... Chinese New Year is near............... I hope............ >.<" NO MONEY!!!! This is my very last year to collect ang pow from my relatives as by next year I should be working... NO MORE BIG BIG ANG POW though you are not married T.T

Till then....

*Sign off*

Magic...

按住alt 然后按 22 3 0 7 最后放开alt (Alt + 22307)
按住alt 然后按 3 5 8 0 6 最后放开alt (Alt + 35806)
按住alt 然后按 24 5 5 5 最后放开alt (Alt + 24555)
按住alt 然后按 2 0 0 4 8 最后放开alt (Alt + 20048)
会 神奇 4个字出现

Try this on MSN... COOL! Sorry to "bananas", it's written words will be in Chinese =P

Merry Xmas to all ^^

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

憔悴的心。。。

好累。。。好累。。。 为何世界就是那么的奇妙?压力慢慢的向我而来。。 敬畏神, 以一颗纯正的心来敬畏他,我可以吗?我的心是如此的脆弱。。。 神啊, 求求你灌输我你的爱,你的力量,你的话语,你的一切。。。 我。。。 真的很累。。 让我用在黑白中间的时候, 知道自己应该往哪个方向走。让我用永永远远的依照你的旨意走我这一生吧。。。 我很期待在天堂见到你的那一幕。。。 愿我凭着你的力量在这世上荣耀你的名。。让我做个明亮的光。。。

我把我一切的“不明白”, “烦恼”,“不清楚”,“远望”等等都放在你的手里。你以知道结果了,那就让他去吧。。。在多一会儿,我也会知道上帝你的意识。只要你喜悦, 上帝,我都会遵从。。。 给与我力量吧上帝, 让我不要像以色列人一样,忘记你所为他们做的一切。。 让我忠诚的跟随你。。。

Monday, December 10, 2007

Invitation..

A fruitful week, things that are unclear in my head seems clearer and clearer as time passes by... Praise God for His guidance and teaching.

God willing, I will be baptize in this coming Christmas. Prayers are much appreciated as I am expecting my family to join in the celebration. Though it seems impossible but I know God works miraculously. Let it be in His way... Would like to extend the invitation to all who are reading my blog or friends or relatives, in short, all are welcome to come over for the celebration! It will be held in my church on the 25th December 2007. I am still uncertain of the time but I am surely anticipating for that moment to come ^^

May God be glorify...

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Silent... I'll kill you...

Enjoy ^^ The voice as though coming from the puppets are actually his own voice!!! Cool!!!





Thursday, December 6, 2007

First week of Level 3

First week for level 3 isn't as bad as I think it will be... My foundation lecture is teaching me again! Weee~~~ He's teaching me two subjects this semester... Though a little monotone, I still like his teaching ^^

Today is my first day meeting with my CMI lecturer... Disaster.... Why?? (-.=)" He's actually one of the lecturers that I blacklisted from the library... Too demanding in the library I presume?? I am a lazy person... That's why... When I were to give out service, I will do the bare minimum =P My colleagues know me well.. *pet myself* Ok, back to my story... Never came across my head that he will be teaching me... How was it?? I think he hates me... HAHAHA....

Very interesting lecturer.... Can you imagine his ice breaking session is actually an open discussion on the topic "Equality is justice"? (-.=)" First time I went through ice breaking session in such a way. UNIQUE, is the only word I can used to describe him... The guys in my class took the lead as usual... When it is the girls' turn to talk, he actually cut us off and continue on with the guys' opinion... Stress.... He actually shook hand with the guys when they gave out some good opinions and congratulate them! Hhahaaha... He even suggested one of them to take up post-graduate program as he is too brilliant... GAMBATEH neh... Me?? I stayed at one corner chit chatting with the girls.... Trying my best to take down notes and ZZZzzzZzzzzZzzzz...

A nice subject indeed... A subject where you will need to argue your way out in order to gain marks from the lecturer.. There's no right or wrong answer as different people different view. Depending on are you focusing on the processes or the end result. For instance, if you are hungry, therefore you steal from others. Is that right or wrong? Two views, one, it is right if you were to look at the end result only. Didn't you get your foods and you are no more hungry? Isn't that achieving your goal?? If you are thinking in such a way, you are then focusing on your result and not on your process. You are categorized as a person who is holding on to the believes of "ends justify your means".

Another school of thoughts will be the actions carried out is wrong. Though you manage to achieved your goal, but the way you achieved it is wrong! You are suppose to go through the same process as how others did, which is to earn your own living or get money from your parents to purchase the foods. *Support*

Only thing that came into my mind that time is this illustration that I learnt from a friend of mine... Mean + action must be right in order to be right in God's eyes. If either one is wrong, then it's considered as wrong though you manage to get one of them correct... ^^ A wrong will always be a wrong... You can never mark that as right!

Well, a great start.... Though late for few classes (-.=)" Hopefully I can endure this and finish up my FYP on time and GRADUATE! YAHOO~~~

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

*No Title*

Changed my song for the blog... Fell in love with this song when I first listen to it.. Though I don't understand the song, but it sounds a little sad... Maybe that's the reason why this song is played when I was at my close friend's place... Hahaha...

Head is packed with tonnes of rubbish... FYP is gradually taking over my brain... However, there's another issue that kept on knocking on my "door". Thinking, thinking and more thinking... Is that right or is that wrong? If it is wrong in God's eye, why then think? Do what is necessary to take out the yeast from the bread! If it is right, then continue on with the strength of God and accomplish it...

Feeling tired... Want to sleep... Anticipating for Christmas... ^^ Hopefully to get my very first bible... *Smile*

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Be strong...

On mountain and in valley,
Our God is everywhere.
Exalted in the heaven,
and on the earth He's there!
Where're my thoughts may wander,
escape Him I shall not!
Whatever ills may squander,
yet He controls my lot!

God's searching eyes observed me,
His loving heart is near.
His caring hand sustain me,
my cries will reach His ear.
He bids me, "Be not anxious!"
for more than the birds
and for the fragrant flowers
He cares for human worth

When I feel quite forsaken
and no one understands.
When all my strength is shaken
He holds me in His hands
When this my life is fading
and death agaping waits
I, on His mercy pleading
shall enter heaven's gates.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

魯冰花 ^^

我知道 半夜的星星會唱歌
想家的夜晚 它就這樣和我一唱一和
我知道 午後的清風會唱歌
童年的蟬聲 它總是跟風一唱一和

當手中握住繁華 心情卻變得荒蕪
才發現世上 一切都會變卦
當青春剩下日記 烏絲就要變成白髮
不變的只有那首歌 在心中來回的唱

天上的星星不說話 地上的娃娃想媽媽
天上的眼睛眨呀眨 媽媽的心呀魯冰花
家鄉的茶園開滿花 媽媽的心肝在天涯
夜夜想起媽媽的話 閃閃的淚光魯冰花
啊~ 啊~ 夜夜想起媽媽的話 閃閃的淚光
啊~ 閃閃的淚光魯冰花

天上的星星不說話 地上的娃娃想媽媽
天上的眼睛眨呀眨 媽媽的心呀魯冰花
家鄉的茶園開滿花 媽媽的心肝在天涯
夜夜想起媽媽的話 閃閃的淚光魯冰花
啊~ 啊~ 夜夜想起媽媽的話 閃閃的淚光魯冰花

