Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Weary body...

STRESS!!!!! DARN STRESS!!!!!
I really am tense up... I really don't know what to do now... There's 40% more to go for my assignment... Great news? Tonnes of editing is required... Wish to listen to another great news? I am falling sick... I felt like I will be having a fever very very soon... I am currently wearing a wool type of jacket yet I am freezing... Without the fan on nor air-conditional but I am feeling super cold... My feet? I can barely feel their existance as it is too cold... Wearing indoor slipper just to warm up my feet... SICK!!!

I am really worried... Why? ASSIGNMENT DUE ON FRIDAY! Yes, yes think what you want to think, say what you want to say.. I am a lazy bum who doesn't start my work early therefore ending up in situation like this... Who to blame but myself? Is that it? Is that what is in your mind? Yes? No? Nah... It doesn't really bother me... Why? Simple.. Because using my head to think of all those comments I got, is actually a waste of my brain juice.. In addition, it doesn't help me in solving my problems so why bother thinking about it and make myself sad? Regardless of what is happening in my life, I just want to give thanks to the Lord for His strength... For sustaining me until now... I am really really really really... Tired and weary...

Seek ye first the Kingdom of God

Haha.. Those who are attending my church will be sick of this song? Well, not to me... I fell in love with this song instantly... Amy should be familiar with this =P Oppsss... I mean few sentence of the lyrics as I kept on forgeting the lyrics =P

Seek ye first the Kingdom of God
And His righteousness
And all these things shall be added unto you
Hallelu, Hallelujah!

Man shall not live by bread alone
But by every word
That proceeds from the mouth of God
Hallelu, Hallelujah!

Ask and it shall be given unto you
Seek and ye shall find
Knock and the door shall be opened unto you
Hallelu, Hallelujah!

If the Son shall set you free
Ye shall be free indeed
Ye shall know the truth, and it shall set you free
Hallelu, Hallelujah!

Let your light so shine before men
That they may see Your good works
and glorify Your Father in heaven
Hallelu, Hallelujah!

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart
He shall direct thy paths
In all thy ways acknowledge Him
Hallelu, Hallelujah!

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Problemas con los bolardos

This is really amazing... I was shock with how advance technology can be! Have a look at this... Some states in Europe has started to implemented this retractable road pole to restrict roads for authorized vehicles only. I still don't understand why people still want to go through that place when it is prohibited... CARS!!!! SMASH!! PAIN!!! Hahaa...


Taman Desa and me...

I went to my secondary friends gathering today... I went back Old Klang Road today... So miss the place... Without realising it... I have been staying here for 1 year! Tomorrow is my house "birthday"... It is the day when we first moved in... Happy birthday =)

I never like this place... Never... People claimed that this place is a chinese area and have tonnes of nice foods... Ya right! As if Taman Desa doesn't have all those? As though Taman Desa can't beat this place... INSULT! Ya people who know me well know how I feel.. I want it to be in Taman Desa... Many many memory there... I grew up there... No jam, nearby MV, many public transport etc... Everything is so convenient back then...

My first time riding on a motorcycle, my first time falling off from a bike, my first time swimming, my first time driving, even my first love stayed there! Nah.. We didn't manage to get together though... He is now happily living his life with his gf... They have been together for more than 3 years I think... Haha.. Well, nevertheless, I thank him for giving me a memorable moment during my secondary school... I will never forget all those moment with him =) No, I am not going to tell you what happened back then.. Just one word to describe it "sweet". So many first experience given to Taman Desa....

May God bring me back to that place once again..... I really wish to spend the rest of my life there... How I wish to obtain a house there when I get married.... IF I can find someone to be the groom la.. Hahaa...

Friday, November 24, 2006

The one that makes your heart smile

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just take care of my eyes dear."

I got this from a friend. How I wish to have a person that is willing to do that for me... =) Sweet.... And I will never never ever wish to be like the girl.... How about you? Are you willing to marry the guy? Well, without much doubt, I will... Why? As the saying goes "Don't go for looks as they deceived. Don't go for wealth; even that fade. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.."

A sincere apologies to you...

I know how you feel... Maybe what you are feeling right now is worse than what I have been through. However, the pressure, the feeling and the pain that we experienced, I think it should be almost the same... That is why... I choose to leave... To leave the place once and for all... Never wish to know anything about that horrible place anymore... Yes, you might said I am a coward, you might think that I am irresponsible, you can say and think whatever you like... I seriously don't mind... Yes, to a certain extend I do take note of all those comment of your's as it reflected me as who I really am... Is my actions glorifying God? I struggled a lot in this issue.... Really fed up in thinking... Because somehow, the result turn out to be vain...

Well, I won't deny that the experience there really help me to gain more knowledge and I thank God that I have the opportunity to be there... To be with all of you...

