Saturday, January 28, 2012

奇妙的爱。。。


A little joy, a little sadness,
A little closer, a little further,
A little cuddle, a little isolation,
A little concern, a little ignorant,
A little too much, a little too many,
A little sweet words, a little crude words,


Having a lot of thoughts lately after hearing a news from someone dear to me, especially after seeing a truth in myself. I quaver as I heard the news, heart stopped beating for a second and the sudden coldness on my leg and hand. Somehow, that very instant, I felt alone, being pushed aside like an unwanted criminal, but yet all I see was a smiley face on him. As he stepped out, "drive safe" was his last word to me. The darkness of the road suddenly dawn upon me that the life that I am about to tread will be as dark as what was before me. Fear came silently, conquering the inner me...

As I drove off, the road was as dark as before, as I continue on to tread, street lights seem to be getting dimmer and dimmer.. Was it because of the electricity outage or was it because fear was clouding me? Will I still see hope? A short prayer was uttered and as I pray, then only I realised, my heart has actually changed. Tears doesn't seem to flow neither do I felt pain in the heart anymore. I know not when the incident took place but I do know that a burden, which is constantly eating me up, has at last being lifted up from my chest. As I drove out from the place, street light began to brighten up the road. As described by John Bunyan, Christian was truly delighted as his heavy-loaded burden was at last being cast away on the foot of the Cross, ahh... Such is my feelings. After so many years, at last dawn is approaching...

The sun seems to shine brighter today and the sun light was as though reflecting the status of my heart. I am truly speechless and the only thing that came to my mind was, thank you Lord for such blessing. Though I was puzzled and constantly asked You, why O Lord, You pour out such selfless love to such undeserving wretched sinner like me,  but the answer will always bring me back to the foot of the Cross. Ahhh... Such beautiful, selfless, undefiled love..... Who can compared to You, O Lord?

With a little mustard seed faith, allow me to come before You, submitting myself once again into You hand. Come and fasten the fetter towards this wayward heart of mine, allow this heart to be solely Yours and Yours alone...

Good night to all....

Monday, January 02, 2012

Blessed year to all... =)



A brand new year, a brand new look, Happy New year to all and have a blessed dragon year ahead :)

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Construction work

The abandon blog....

............ "CONSTRUCTION WORK ON GOING"..........

A day shall come.... Where things shall not be the same anymore....

..................................A.n.T.i.C.i.P.a.T.e..................................................

Monday, April 25, 2011

633th post



Dear diary,

First and foremost, please prepare your heart to read a post that’s filled with horrible English grammar, wrong spelling etc for the fact that I have been having migraine for few days now. Yet to see the seriousness of this migraine, but will be visiting the doctor soon if the migraine prevail. OK, let’s cut down on my introduction and allow me to kick start my 633th post…. =)

As the music played repeatedly at the background, my heart became heavier. Sitting here, reminiscing whole morning, as though on the fritz and nothing was achieved. The word of God clings on to my head like a fetter, troubling my conscience again and again. Never like the thought of bad conscience but I still wished to be thankful to God for such rebuke. Even though damage has been done but I reminded myself one thing, 跌倒了,疼痛过,寻找弱点,爬起来,学习过错,小心翼翼, 避免重犯。人不学,不知道。因为有了生活坎坷,人, 变得更坚强,谦卑, 与加倍言行谨慎等。

Proverbs 20: 3
It is honorable for a man to stop striving, since any fool can start a quarrel.

Somehow, this word is implanted in my mind. Such a fool I was to light up the fire and to give a green light to start a quarrel. Truly the Bible said it well in James,

“Take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.”

I wonder… How far is one willing to go just to get things done? People constantly quote the word “When there’s a will, there’s a way” but looking from another perceptive, can I safely say that majority will use up any means just to achieve their end? Well, at least I know I am one of them. As I sat down and ponder upon things, the only thing I concluded is…. My heart is the most deceiving, ugliest and sinful thing on this earth. Especially when you are not alert and careful; the devil is ever ready to tempt you to do the wrong things.

What about you? Will you then carry out whatever it takes just to ensure you meet your targets/ desires/ objectives? Are your means and ends accordance to God’s law and being carried out in a God fearing setting? Have you ponder upon things (based on God’s words & principles) before carrying out an action? Many times, I forget the fact that my means and ends, both, God takes it seriously. The breaking of any point is tantamount to the breaking of the whole of God’s law.

Arg…. Truly who could possibly be so holy and perfect on earth? Looking at my own life; the more I read of God’s words, the more I see sins in my life. When, O Lord, when shall be the day I truly be free from such sinful state?