突然想起这首歌。。 一个我小时候很喜欢的一首歌。时间真的不留人, 一刹那间, 一年又要过去了。看看自己,在这一年里的成就,我,真的有成长吗?我成熟了一些吗?不知为什么心依然如此的心不在焉。告诉自己想太多了,那只不过是一件小事。原来,我错了。对,毕竟我是错了,但我觉得这样的对待,未免太夸张了吧。。 人,毕竟把它看得如此的重要。甚至觉得失望。对,的确很重要,但,我以道歉了, 不是吗?对不起,我真的没有你想象中的那么完美。我只是觉得很虚假。。。 为何在你的短讯里头, 你似乎已把事件告一段落,但,我知道你并没有。真的有必要那么得不坦诚吗?真的好累。。。

如果,我真的是你所说得如此,那,上帝会惩罚我。可是,我真得很感激你的劝告,你的带领, 但,我可以告诉你,我真的没兴趣带领任何人。我,没这个资格, 我,比任何人都不配这个岗位。。愿上帝
开导我。我真的不知我真真的错在何方。。

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

=)

正在寻找一些文件,无意中发现他以前给我的来电。。 啊。。 好多的回忆。。。 我只读了其中一封信,我笑了。我的过去,是无人能更改的。如此的黑暗,如此的肮脏。感谢神你的恩典!虽然要改变我的过去是如此的无能为力, 但, 我感谢神, 因为如果不是当初的决定,他,现在一定找不到幸福。虽然失去了一位知友, 但,因为他笑了,所以觉得快乐。生命是如此的短暂, 但感谢神你让我度过那么愉快地童年以及少年。^^

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Sunbeam

Ahhhhh..... A happy day indeed^^ I went to Subang Church early in the morning as 737 was preaching... EARLY MORNING, 737 lied to me... I asked him how come he didn't fetch Willy and Brend but only fetch Jessica. He said they can't wake up and he can't afford to wait... So....

In addition, he, in a worried tone claimed that Willy might have difficulty going church later. 737 said KM will be heading back to Ipoh as the parents are planning a blind date for him. KM will leave to Ipoh at 9am later. While Mike is uncertain whether he is coming to church or not and Ern on the other hand, emm... I can't remember what he said regarding Ern... OK.... Most of the youth are not around... Hopefully all the kids are there for Sunday School...

Once I mention that, he told me that Uncle HS whole family is not coming today but heading to Cameron for a vacation before the baby "arrive". He then started to laugh... IN A EVIL WAY... Hahaha... Bluek! He told me all those are lies.... Haih............ EARLY MORNING!!!!!! Cis.....

After the sermon, we quickly rush to Damansara Church. I manage to grabbed a piece of cake before we went off to Damansara Church for the same sermon.

After lunch, it is my turn to be stress out... SUNDAY SCHOOL! Can you imagine how many people are there? (-.=)" 3 ROWS of chairs!!! Madness... I was stress out then!!!! Semua salah 737! Well, back to my teaching, I really need to learn to speak in public. I am darn bad in presenting myself.... Well, at least the kids are well behave today ^^ Hopefully I did not mislead them with my teaching >.<"

Best part of the day... The kids had a short practice for their Christmas performance. Well, the older children sang gracefully on the stage.... ^^ Thanks to the fierce aunty ML, the children manage to perform very well. May I now turn your attention to the younger children.... Just 4 of them.... They went up the stage excitingly, one didn't want to join in so the 3 carried on with their singing. Due to the fact that the pianist doesn't know the song, the 3 cute little children sang an a cappella. Everybody sat down, anticipating for the performance.. How was the performance? Astonish........ Uncle review: I don't know how to rate this performance! Aunty review: This is terrible! Tsk ysk tsk... Youth review: *Only some, guffaw all the way* I should really record that.... Too bad I don't have a phone that can perform such function. Hahahah...

Well, after that KM and Ern worked out the piano score. Hahaha.. I kind of like that song!

*Lyrics of the song, longer version. You can listen to the song from http://www.gbgm-umc.org/marshltn/VBSSong_sunbeam.html Just download the MIDI.*

I'll Be a Sunbeam
Text: Nellie Talbot
Music: Edwin O. Excell

Jesus wants me for a sunbeam,
To shine for Him each day;
In ev'ry way try to please Him,
At home, at school, at play.

A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
Jesus wants me for a sunbeam;
A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
I'll be a sunbeam for Him.

Jesus wants me to be loving,
And kind to all I see;
Showing how pleasant and happy
His little one can be.

A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
Jesus wants me for a sunbeam;
A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
I'll be a sunbeam for Him.

I will ask Jesus to help me,
To keep my heart from sin;
Ever reflecting His goodness,
And always shine for Him.

A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
Jesus wants me for a sunbeam;
A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
I'll be a sunbeam for Him.

I'll be a sunbeam for Jesus;
I can if I but try;
Serving Him moment by moment,
Then live with Him on high.

A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
Jesus wants me for a sunbeam;
A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
I'll be a sunbeam for Him.

Before I head back home, my beloved bf actually sang that song to me! Hahaha... SO CUTE! Ahhh... Feel like hugging him! ^^ When I got back home..... I realize..... Actually the piano score that Ern and KM compose..... Hahaha.... IS WRONG! Hahaha... Partially.... I was laughing my lungs out when I heard the original song! Hahaha.... OK.... My post is too long ^^

=Sign off=

Friday, November 16, 2007

A song from God...

Listen, O heavens, and I will speak; hear, O earth, the words of my mouth.

Let my teaching fall like rain and my words descend like dew, like showers on new grass, like abundant rain on tender plants. I will proclaim the name of the LORD. Oh, praise the greatness of our God! He is the Rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is he.

They have acted corruptly toward him; to their shame they are no longer his children, but a warped and crooked generation. Is this the way you repay the LORD, O foolish and unwise people? Is he not your Father, your Creator, who made you and formed you? Remember the days of old; consider the generations long past. Ask your father and he will tell you, your elders, and they will explain to you. When the Most High gave the nations their inheritance, when he divided all mankind, he set up boundaries for the peoples according to the number of the sons of Israel. For the LORD's portion is his people, Jacob his allotted inheritance.

In a desert land he found him, in a barren and howling waste. He shielded him and cared for him; he guarded him as the apple of his eye, like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them on its pinions.

The LORD alone led him; no foreign god was with him.

He made him ride on the heights of the land and fed him with the fruit of the fields. He nourished him with honey from the rock, and with oil from the flinty crag,with curds and milk from herd and flock and with fattened lambs and goats, with choice rams of Bashan and the finest kernels of wheat. You drank the foaming blood of the grape.

Jeshurun grew fat and kicked; filled with food, he became heavy and sleek. He abandoned the God who made him and rejected the Rock his Savior.

They made him jealous with their foreign gods and angered him with their detestable idols. They sacrificed to demons, which are not God— gods they had not known, gods that recently appeared, gods your fathers did not fear. You deserted the Rock, who fathered you; you forgot the God who gave you birth. The LORD saw this and rejected them because he was angered by his sons and daughters.

"I will hide my face from them," he said, "and see what their end will be; for they are a perverse generation, children who are unfaithful.

They made me jealous by what is no god and angered me with their worthless idols. I will make them envious by those who are not a people; I will make them angry by a nation that has no understanding. For a fire has been kindled by my wrath, one that burns to the realm of death below. It will devour the earth and its harvests and set afire the foundations of the mountains.

"I will heap calamities upon them and spend my arrows against them. I will send wasting famine against them, consuming pestilence and deadly plague; I will send against them the fangs of wild beasts, the venom of vipers that glide in the dust. In the street the sword will make them childless; in their homes terror will reign. Young men and young women will perish, infants and gray-haired men. I said I would scatter them and blot out their memory from mankind, but I dreaded the taunt of the enemy, lest the adversary misunderstand and say, 'Our hand has triumphed; the LORD has not done all this.' "

They are a nation without sense, there is no discernment in them.