I learnt something today... Regardless of what you are handling, you should give your best because it is a task that God put in your hand. There shouldn't be something called "I don't like it" in the context because it is us who made the decision in our life. Nobody can actually think and made the decision for you in your life. They can guide you but not made your decision for you. We aren't here to complain but to fulfill what the Lord has planted in our life. Even small little things in your life... Are you giving your best in handling it? To be honest, I didn't.... I am learning now... Though it is late but I will try my best...

Would like to apologies for all those horrid moment that I created in your life... I know it well that no matter what I do now, it can never heal the wound but I still want to apologies for it... Since the day I meet you uptil now, I can never think of a moment of me not giving you sorrow and bitterness. I know I hurt your heart a lot, a lot... I know the feeling of pain... I went through it as well... I know indirectly I have made you changed to be another person... A person that I no longer know well... As I always said, it is your life, you have 100% rights to choose what type of life you want to live in... I already told you what is in my mind previously and I don't need to repeat that again as I am nobody in your life. Who cares anyway? I am not God... Let Him lead you...

To be frank, many times, I miss the person who I met previously... Before the incident took place on the 31/12/2005. A date that I will never in my life forget... The decision I made and the actions I took is sudden for you, I know... As I always said, I did that for a reason. I have review a little regarding my reason of making that decision but that is only 30% of what I am thinking... I didn't want to disclose the reason to you because I know it well that you can never understand it... Spiritual issue... Selfish? If you wish to categorise me in such category then I have nothing to say... Let God judge my actions then..

I know it well that time can never go backwards... I know that I can never have the exact same person back into my life anymore... I know everything happened for a reason... Let the reason be my lesson then...

Sorry for not being an understanding person... I am learning.... It is really a hard task but I know God is there to guide me and you... May the Lord God bless us... Amen..

Drift, drift and drift....

I like speed.... I like car... For your information, I don't know nuts about all those engine and stuff.. I just like the feeling of sitting in a car that fly... However, it is not easy to gain my trust unless you are really good in driving =P I got kind of irritated when people "act" as though they are really good in driving just to impress a girl but the truth is they are unskilled... Please... Trust me... You are not at all impressing the girl but you are scaring her off! Haha... Well, unless most of the girls are like me... Immune with reckless driving... Haha... Don't ask me why, don't say I am weird, don't say anything... Just watch this video clip that I got it from my friend's web site... =P Though it is just a game but it somehow remind me of "Takumi" =) SO MISS HIM!!!!



Monday, November 20, 2006

Wishing to be no one in this world...

I.... Lost my way.... I know it well that the Lord is right beside me... I am scare.... Having tiny little faith... I know what is wrong... I know the problems.... 1 Tim... Always keep that in mind... Timothy, Timothy and more Timothy... I have been studying this book for quite some time now... Almost everything in the book I am familiar... Yet always remember that it is not the knowledge that save me but implementing the words in my life.... WATCH YOUR TONGUE, THOUGHTS AND WAY OF SPEAKING! You are not a saviour. God is...

I never wish to see those things anymore... It is really very painful in my heart... I really wish that the Lord will have mercy on me... I am not that strong... I am really a weak person... Specially my heart... How many cuts are there?? Countless... I really got nothing to give.... All I have is just a broken heart... How can I??? How can I??? I really am speechless... Do excuse me... I just faught with a person.... I really really am sad seeing him living his life like that... Why force yourself? I raelly don't understand... I only know that emptiness can never be fill by human....

I am no one... I wish to be no one... Can I really do that? I doubt.... How I wish that now... My shadow will never be found in this world anymore....

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Ah Jia Ah Jia fighting!

Dizzy..... Friday is the day... I didn't know how to describe my feeling... Is it happy? Is it sad? Is it this? Is it that? Who knows? Feeling beyond words... Haha... Talking nonsense... I got back my DDD result and I am happy with it.. Though I didn't expect it but praise the Lord for the blessing upon me.. =)

SaD?? PD test.... Straight after my DDD class I have my PD test... The moment I step in the classroom the paper is being distributed... =.=" "You can start once you get the question paper.." GANAS! I didn't know how to answer the question... I hantam, hantam and hantam only... I really rest my case on it.. Really difficult! I wrote down what I think it is relevant though it doesn't seems to be the answer for the question.. I don't even have the time to think twice but just pour out every single thing into that piece of paper... I think the lecturer will have a shock when he look at my writing.. I doubt he can read... I was so nervous until I can write properly =.=" Can you imagine the pressure upon me? This is a fully incourse subject... This test is part of my "life". If I flung... There goes my higher diploma result...

I really am tired now.. Going to date with my bed now.. Just to release myself here =P Hehe... Good luck to those who are facing exam now! GAMBATEH!!!