As I closed my eyes, I smiled. Why, you may ask… Because as it is written in the Word of God, there’s hope. Hope to be free from the bondage of sin, but have you heard? Have you believed? Would you then believe if I were to say to you, according to the written scripture, God has send His only begotten Son to this earth to accomplish something that you will never imagine? Quoting from the apostles Peter,

“Jesus of Nazareth was a man accredited by God to you by miracles, wonders and signs, which God did among you through him, as you yourselves know. This man was handed over to you by God’s deliberate plan and foreknowledge; and you, with the help of wicked men, put him to death by nailing him to the cross. But God raised him from the dead, freeing him from the agony of death, because it was impossible for death to keep its hold on him. 25 David said about him:

“‘I saw the Lord always before me.
Because he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest in hope,
because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,
you will not let your holy one see decay.
You have made known to me the paths of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence.’

“Fellow Israelites, I can tell you confidently that the patriarch David died and was buried, and his tomb is here to this day. But he was a prophet and knew that God had promised him on oath that he would place one of his descendants on his throne. Seeing what was to come, he spoke of the resurrection of the Messiah, that he was not abandoned to the realm of the dead, nor did his body see decay. God has raised this Jesus to life, and we are all witnesses of it. Exalted to the right hand of God, he has received from the Father the promised Holy Spirit and has poured out what you now see and hear. For David did not ascend to heaven, and yet he said,

“‘The Lord said to my Lord:
“Sit at my right hand
until I make your enemies
a footstool for your feet.”’

“Therefore let all Israel be assured of this: God has made this Jesus, whom you crucified, both Lord and Messiah.”

When the people heard this, they were cut to the heart and said to Peter and the other apostles, “Brothers, what shall we do?”

Peter replied, “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off—for all whom the Lord our God will call.”

(Acts 2:22 – 39)

Will you come then? As the hymn writer said, “Come, ye weary, heavy laden, bruised and broken by the fall; if you wait until you’re better, you will never come at all. Not the righteous, not the righteous; Sinners Jesus came to call.” Is Christ speaking to you? Have you heard His still, small voice? Come, come, come to Christ to obtain the salvation that He freely gives.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Happy Chinese New Year =)

Dear diary….

When is the last time I stain your pages with my “almost-out-of-ink” pen? There you are, lying down quietly on my table. Filled with precious moments of my life… Nonetheless, the perpetual ups and downs in life lead to the laziness of updating it… Well, let’s get to work now! c(^.^)v

A brand new year, a brand new start, as we waved goodbye to the tiger, our arms are out stretch to give the warmest welcome to the cute little rabbit… Happy Chinese New Year to all. May all of you have a blessed year ahead. =)


*Point at the picture above* Is it cute? Is it cute? Is it cute?? Heheheh….. It’s a pen drive from Kingston! SO ADORABLE!!! (OK, at least it is for me). Nah, it doesn’t belong to me… Special thanks to Ah Tong for the picture. ^.^ Did some editing towards the picture… Hmmm…. Somehow, I like the photo to be “crooked” and black and white as background…. Original as below:-


Sitting here, staring at my screen, I could hardly believe that time flies that fast. What have I accomplished? Have I grown? Am I more faithful? Am I more teachable? Am I more obedient? Am I a better person in the family? Many things came into my mind as I pen down this post.

Recently, I was watching a series regarding a group of people setting up an orchestra performance. Well, this is a group of amateur, gathered together, trying their very best to put up an excellent performance. Their greatest challenge is to deal with their conductor, who is also called the orchestra killer. He is a person who doesn’t know the meaning of social and constantly hurt others feelings with his speech. However, none could deny his talent and skills in conducting the team. Hehehehe….. Yet to finish the series, thus, I can’t tell you what happened after that :p Sorry…. Hahahhaha….

 
Hmmm…. While watching the series, my mind is somehow zoomed down to the conductor. No, it’s not because he’s good-looking but more upon his style of living and decisions in life….. No doubt that he is one of the top conductors in the world due to his hard work in the past. People find it an honor to perform before him, much attention and due respect are given to him accordingly. There he is, standing tall and mighty above all, a shining star indeed. In this respect, he is cocky, looking down at people, being an irritating person whom you will not want to meet at all.

 
Thoughts came into my head… Am I too following his pathway? Am I willing to go all out just to achieve my dreams and gain the fame? Well, it is not necessary the acknowledgement from the whole world, but among family members, friends, colleagues and bosses? Do I then take pride in all the achievement in life (though I have none -..-“) and forgotten my root? Stripe away his conducting skills, what is left in his life? Stripe away all the things I took pride in, what’s left in my life? Emptiness? Could one then still stand tall and boast? Will one still have the qualification to boast?
Many times, when we are “victorious” in our life, when we achieved something significant in life, we somehow take pride in it. Have you ever stop and ponder who actually gave you the opportunities, talents etc? Do you realize that all these are blessings from God? Who then among us will actually gave all the glory and credit back to our Creator? As the malay saying goes “Bagaikan kacang lupakan kulit” (aka being an ungrateful person), will you also fall under this category?