If only they were wise and would understand this and discern what their end will be! How could one man chase a thousand, or two put ten thousand to flight, unless their Rock had sold them, unless the LORD had given them up?

For their rock is not like our Rock, as even our enemies concede. Their vine comes from the vine of Sodom and from the fields of Gomorrah. Their grapes are filled with poison, and their clusters with bitterness. Their wine is the venom of serpents, the deadly poison of cobras.

"Have I not kept this in reserve and sealed it in my vaults?

It is mine to avenge; I will repay. In due time their foot will slip; their day of disaster is near and their doom rushes upon them."

The LORD will judge his people and have compassion on his servants when he sees their strength is gone and no one is left, slave or free.

He will say: "Now where are their gods, the rock they took refuge in, the gods who ate the fat of their sacrifices and drank the wine of their drink offerings? Let them rise up to help you! Let them give you shelter!

"See now that I myself am He! There is no god besides me. I put to death and I bring to life, I have wounded and I will heal, and no one can deliver out of my hand. I lift my hand to heaven and declare: As surely as I live forever, when I sharpen my flashing sword and my hand grasps it in judgment, I will take vengeance on my adversaries and repay those who hate me. I will make my arrows drunk with blood, while my sword devours flesh: the blood of the slain and the captives, the heads of the enemy leaders."

Rejoice, O nations, with his people, for he will avenge the blood of his servants; he will take vengeance on his enemies and make atonement for his land and people.
(Deuteronomy 32)

A long long song indeed. It is a song given by the Lord to the Israelites. God asked to teach this song to them and have them sing it so that it may be a witness for God against them (Deu 31:19). This is a song that bring blessing as well as a curse to the people. There are many elements being mentioned in this song. However, the most interesting thing regarding this song is God already knows the people will go against Him. Isn't that great?

Sometimes, when we are going through trials, some of us tend to turn morbid or blame God for calamities that take place in our life. Pause for a moment and think again... Didn't God know what you are disposed to do? Even before you speak, He already know your words. Don't you think then, He will know what is best for you as He is looking at the big picture?

"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." (Romans 8:18) How can you then complain that your suffering is really very hard to endure? Look at Jesus, didn't He suffered more than you?

Walking with Jesus is never a smooth sailing but God promised us great reward in heaven.... Press on and don't look back...

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Your Name

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我究竟是干什么啦?我似乎快要发疯啦。。。

看着圣经,申命记里头所说的话语,我都一一看得见。。 但,为何我的心依然如此? 突然间觉得很失望。。 难道,我所渡过的一切不够苦吗?为何还要接下去犯罪? 罪迎来的不是欢乐乃死亡!人毕竟是人,永远的罪人。。。 为何我就是那么的任性?

Rest is all I wish to have...

For the past few days, I don't really have a good night rest. My heart is burdened with something called "consequence of sins", in addition of baptism. Having tonnes of nightmares yet waking up forgetting most of them and having my heart beating very fast. Is that real, I woke up asking myself that question. I was terrified but I just sit there and close my eyes and hands together... Too many things in head, I guess ^^

Glad that I have finish my testimonial but the destination is still far away... May God leads me into His kingdom. It is a great opportunity to write out your life... It helps me to look back at my life. How I changed to be who I am right now, what I went through all this while etc. I struggled a lot while writing as it is really difficult to write. There's too much to write actually >.<"

Ok... At least it is done! GAMBATEH neh! 1 down, 2 more to go...

To those who are facing exams, gambateh ya! Make sure you have sufficient rest and do your best! ^^

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

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Cute advertisment... Have a look at it... Specially those who are currently jobless... Maybe this job is your "dream job" Hahaha...

Monday, November 5, 2007

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还须等多久呢? 我真的好累。。。 这场战争似乎是败战。。。上帝,救救我呀。。。

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

^^

A day where I let go of myself and allowing myself to go free... I can hardly bear the struggling of writing my testimonial. Ahhh... SO DARN DIFFICULT! >.<" Having a bad command of English worsen the whole situation.. YEAH... @(-.=)"

Got my result today... Am very surprise with my result actually... ^^ Praise be with God... Thank you Lord for blessing me good result. Ahh.... LEVEL 3..................... FYP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STRESS.........................................................................................................

Monday, October 29, 2007

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Hebrew 4:12-13
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Indeed, the word of God is living and effective, sharper than any two-edged sword, penetrating even between soul and spirit, joints and marrow, and able to discern reflections and thoughts of the heart.
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No creature is concealed from him, but everything is naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must render an account.

轻轻的我走了

倾盆大雨,站在屋里头,看着雨一滴一滴的从天下降落。突然有个念头出去走走。。 好怀念淋雨的感觉, 好怀念与他在雨中散步的感觉。。

离开是为了走人生里更长的道路,离开是为了自己与他人的好。不知不觉,数年已过,已走了不久的路,看回我的人生,看回我的日记, 泪慢慢的从我脸划下, 满眼看到的全是回忆的泪光。 我的生命里,似乎有许多人的脚印。有许多“脚印”是我一生人会永远记得的。也有一部分是我不想再去回想的事件。 太多,太多了。 伤害人的次数太多了。清楚知道时间不能倒流, 即使后悔也未免太迟了。离开是我唯一的选着。 因为我知道,只要离开,你就会幸福,你就会快乐。 我,不配。不配做你的朋友。不配你对我的好。即使在“远方”,我都会一样的祝福你。

突然想起了这首诗。。。
轻轻的我走了,
正如我轻轻的来;
我轻轻的招手,
作别西天的云彩。
那河畔的金柳
是夕阳中的新娘
波光里的艳影,
在我的心头荡漾。
软泥上的青荇,
油油的在水底招摇;
在康河的柔波里,
我甘心做一条水草
那树荫下的一潭,
不是清泉,是天上虹
揉碎在浮藻间,
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
寻梦?撑一支长篙,
向青草更青处漫溯,
满载一船星辉,
在星辉斑斓里放歌
但我不能放歌,
悄悄是别离的笙箫;
夏虫也为我沉默,
沉默是今晚的康桥!
悄悄的我走了,
正如我悄悄的来;
我挥一挥衣袖,
不带走一片云彩。

Me, myself and my short short hair...

I cut my hair short... Weeee... AT LAST ^^ NO MORE LONG HAIR!!! I can't even tie up my hair now, that's how short it is.. Hahaha... Cool.... HAPPY!!! Though being constantly teased by 737, but I still like the way the hair dresser did to my hair ^^ Mind you 737, though I like Japan a lot, I don't wish to look like Japanese in any way and most importantly, I DON'T @(-.=)" Cis... Don't like you la

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Sleep is all I need?

Never know what is the meaning of good sleep after Sunday. Only God knows what is happening to my body. I have been acting very tired lately for no reason. I can't seems to stay awake though I sleep early the night before. I woke up with cold sweat sometimes as I had plenty of nightmares. I think I am getting Lucky's disease... Eat, sleep, and play... @(-.=)" Cis.... DISCIPLINE!!!!!

=Endzzzzz=
*Purely crapping for express purpose*
Am I doing things in a wrong way? Is those words aren't suppose to be uttered out? Is it because of that I don't have a good night rest? The peace of the Lord doesn't seems to be present in my heart but I know it well that He is there. I just wish to obey... Obedience brings God's blessing while disobedience brings you closer to God's wrath. I have no idea what will happen soon but I know I will need to stand firm and do what is right according to the bible. I am weary... God, take my heart, seal it, take over it and don't allow it to go astray...