Sundial Dream by Kevin Kern

Really sweat.... Blogspot kept on giving me error when I want to upload Youtube video clip inside... Grrr.... Anyway.. Thank God that I manage to do so.. Here's another Kevin Kern's song but it is not play by him... Just enjoy his masterpiece =) The name of the song is "Sundial Dreams" Ahhh... Fell in love with him =) I have no idea why but I can't display the video here as it is enabled by request... So just click on the link and you can view the clip through YouTube... =) Enjoy..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=akSfEoRX3pE

Kevin Kern

Wao... Really am amaze by this guy's talent... Kevin Kern... Though he is blind but his determination and faith is so strong... I really admire people like this.. I fell in love with the song "Though the abhor". This is his own creation! Can you imagine that? He reminded me of the late Beethoven....

Do enjoy his performance... Haha... This is seriously hilarious.... "You talk too much, my God!" Haha... It should be "You talk to fast!" Instead of fast he said too much Haha... Funny! Sorry to those who can't understand chinese.. =)

Part 1


Part 2

Friday, November 17, 2006

Troubled heart...

The pain is unbearable... I pray that the feeling will leave me soon... I really don't understand why this type of situation keep on knocking on my door.. However, I always believe that everything happened for a reason... Everything is under God's hand... Nobody can run away from it... The pain.. Is just a short term pain... Wound cure but scar remains... Can you imagine? If I am so so upset with it, how about God? Don't you think it is 10 times or 20 times or even more painful than what I have felt??

I started to realise something... The more I want to know, the more bad news I got... So... I am now starting to let go of every single things in my life that I am so concern and worried about.... I didn't want to know anything, anymore... I shall not interfere in your life anymore.. Let God lead you.. I really don't know what to say nor do except to pray for you. I really have enough of it.. I just want to focus on my life and trials now... I didn't want to know anything anymore unless you volunter to tell me... I am really tired...

I am having my test in few hours time and I am not prepared for it.. GREAT.... May I go in peace...

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Exploding... Part 2

No doubt that following Christ is a hard path but Christ do promises us great reward. However, do note that the bible didn't teach universalism (that all will be saved). The bible told us that gospel is for all people regardless of their race or standing but only those who believ (trust) in Chritst enjoy the benefits of salvation. Are you putting your trust in Him and exercising godliness?

"SO HARD! So many temptation around me! How to hold on?", "Wah, so mah fan, so many rules and regulation, lazy la... No need to follow la.. If I think I can do it then I will do, if not, then it is not part of the requirement of God.", "Oh? Need to follow? Don't know oh, Mummy said Sunday need to go church then go only lo.. Honor your parents mah.. No meh?", "I tried but I kept falling, so what is the point following? Leave it as it is... If I were to be saved, I will be.. By grace mah...."

Are all those part of what you are thinking? Yes? *shake my head* I shall pray hard for you! Who is God in your life? Christianity is never a "religion" only but a relationship! A relationship with Your Daddy! Chrisitianity is never "Because my friends said I can have eternal life if I join, so I go church and started calling myself a 'Christian'". Sorry to break your heart, you are not considered as one if you didn't put trust in Him and follow His will... To be a Christian is not as easy as you have in mind. To live a holy life is never easy. Devil will be there 24/7 targeting you! The nearer you are to God, the more trials and struggling you need to go through! Being a Christian is never because of convenient but conviction! Are you willing to do that for your Daddy?

I am well aware that each and everyone of us are easily tempted but did you put trust in the Lord for once to overcome it? It is a very hard process, I know, but did you try? Didn't God said "Humanity speaking it is impossible but with God, all things are possible" (Mark 10:27)? I was prompted with questions when I said "temptation is too strong so I give way for sin to enter" to a Christian brother. I didn't manage to answer the question... I know I got nothing to answer but to said "I am wrong for looking down at my God's power"

Question 1
Is there anything more desirable than God?
If yes, who is God in your life? Where you place Him in your life? First priority? Last in the list? What is the main factor that made you fall?
If no, why then you fall?

God said no temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. (1 Corinthians 10:13)

Are you willing to take the way that He has provided you? There's always a price to pay, are you willing to do that? Or is it because it is not convenient for you hence you choose to live in your sins? Is it because God is nobody in your life so His words is nothing to you but the worldly things meant a lot to you? What is right and what is wrong? I think each and everyone knows about it.. It is just the matter whether we carry out the right things or not... Are you doing it?