O Lord, as we are in the beginning of a new year, helps us to be a thankful person. Help us to be grateful constantly for all the blessings bestowed upon us, especially the grace that saved one from eternal damnation. Let us not despite Your words but to walk faithfully with you. As one of the business men said “Life is like a prepaid card with a limited validity”, help us then to treasure our life as how we ought to, help us to live a life that is glorifying Your mighty name and may we continue to be a good witness for your sake. Amen.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Why would one shout in anger?

Read this from The Star.... Enjoy =)   

Once a professor asked his students, "Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?"

The students said, "We shout because we lose our calm."

"But why shout when the other person is just next to you? Isn't it possible to speak to him /her with a soft voice?"

The students gave various answers, none of which satisfied the professor. Finally, he explained, " When 2 people are angry with each other, their hearts distance. To cover the distance, they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the louder they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance."

Then he asked, "What happned when 2 people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly. Why? Because their hearts are close. The distance between them is very small. When they ove each other even more, what happened? They don't speak - They only whisper and get closer to each other in thier love. Finally, they don't even need to whisper, they only look at each other, that's all. That's how close 2 people are when they love each other."

So when you argue, don't let your heart get distant or say words that distance each other even more, or there may come a day when the distance is so great you will never find the path back to each other.

Monday, October 11, 2010

A promise?

*Bringing along a wet rag & a bucket of water*

Now, now, there, there, there.... This blog is filled with spider web together with dust, dust and more dust!!!! *Spring cleaning time is up!*

It has been awhile since I step into my blog profile and click on the "New post" button. Is there still any reader out there? =/ *H E L L O ...... *Echo follows.....** OK.... Maybe not...

Boy, what a day.... Could hardly describe my day but thank God I manage to accomplished my task for the day =) I was driving back from work today with a heavy head... However, don't ask me why, the word "BLOG" suddenly came to mind. Hmmm.... Is this a hint that I should learn to write more? Yes, I have to admit that I do not have perfect English *Sigh* but yet as the old saying goes, "practice makes perfect", isn't it so? Thus, bear up with my mistakes, grammers and all the nonsense that I am (or soon to commit) committing.

Now, what actually came into my mind when I thought of my blog? Interesting... Emm... Thoughts? I remember some of my readers told me in time past... 不管晴天, 雨天,不分昼夜,只要你还在写部落各,这里,永远都会有一个,至少一个,不离不去的读者。。。I was thinking to myself... Is that not a promise? Years after.... Now... Is it still valid? Well, I am 100% certain that it is "INVALID" now. But that's beside the point.... The main issue that I wish to point out is.... How long can one keep his / her promise(s)? Will there not be a time where he/she breaches the promise(s)?

This morning, I can't stop thinking about the Israelites after my devotion. Words from Proverbs was lingering in my head since I read my portion of Sciptures today.

"Remember the days of old; consider the generations long past. Ask your father and he will tell you, your elders, and they will explain to you. When the Most High gave the nations their inheritance, when he divided all mankind, he set up boundaries for the peoples according to the number of the sons of Israel.

For the LORD's portion is his people, Jacob his allotted inheritance. In a desert land he found him, in a barren and howling waste. He shielded him and cared for him; he guarded him as the apple of his eye, like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them on its pinions.

The LORD alone led him; no foreign god was with him. He made him ride on the heights of the land and fed him with the fruit of the fields. He nourished him with honey from the rock, and with oil from the flinty crag, with curds and milk from herd and flock and with fattened lambs and goats, with choice rams of Bashan and the finest kernels of wheat. You drank the foaming blood of the grape."
They were so blessed.... They were as the apple of His eyes, God was protecting them always. He even provided them sufficiently. However, what is the ending of the story? They turned away from God and worship worthless and breathless idols. They have forgotten the God who fathered them.

You know what is the irony of this? Just a few chapter before, all you could read of is reminder after reminder to Israel that they should stay on the path of righteousness. They should worship only the Lord their God and no one else. In fact, they even acknowledged all those law and knew what would happen to them if they fail to obey it... Did they not went into a covenent with God? But what happened? Did they not fall into sin? Did they not get all those punishment spoken by God due to their failure in obeying His words?

A promise is so easily uttered now of days. Yes, at the spur of the moment, that promise might be a sincere utterance, but think again, are you willing to hold on to your promises and fulfill it as mention? If not, I rather one think twice or trice before uttering a promise to another. Don't act rashly but sit down and count your cost, for each word you utter, it will bring forth impact towards others.

As for me, I have a duty to carry out. May it be so then as it is uttered. May God grant me the strength and empowered me to do the necessary things for His glory sake. Amen.