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Mix feeling...

Writing this blog with a mix feeling... Looking back at those sms, I realise how childish I am to send out such sms. Looking at those replies, I know how frustrated that person is while replying my message in the middle of the night and early morning. Why do people always do the thinking after all things are done? Shouldn't it be before your actions? I tell myself no yet I did it anyway. I really give up... Stupid body I have that doesn't seems to corporate with my brain.
Mom is currently having a slight argument with my anuty who called all the way from Singapore. Ahhh... Darn noisy... All I yearn now is just peace and quiet, hopefully a good rest. I meet with a lot of ex-church members today, chatting with them, I realise a lot of things... I didn't talk much to them as most of them doesn't seems friendly to me >.<" Ok... I am a bit anti-social.. Hahah... Well, at least I enjoy the short time in The Curve, Boarder and ICE CREAM.
I saw a KJV bible over there... Eye shinning.... RM60.90 ONLY!!!! (-.=)" SMALL!!! SO TEMPTING!!! \(T.T)/ No money.......................... Went home.................. Empty handed................. Bank account almost zero....................... Yeah........................................................... Christmas present for myself, hopefully... Gambateh more in work yo! ^^ Ahh, need to get a watch as well... Some guys stole my watch and my current watch is going to die off.... It has been with me since form 3.. Hahaha... That's like 6 years?? Good brand indeed! Esprit!! Hahaha... Buy Esprit! ^^
(-.=)" Thanks to my aunty, I got some scolding from my mom as well... I still haven find out my tuition fees for my level 3 and I got scolding from her right after she hung up... Great life... Ahh... I am so darn lazy to update blog.... Till then....

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Rehat buat selama-lamanya

Gerimis... Tidak tenang sekali hatiku bila kutermenung di hadapan jendela... Mindaku berat, mindaku keliru. Benda yang senang dijadikan susah. Banyak permikiran yang ada pada kepalaku.. "Tidak ingin ku hanya diberikan gelaran tetapi biarlah hidupku menerangi hidup orang lain." Bolehkah ku? Bolehkan ku sampai ke puncak bukit tu? Bolehkan ku menamatkan perlarian tu? Segala-gala penglihatanku kabur... Terlampao banyak benda yang perlu ku siapkan juga tetapi situasi demi situasi seolah-olah menghalang ku dari kiri dan kanan.

Lesu sekali mindaku... Biarlah ku rehat untuk selama-lamanya...

Missing Taman Desa

Sleepy............................... Miss Taman Desa............................. Miss my swimming pool............... Miss my room............... Miss my house................... Miss everything there................... T.T

Saturday, October 13, 2007

BANNED Aqua Bridge Sdn Bhd

Ah... At last my laptop is with me... Thanks for the gift!! ^^ Thank God for hearing my prayers!!! ^^ Now, I just need more ram... ^^ HAPPY~~~

Was a bit surprise that everything is fine when I left my laptop over there in the shop... To everybody outside there, NEVER EVER go to this shop to repair your computers or laptop...

Details of the shop
Name: Aqua Bridge Sdn Bhd
Address:
(a) Suite 7-33, Imbi Plaza, Jln Imbi, 55100 KL
(b) 2.39 / 2.58 / 2.76, 2nd Floor, Plaza Low Yat, Jln Bukit Bintang, 55100 KL

They are a group of bengali, very big group indeed. My friend and I went to the shop to get my laptop repaired. The shop keeper promised me that it will be done in 2 days. So we just left the laptop there and wait for them to contact us to collect the laptop. The problem with my laptop is I am unable to switch on the laptop. We suspected the problem is with the motherboard...

After 2 days, they didn't call me nor message me... So I continue on waiting thinking that they might be facing some problem fixing it... Guess what.. They didn't call at all until I got fed up of waiting! It is almost a week yet no news from them! I called them instead and I was a bit annoyed by their attitude as the person on the other side of the phone sounded like they totally forgotten about my laptop! They said they will fix it asap and I can collect it in 2 days time. YA RIGHT!

The day after I called them, they messaged me informing me that my laptop is fixed but I will need to bring my hard disk along to check whether the laptop is working properly... I got shock of my life when I received the message. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY HARD DISK?? (-.=)" It is quite impossible that the hard disk is not in the laptop as Mike formated the laptop earlier on... Ah.... They said they will check with their technician and after that no news from them..

We went to Low Yat 2 days after he contacted us and they still claimed that the hard disk is not in the laptop... HOWEVER, on the receipt, they marked that the hard disk is there... CONTRACT BOUNDED! After much argument, they have no choice but to replace a hard disk for us and they changed my processor to P4.

The laptop was not with me all the while as Mike helped me to install some software inside.. When I got the laptop.... I realized the "standby mode" is not functioning when I am using battery. However, when I am using direct power, standby mode is working fine. STRESS... Again, Mike took the laptop and try to find out what is the problem... (-.=)" STRESS... He later send back the laptop to the shop for repair as he can't seems to find out what's the problem.. BEST PART? They started using their native language and started scolding when they see the laptop being bring back to their shop.. I think they are still unsatisfied as they need to replace the hard disk for me. They thought that Mike will not understand their language and they go on scolding in front of him.. This is what you called customer service? I wonder how come they are still surviving with such service...

After few days of observation, they claimed that it is the processor problem... I can either chew with the fact that the standby mode is so or I can change the processor back to celeron. After some discussion with my friends, I got to know that, processor shouldn't be the problem as it is not related... Somehow, I don't feel right as though the shop is trying to cheat the customer.. I called them up and I tell them that I will want to take back my laptop. At last... The laptop is now safe and sound in my room... Hopefully nothing will go wrong after that... I felt SICK of going LAW YAT...

Anyway, thank God for the laptop and may I use it wisely ^^

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

疲倦的我

累了, 疲倦的我,依然很希望能够靠着神的力量来面对一切的困难。即使很难熬,但我告诉自己,神永远在我的身旁。 请求你带领我吧。。 迷路的小羊, 不知该往哪个方向前进了。。。 什么是应该,什么事不应该,请求神你告诉我好吗?

一个不值得爱的小孩,真的可以拥有这一切吗?我是谁?我凭什么去接受?

一个不值得爱的人,但又渴望有人爱, 那他又是谁?他又凭什么去要求?

好矛盾。。。 事情真如很容易的解决但又似乎如此的艰难。。。 啊。。 刘珊杉退休了。。 。我只能做我应分的工作。。 我好像回家。。。

Obedience...

Still confuse... What should I do next? I am giving myself a kick at the back to wake myself up from the dream and get back to reality. I have been trying to pack myself up with activities so that things on earth will not bother my thinking... Phil 4:8. May I learn more about His truth and His will upon me.... Guide me O Lord as your daughter is now in total lost on what to do next.

OBEY, obey and obey my dear 633.....

Saturday, October 6, 2007

累了。。。

Tired... Somehow, I need a space to just breathe... I really don't deserve it but it kept on coming into my life. I know how painful it is when the truth strikes me, I don't wish that other will need to bear that pain as well. It really took me quite some time to recover and stand up once again. I really wish to go back home... I have no idea why but Phil 3:13-14 kept on appearing in my mind. But nevertheless, it encourages me a lot to persevere on.

I just uploaded a new song, somehow, I like the melody of the song. It is from the animation "Devil May Cry". I kind of like the animation. Hahaha... However, I find it quite fake when the main character doesn't seems to die off.. Hahaha... Nah, I still like the show even though so. Hope you enjoy the song.. ^^

Thursday, October 4, 2007

An eternal rest...

I wish to rest.. I wish to leave.. I wish to throw all things away from the heavy head of mine and just run to Him and tell Him that I am really weary and I wish to go back home...

Monday, October 1, 2007

The trip to Chilis...

Big Chilis logo? ^^

Ahh... I miss the smell of Chili's... I miss the foods!!! I still haven have the chance to try out the chocolate dessert >.<" I WANT CHILIS!!!!
Hahaha... Ignore me... I was browsing through my pictures and Chilis caught my attention... It is not long ago when a group of us went to Kaki corner and then Chilis to give a friend of mine a surprise birthday party! Hahaha... Due to some personal issue, I am unable to post the video in YouTube... *"I would like to thank all for coming... " Just to remind someone... Hahahaha* Ok...

Cut the words and here comes the pictures! ^^
Chilis salt, Chilis menu, Chilis sugar and not forgetting my favorite ESPRIT!

*Looking through all the pictures... Wah... All so P&C... Can't post it up here... Hahaha... I got around 90++ pictures in that folder! Thanks to someone..... Who claimed to be giving us some training on smiling and posting in front of the camera... FOR FUTURE WEDDING PHOTO SESSION.... (-.=)" *You know who you are...*

Thursday, September 27, 2007

3 down 1 more to go..

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3 down, one more to go... And after that.... MERDEKA!!!!

Monday, September 24, 2007

A letter from a far far land...

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
*only the writer of the letter will know why I put this verse here soon.. Hahaha... ^^*

A letter "swan" through the sea from a far far land and ended up in my mail box today... I think this is one of the rare time I see my name appearing on a letter and ended up in my house mail box! I like receiving mails for some reason... A feeling that made me go understatement. Looking through my drawer, I still remember how my friend and I used to "mail" each other at school... I used to write to her and put it inside an envelope and pass it to her as she is just next door. During festive season, specially, CNY or Raya, I will then put the letter inside an red/green packet instead of envelope ^^ Ahh... Memories... I am still keeping all those letters! Reading through, I realized how childish I were! Hahaha..

Letter is something that you can feel.. You will somehow "see" the writer's feelings... I somehow felt that there is a sense of belonging... Well, there's so many people around the world but the writer chose to write to you! Aren't you happy with that news even before you open the letter to read the content? Well, at least I am... ^^ I like to write but somehow, I know, writing a letter really need a lot of time and thinking. There's once, I wrote a letter whole day but ended up writing it for the next 2 day! No, I am not writing a story book, in fact, that letter only has few pages but I spent a lot of time thinking... Pondering on what I should write and what I shouldn't. Then... The letter went to "locate" my receiver in a far far land as well.. A letter to an important person, that's why... Hahaha..

Ahh... Anyway, I am very happy to receive the mail... Though it is an outdated letter due to the delivery, I am glad that I have something that others don't have, which is, a letter from a far far land, directed to me, and only me... ^^ Thanks... I really appreciate your time for writing, whether are you reading this or not, I really wish to thank God for the letter...

我真得很想呼吸。。

我哭了,觉得一切都太难了。。。 因为压力太大了。。 面临大考的我,似乎因为身边的压力被困死了。。从没晓得, 爱, 这个字, 真的可以带给一个人种种的压力。 爱, 不是由口中说出口, 故事就到此为此,乃是凭行动与心显示出来。真如古人所说的,“行动比口中话来的明显”。

一个平平凡凡的女孩, 心里很清楚现在要的是什么。她要的只是简简单单的过着神要她过的生活,做好神给她的“功课”,好让她的生活敬畏神。 一概的东西,已不再是在她的范围里。从小到大,在还没遇见神, 她都是对自己说,世上是无真爱的存在。在某年, 某月,某日,上帝,打开了她的双眼, 她才发现, 爱, 是存在的。。

经过了许许多多的人生挫折, 她对自己说,爱, 是存在的,但,一颗受伤的心还得需要漫长的时间治疗。但渐渐的,她发觉, 身边的“爱”似乎越来越难面临, 太大的压力搭在肩膀上,我真的快透不过气了。爱, 如果是来自一颗诚恳的心,那就真的不会带给别人压力吗?如果是如此,那为何我所感受的只有压力?真如我说的,每个人都有自己的私人空间,每个人都会有自己的秘密。要不要说出口,如何说出口,对谁说出口,那些都是个人的选泽, 不是吗?

我都知道你是一位很好的男孩,一位愿意聆听的人,一位很照顾别人的人,这一切,我都知道。 但,我真的承受不住了。。 让我在这假期中,好好的把一切画清界限。 我真得想对你说, 我,累了。我,不值得一切的爱戴。我只不过是一个罪人, 世上最糟糕的一名罪人。对,虽然保罗在神经写下他是世上最糟糕的罪人,但,对我而言,我比他更糟糕,因为,他把自己完完全全的交透给上帝,遵从上帝的话语,不理会身边的苦难,在世上传福音, 那我呢?我又做了什么令上帝开心的呢?我只求上帝的原谅以及力量以便指导我如何面对身边的一切。

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Burning hot weather

What a day.... I tried to study but the weather really kills me.... DARN HOT! BURNING HOT! AIR-CONDITIONAL PLEASE >.<" I'm dead... Few more days later is my exam but I am not prepared for it in any way. Ahhh... Look at the bright side, I won't need to face someone today ^^ An acquaintance in my pilgrimage's journey. Well, at least I am a bit relief from all those "trauma"... May I be able to concentrate in my study in the evening. Pray much for me... I am facing my final exam now...

Somehow, I don't feel like writing in moment like this... Ok, till we meet again... Maybe, until I get the photos from the "photographer"... Hahahah...

Thursday, September 20, 2007

谎言

我不知为什么,可是无论你说了什么,我都是半信半疑的,应该是从一年前开始的吧。。我真的希望我这一次的猜测是错的。我真的希望这一次真的是有意外所以一切都得改变。。 当你对我说你因为家人需求,所以比不得已的离开,我真得很想相信你的话语,但,为何你的话语与你的网络所说的完全是唱反调?你开始不诚实了吗?希望不是如此。。。 如果你真地想欺骗我,那, 在此刻,我,承认我是个笨蛋。我也不应该在我休息时间登陆你的网站。我应该好好利用我的时间来休息。。

如果你真的是说了这个谎言是因为你知道我会生气,那你真的错了,我会比你不说谎言来得更生气。我想我不应该用“生气” 两个字来形容自己,乃是用“失望”。 你知道最伤痛的事件是什么吗?认识你已有一段时间,但,你的改变是我万万不想再去想象的一幕。不瞒你说,我以预料你会变得如此,但不是在那么短时间里。我。。。 放弃和你做朋友的那一幕了。。 我依然会像朋友如此的爱你,但,我很清楚地了解,你永不再是从前的你。。。

谎言像一朵鲜花, 外表美丽,生命短暂。。。

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

算了吧

我累了。。。 我把我的感情,感受,家人,友情,学业,与一切一切,都交透给神你。请求你帮助我,好让我真的真的把我的心交透给你。。 100% 的交透。。 以我自己的力量,我知道我不能。 请救主你对我开恩。。 我只想永永远远拥有你的恩典。。 我知道我不配,请求主你对我开恩。。

好苦。。。 真的好苦。。。即使掉泪,也不能把我心中的烦恼拿走。。因为累了。。。 所以不想再去理会。。。 其实,事情已有一段时间了,只是觉得没必要把事情搞杂。。。 很多事情当中,我看见了很多东西。。 不否认,很多事件, 我都把它们丢掉了,但,也不知为什么,突然,我觉得很累。。。 累因为不知应不应该说出口。。。 对我而言,可能你是做了某些动作令我伤心,但我知道你的心并不是那么想的。。所以,算了吧。。

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

The gospel of David, Part 1

I am so tempted to write this post since last Friday... Don't ask me why but somehow, I was amaze by the bible... How it supported each book written by itself... Amazing work of God... I am getting a bit blur in vision and tired... Do excuse me if there is (are) any typing error ^^ It will definately be a long long long long long post...
The Gospel of David
Death is something that is certain in this life. Romans 7 shows the nature of death in the human being.
  • For when we were controlled by the sinful nature, the sinful passions aroused by the law were at work in our bodies, so that we bore fruit for death. [Romans 7:5] - our flesh bears fruit for death, of itself.
  • But sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, produced in me every kind of covetous desire. For apart from law, sin is dead. Once I was alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died. I found that the very commandment that was intended to bring life actually brought death. For sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, deceived me, and through the commandment put me to death [Romans 7:8-11] - sin kills us, not only physically but spiritually.
  • Did that which is good, then, become death to me? By no means! But in order that sin might be recognized as sin, it produced death in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful. [Romans 7:13] - We are easily proven to be sinful beings by looking at the reflection of the moral law that is hardwired into our own natural conscience.
  • What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? [Romans 7:24] - Paul laments the fact that no one can escape from the body that we were born into. The DNA of Adam and Eve could not be reversed in any manner.

Death becomes the ultimate bane / enermy of all mankind. No one wants to die or to face up to death (in many religion, death is symbolized as many different things, but all are in common in some aspects; namely, the inevitable nature of it... You can't runaway from it and it's silent power... Death can creep unexpectantly into a person's life.

And it is within this context that David's fight with Goliath gives us hope...

************************To be continue***************************

(Taken from CF's notes)

Monday, September 17, 2007

Ian..

To Deb....

Yo... I can't get hold of KM... So... All I can post for now is the outdated pictures of Ian... ^^ This is when he is just 1 week old!~ Sorry for the late upload..Well.... When we were there, we were just in time to see him drinking milk.. Emm... After that.... He.... Fall asleep.... Thank God KM didn't take a picture of me carrying him, if not, I will be a laughing stock... (-.=)"

Yeah, there will be more to come... Just be patient ya... ^^

Money is no more around...

For the last time.... You will be seeing this dog moving around... She is no more in this world due to some virus infection... She passed away peacefully last month...


Friday, September 14, 2007

*不知该放什么题目*

我。。。 最近做什么啦?头脑不停的旋卷。 我快要疯啦。。

同样的事件, 不同的人。。 我。。。 真的有点撑不住了。。。 我试过很多方法来麻醉自己,但还是低了头,闭上眼睛,开始祷告。。 慢慢地把神经打开, 然后开始阅读。。满足感与平安充满了我。。 突然间,觉得充满了力量。。 我笑了。。 只有神, 唯有神, 能了解我。。

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Teach me Thy way, O Lord

Teach me Thy way, O Lord,
Teach me Thy way;
Thy gracious aid afford,
Teach me Thy way.
Help me to walk aright;
More by faith, less by sight;
Lead me with heav'nly light,
Teach me Thy way.

When doubts and fears arise,
Teach me Thy way;
When storms o'erspread the skies,
Teach me Thy way.
Shine through the cloud and rain,
Through sorrow, toil, and pain;
Make Thou my pathway plain,
Teach me Thy way.

Long as my life shall last,
Teach me Thy way;
Where'er my lot be cast,
Teach me Thy way.
Until the race is run,
Until the journey's done,
Until the crown is won,
Teach me Thy way.

An Hymn that I personally like it alot... It somehow shows my life? That I needed a guide... Regardless of what happened O Lord, teach me Your way...

The CL that kills.....

STRESS................ Law assignment is now occupying my time... I am darn stress out.. Law, Law and more Law!!! >.<" So many to read... So many to put in until I lost track on what I need to do... PLAN AHEAD! I am darn stress.... T.T Help.................................................. HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BLUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 10, 2007

Repent O sinners

I was chatting with a friend and he brought up an interesting issue...

Devil knows who is Jesus.... They knew that He is the son of God..
(Refer to Matt 8:28-34, Mark 3:11, Mark 5:7, Luke 4:33-34 for the above statement)
In all those accounts in the bible, the devil was begging Jesus to spare their life.... What does this show us?? It only shows us that the devil is afraid of the Lord Jesus Christ, who has higher authority than them. Who can destroy them if He wants to... The fear of Christ is in the heart of the devil, hence, in some sense, fearing of doing things that is not right as afraid of being destroy by Him.

Looking from another point of view, doesn't a person knows what is written in the bible? Well, at least a general view of it... Yet chose not to believe in it... Doesn't that shows the similarity of the devil? The devil knows that Jesus is the son of God yet from time to time, he is there challenging God from doing evil. However, at the end of the story, devil should know better that God will always wins the battle as no one will gain victory from "fighting" with God. Even so, the difference between human and devil is... Human do not fear the Lord... Doesn't that make us worse than a devil? We still continue on doing what is wrong despite of the rules and regulation set by God..

What words can be used then to describe? Understatement...

Having head knowledge about God is never enough... Devil has that too, but God still said that the devil is evil instead of good... Always remember that faith without action is death... May I fear the Lord almighty and do what is right in His sight... Repent O sinner....

Tapi Bukan Aku

A song that I wish to share with all... I found it through YouTube... Enjoy... Kind of saddening though... Though can't fully understand the lyrics but.... Nevertheless, I still like the melody of it ^^ It is from Keris Patih - Tapi Bukan Aku


Tuesday, September 4, 2007

To obey is better than sacrifice..

I fell in love with the song by the late Keith Green - To obey is better than sacrifice...
(available download from http://cfellowshiponline.com/?q=node/52)

I presume it is taken from the passage of 1 Samual 15:22. Reading his life is really interesting... I don't really have time to read it during weekdays hence, I read it every Sunday... ^^ I really like him! How blunt he is in his speech and how strong his determination he has.... Hmm.. Can't tell much about his story as I haven finish reading... Maybe you can have a look at some of his life testimonial from YouTube...


Piggy ^^

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... SO CUTE!!! PIGGY!!! *.*

Have fun... ^^

http://ecard.iclp.com.hk/chinesenewyear2007/inf/index.cfm

Monday, September 3, 2007

The truth is always hard to learn...

A day that I don't wish to mention a word about it yet the heart is really "not in the right position"... Is it really "fact of life"? I really chose not to believe that... Why can't I just put it in another comforting way? It's called the preparation for God's plan.... Somehow, I really wish that I'm blind so that all those that I saw earlier on is nothing but a black image. I really wish that it is not happening, but reality strikes me... IT IS THE TRUTH, whether I acknowledge it or not... IT IS...

I have no where to hide my face, I have no where to go but to face with the reality.. I choose not to see but I really can't go through that... My heart, my conscience and even my head are coming out with tonnes of stuff... After much thinking, the only thing that came to me is.... Do you really think that is his fault?? Do you?? I tell myself no... It is not... I asked myself another question... After so long, what have you done about the gospel you have in your hand? Do you share it as you ought to? I.... Don't.... Is that how you define love then??? No....

I don't know why but somehow I felt like crying... No, rephrase, I am crying... The heart is aching and I am not doing anything about it? How stupid is that?? HOW STUPID ARE YOU?? A wrong will always be a wrong... You can never mark a wrong, right. So... MARK IT WRONG AND DO WHAT IS NECESSARY! Regardless how I pray, somehow, it is still bothering me...

A tough time indeed.... May I have the strength from the Lord to go through every single day...

Saturday, September 1, 2007

如果你愿意

心事重重的我。。完全无法专心做我应该做的事。。。我真得无法专心做我的作业。。。身边的事情慢慢的从好变坏。。。 一切真的不重要了吗? 心里的某一部分告诉自己, 让上帝安排吧, 只要交透就好。。 但。。 不知怎么, 心就是那么的不平安。。

不知从何时开始,我以慢慢的发觉我身边的烦脑渐渐的增加。。也不知从何时开始,我已慢慢的麻木了。。 世界不停的旋转,但我又在做什么呢?正如古人所说,时间不等人。。 一刹那间, 一切都改变了,我。。。 又如何呢?去了从前爱去的地方,心突然觉得很伤痛。。 以前的熟悉感已不再出现。。 有的,只有一股生疏感。。。 好像挽回当年的感觉, 但。。我可以吗?才发觉,原来,我的心也改变了。。

开始成长了吗?还是因为世界在改变我呢? 不是的。。。 是因为我把我的心交了给神。。 我。。 真的很想完完全全把一切交与上帝,以便可以拥有圣洁,开心,平安,安慰等。。。 我。。 只想成为神的孩子。。。

神啊,如果你愿意,请求你赐予我你的恩典。。。 请求你赐予我你的平安。。。

Merdeka? No... sleep day....

Today is a public holiday... I allowed myself to have a rest... Rest from every single work that I have in hand and just loiter around... I went to the Curve yesterday for the countdown but ended up watching the fireworks in the car... >.< Stress... Due to the bad traffic jam, we were late for the fireworks... However, we manage to get a glimps of it (-.=)"

ANYWAY..... KM treated all IKEA ice cream!!! *.* And for some reason, they started to call me small kid just because I kicked something while walking, being excited when I see ice cream and... emmm... I can't think of any anymore.. =..=" Cis... Don't like them la... We then went to Ming Tin for yam cha session but I was darn sleepy for some reason.. I can bearly open my eyes... Darn sleepy! I slept in the car.... When I wake up... I was in front of my house and my contact lense is not comfortable at all! I can bearly see and sleepy at the same time (=.-)" Stress.... After washing up, *jump on bed*....... ZZZZZzzzzZzzzzz.........

Guess what time I woke up.... Never before I woke up so late... *If not mistaken la... For this year*... I woke up at 1pm =..=" Real piggy.... Madness.... Madness hungry!!! Hahaha... Ya after lunch and stuff, I played with Lucky and there goes my day... Basically.... A boring merdeka... As usual.... *yawn*

Friday, August 31, 2007

The shadow of sins...

I really like the illustration given by Pastor, emm... Can't remember his name nor how to spell his name... He is here only for the ministry conference....

If we go closer to the light, the size of our shadow will be bigger.
If we were to go further from the light, the size of our shadow will be smaller...

The light is used to illustrate God, while the shadow is refering to our sins.... The closer we are to God, the more we notice how unworthy we are.... How sinful we are and how much we need God to be in our life and to change our sinful heart.... On the other hand, when we were to walk away from God, we will not see how sinful and unworthy we are... We will always think that we are the master of our own... I tell you no... To be honest, you can't even live in this world without the help of God.... Whether or not you acknowledge the existance of God, you still need His help in order to survive another day in this world.

Disagreement towards my statement? Let us just experiment it then... Try to control your heart and stop it as you like... Can you?? You can't..... Now, try to hold your breath and see whether you can survive long without oxygen.... The truth is... YOU CAN'T... Now tell me... Can you say that you control your own life? You can't even survive on your own, how then you control your life??? Be logical with your speech... Whether you like it or not, you still need God to provide you with oxygen and life.... You need God!

Repent now and acknowledge that you are a sinner... Come to Him who is merciful and He will forgive of your many sins... Follow His footsteps and you shall be saved by His grace...

The piano...

JAY!!!!!! PIANO!!!!! *saliva coming out* Enjoy...

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

BFT date...

"Mai luan, mai luan...."
"That's your part ah Dodong..."
"This part yo? Put in appendix lo.. Refer to Appendix, can ah?"
"I think I send you the wrong copy... Cause yesterday I already edit it..."
"Adui.... Ani hin............."
"Chong wa emosi aja..."
(Above are some of the conversation that I managed to record while waiting for Da and Amy to look through the documentation)
*Da typing from time to time while looking through our BFT assignment*
*33: Kestressan*
*Amy: Blur2 as just came back from a tiring marathon*
We are currently in Lab 1 and it is darn hot here!!! We are actually compiling our BFT assignment... It is due tomorrow and each of us have our own version of BFT documentation as we have our own part... (-.-)" So messy.... Emmm... Why am I blogging over here?? Hehehe.... Ah Da and Amy are looking through the whole assignment now =P Me yo?? Become cheer leader lo... Hahahaa... *Jia you*
Yeah.... Tomorrow will be our big day... We will have a one to one dating session with Mrs Kwan in the staff room whereby tonnes of BFT questions will come out from her and obviously answers are expected to come out from us.... T.T I am dead!!!!!!! GAMBATEH NEH..... Hahaha... No time to blog.... =P Ta ta...

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Faith..

Was looking through my diary and I found something interesting....

Faith is just like a muscle in our body. If we do not exercise, the muscle will be weak and slowly it might turn to fat. On the other hand, if we were to be hardworking and exercise, the muscle will be strong and firm.

How often then do you exercise your faith? There are a lot of trials in life... I have no doubt on that, but am I standing up for Jesus and live a holy life as Jesus is holy? Alot of things are not under my control nor under my decisions, I just pray that I can glorify Him with my life... I am really tired but may He grant me much strength to hold on...

Friday, August 24, 2007

A lesson that I should keep in head...

Mood swing... It is Friday night and I am stuck here with this stupid mood... Thanks to a person... A person that make decision on my behalf without my consent... Who are you to even made such a decision? My secretary? After making the decision then only asking me whether things can be carry out?? I really am fedup with the way people handle things. Is it that hard to INFORM people? IS IT THAT HARD???? Even if you don't, don't try to make decision on other's behalf then only inform that person about it... I got a shock when I received a phone call once I reached home. I was a little mad but things got worsen when the sms arrived.

OK... CALM DOWN.............. FOCUS......................... STRESS.........................................................

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Psalm...

“My soul, wait silently for God alone,
For my expectation is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my defense;
I shall not be moved.
In God is my salvation and my glory;
The rock of my strength,
And my refuge, is in God.
Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us."

Psalm 62:5-8

Monday, August 20, 2007

Deb le???

I looked left, I looked right, I looked everywhere but Deb is no where to be found in Malaysia.... Deb is no more in Malaysia................. She left today.................. I am not even there to sent her off.................. THANKS FOR READING THE SMS LATE!!!! >.<" Gambateh in your study, sister! Will always miss your presence in Malaysia... Don't forget to send back chocolate yo =D~ Hahaha... WEB CAM!!!! =P Keep in touch... *hug*

Direct my paths...

I started to realise how lack of faith I am through a lot of things that took placed in my life... I started to cling on the world rather than the Lord... I am trying very hard to get rid of my unbelieve now... May God take away all those things that doesn't belongs to Him away from me... I give thanks to the Lord for allowing to see how fragile a person can be... I give thanks to the Lord that I am able to read of His words and know him more and more each day... May I learn from Nehemiah to be prayerful always and always put faith in the Lord regardless of what is taking place in his life.

Proverbs 3:6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. This week Sunday School memory verse that speaks to me a lot... May I stand firm on my decisions and may I stand firm on His words. It is never easy to be holy, but God promises great reward in heaven. May I set my eyes on heaven and put all my past as past...

May You Lord guide and lead my paths...

Tan Money and Lau Lucky

Ahhhhhhhh... My long lost blog.... I haven been sleeping well for the past 2 days, hopefully today, I won't have any nightmares anymore... I hate it when it is "peak hour" in my study... I will get tonnes of nightmares and tired morning... I give thanks to the Lord that today 2 classes were cancelled... Tomorrow, I only have one class to attend *yawn* Pay RM3 for parking just to attend one class??? Hmmm.... LAZY!!!! =..="

Heheeh... GOOD NEWS!!! Lucky is well now... She just took off the "operation string" today (I have no idea what is that called). Actually wanted to bring her to the vet but it closes at 330pm. Ended up I asked my aunt to help out as she is a nurse... She knows how to take off all this things... Emmm... Mission failed as Lucky doesn't seems comfortable with her presence... When my aunt left, mom suddenly played with the string and Lucky was quietly sitting there... So.......... Mom decided to cut it herself.... Emmm.... My heart..... *PRAY* Hahaha... It went on fine suprisingly! We then clean the wound with wet tissue (with aspirin)... She is now jumping here and there playing with us like usual =)

However, she still needs to wear the collar for 2 more days for just in case... I am too afraid to take that off... Though she is not comfortable, but I think she is getting use with the collar =) A recent photo of her...

Does she looks like the sun?? Hahaha... Ya, she looks stupid hahaha... Wait till you see my cousin's dog.....
My uncle actually wrapped a towel over the dog =..=" She is actually darn cute! Hahaha...So small size... Lucky like to chase her around and Money (her name) is so scare of Lucky! HahaRemind me of a mop...

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

The other side of suffering

The other side of suffering
By Ikeuchi Aya

Everyone feels pain.

But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive.

Even with sports, studying or other ordeals.

With life, it’s like that for everyone.

If we can beat the pain, on the other side,

a rainbow of happiness awaits us.

That will definitely become a treasure.

Let’s believe in that.

=EnDzzzz=

When things doesn't goes the way they should go, let it be, because the Lord is under full control.

When everything seems to go against you, rejoice as the Lord will be by your side supporting you.

When we persevere on, I am sure that one day, the rainbow will greet you from the sky...

Saturday, August 11, 2007

How dare you criticise OREO!

I got this from an E-mail....

Dear OREO Luvers,

OREO CONTAINING TRANS FAT BRINGS DAMAGES TO HEALTH

An attorney fromCalifornia filed a lawsuit against Krafts, stating that OREO produced by the company not only causes damages in health, but also dishonestly promote their products; requesting the company to halt the sales of OREO in the market.

OREO contains hydrogenated oil or Trans fats, to prolong the storage of the biscuit, but at the mean time increase the consumption of BAD CHOLESTEROL, increasing the possibility of diabetes and heart disease.

INCREASE IN CONSUMPTION OF CHOLESTEROL

Although the research on Trans Fats affecting health has not been concluded, the national institute of science research states that any amount of Trans Fats consumed is not safe.

=Endzzz=

Being a typical Orea lover, I couldn't accept the fact that orea will caused all this things stated here and it is banned in western country. I went to google and check out the news, and guess what... There's no such news in the internet~! Yes, there's tonnes of bloggers out there posted this in one of their post but nevertheless, there's no ACTUAL fact that western countries are banning the product! Grrrr... I hate the person who came out with this article!!!!!! How dare that person critise OREO!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Lucky sick...

Sad, heart broken, sorrowful, etc. Any words that can be used to describe sad... That is my feeling now... I am now regreting for bringing her to the vet... I really am!!!!!!! I feel like crying, I feel like dying... It is as though part of my body is cut....

Lucky was spayed today... The pain in her, I felt it so much... She was in the operation room and I saw her moving her leg and wanting to get up... Yes, pain killer is given to her and the vet was shock that the pain killer reacted so fast on her. However, it is not a full body dose as afraid that she will never wake up... She was so obedient and good girl throughout the whole process but when she came back, she felt so dizzy... She can't even control her own bladder... When I came back from classes, which is around 5pm, mom told me that she is not eating or drinking at all as kept on vomitting once she consume something. I gave her a dog biscuit and she ate it! I was so happy! I then pass her the water and she looks so thirsty. Wee... Nothing happen! Happy me... I went up to change and went I came down... I saw her vommiting.... It's right in front of me..... My heart?? Suddenly so sad... Looking at her, I know she is suffering like mad...

Please keep her in prayer ok?? THanks..

I again gave her water as she really need water to survive. Her whole stomach went in and I can now see her bone structure so clearly now... When I touched her, I feel like crying... It is as though my loved one is darn sick right now and I can't do anything about it! I kept on praying that she can stop vomitting... I put clothes on the floor for her to have a more comfortable sleep and I know it well that it doesn't help as the wound is really painful...

At night, she still refuse to eat but thank God that she is drinking watering now... A better news? She is not vommiting after drinking! I really thank God that He have mercy on her... Hopefully tomorrow Lucky will be feeling better... Sigh............. DARN NO MOOD!!!!

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

The artistic Amy + Da as the model == ??

Stress................................ I really don't work well under pressure. BFT test is a total disaster for me... Don't ask... T.T I hate to describe it................................ There's a presentation coming up... Ah... My "favourite"..... Remind me of what my classmates and I were doing during classes....

It was a fine day and we were being placed in MSC 2 for class. While doing tutorial, Amy suddenly turned on her "artistic" mode and started drawing. I don't know why, but suddenly the attention turned to Da... Amy started to used her as her "model"... Her first draft was rejected by Da as the face was not round enough... Hmm... I suggested Amy to use her bracelet to draw a round shape... Hahah... The end product?? Do you wish to see it?? Ok...

Look like Da?? Hahaha... *Focus on the face!* Introducing.. Ms Huat Huat.. Hahaha.. =P
There's actually more pictures, but I am afraid that Da will be mad if I were to post it here for all to view haha... For that I kept it as private ok Da? Hahaha.. Doink Doink... =P

失忆症

Feel in love with this song when I first heard it from the radio.. =) Ya, how I wish I can forget all the care of the world and just live a carefree life =)

失忆症
by: 蔡健雅
作曲:陳文華 作詞:杜鑫

忘了你的姓名 忘了你的聲音
回憶就一步一步遠離

忘了天很透明 忘了風很無情
也忘了當時擁抱的甜蜜

愛不再繼續
一個人離去 另一個人學習忘記

失去了記憶
我的世界能不能夠 風平浪靜

我 不能忘記 深愛過的你
太過洶湧的會議就像風雨來襲

每次想你 都慢慢沉溺
失憶症是一種無法治癒的清醒

暴風雨 轉眼間就要來臨
當所有關於你的舊情節還在翻雲覆雨
走下去 天空瞬間就放晴
經歷遺忘的風雨再看不見親吻的痕跡

不再想你 oh...

我的勇氣 已不言而喻
我學會了將自己從往事中抽離

不再想你 就這麼決定
失憶症是一種難得一見的幸運

忘記了你的姓名 忘記了你的聲音
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