Bible actually warned us to be careful... We shouldn't be putting our trust in uncertain things. "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." (Matt 6:19-21)"
In this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life. (1 Tim 6:19)

I was once yearning for money (uncertain things). I work, work and work. Workaholic is my name... Can you imagine? My assistant manager actually asked me not to work anymore and go for a holiday! That is how hard I work... You will see me there almost everyday! Even my lecturer felt sick seeing me there =P I still work now but at least I am not addicted to it as how I was =P I was actually satisfied when I got the salary but sad to say.. I don't have the health to enjoy it. I don't even have the time to enjoy it! I started to think... What have I "gain" throughout the whole process of working? Tiredness is for sure, my temper coming back to visit me, got tonnes of scolding from the manager, got feedback for my work, got health problems, got more problems with collegues as we meet up more often, and the list goes on. Most important thing is.... I... "Disconnect" with God. Besides than having some "extra" money, I didn't see the benefit of working... I rather sit in a boring lecture. At least I gain some new knowledge, no health problems and I have no fights with my friends!

But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. (1 Tim 6:6-10)
Didn't the bible tell us that? A stubborn little me doesn't seems to take His word seriously. Therefore, ending up in such pityful, pathetic and sad situation.

Why look at uncetain things when God is there to provide you? If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matt 6:30-34). Yes, how little faith I have towards God... Are you the same?

Regardless of what trials you are in, the objective of God to put you in the situation is the same... To test you, to mould you and to make you stronger. I am facing trials myself... Writing this long long post is not for fun sake but to encourage all my brothers and sisters who are struggling with their sins and trials. Let us continue to put out faith in Him! GAMBATEH!!!

Exploding... Part 1

Many many things happened within this week. I almost went out of breathe and end up in a "box", where the measurement is 5 feet x 3 feet.

I just went through my DATABASE test on Friday. YES, DATABASE! My "FAVOURITE" subject of the year... 6 chapter in 1 test and the most abhor part is.... She kept on emphasing on "normalization" this chapter yet in the test, nothing came out but an easy onjective question on Normalization. =.=" Thank God I didn't put much effort in studying that! Haha... Just for the readers' information, my test was ok but the sad part is... I actually forgot the term "ALTERNATIVE KEY" and "RECURSIVE RELATIONSHIP". I hate myself very much for that! I can't imagine myself sitting in the test for more than half and hour thinking of this 2 term but I ended up leaving it blank. ISSHHHH!!!! STUDY HARD AND REMEMBER THE TERM NEXT TIME 633!!! Can't blame me too much though.. It is a last minutes study... What you expect =P

Ok enough of my frustration on DB... Now.... I am going to write something serious... As I mention earlier, I got tonnes of bad news this week. Allowed me to just drop down my feelings and thinking in this small little "box" of mine.. I am going to explode very soon if I continue thinking about this...

Things changed as time passes by... Who will remain the same? I realise how each and everyone of my friends changed (Including myself)... Some change for the better and some took the other road... Is there anything that remain constant? Well, I never came about such thing.... Except for God...

The wonderful love in our life comes from a pure heart, from a good conscience and from a sincere faith (1 tim 1:5). Are you experiecing love in your life? Yes? No? How do you define love anyway? "Beautiful look lo, so I love her", "Cool personality, can yo yo with me lo!", "CHUN bodyshape! That's why I love her!", "A person that I think ok then willing to be my gf then beautiful lo... If no, she is not loving at all, not worth my love.", "As long as the person is rich, then then love is in the air.". How about you? What is your say about "love"?

According to bible, love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. (1 Corinthians 13:4-8) I always like this saying in the bible because it define love as pure and a loving thing in this world. Have you ever ask yourself how come you can love someone? Yes? No? Well, I did... And God showed me...

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. ( 1 John 4:7-12)

To me, loving someone is really a hard task. It really required you to love that person as a whole. To love him as who he is, to accept him as who he is, to give him my sincere love etc... I am a human, with an imperfect body and unholy thinking, it is far than impossible for me to love a person with my sincere love every single time. Somehow or rather, sometimes, I do feel some hatred towards people that I loved. For instant, hmm... My mom, she is as stubborn as a cow (Hehe.. I am stubborn also! LOL) when I tell her that the way she is carrying out a task is wrong, she will normally scold me back in return for being rude. =.=" Sometimes, in my head, I am thinking... How on earth am I going to love my parents when they are so so so stubborn? However, God said honor you parents. Regardless of what happened, they are still your parents, without them, who are you to speak? Well, from this incident, I think many of you will understand why I said loving a person is so hard... Hmm.. Don't know about your thinking, but it is a learning process for me currently...

If loving a person is hard, what more loving God? How can we be a strong and healthy Christian? Answer? You must nourish yourself on the word of God and on good doctrine (1 Tim 4:6). It is clearly stated in the bible that in later time some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons (1 Tim 4:1). Look at yourself, are you one of them? You should know the answer better.

Beware... Beware of FALSE TEACHERS! You must REJECT ERRORS (godless mythsand old wives' tales) and train yourself to be godly (1 Tim 4:7) You must make sure that you discipline yourself if you wish to exercise yourself to godliness! Time should be properly manage so that you set apart time for God and His words yet at the same time didn't neglect your duty that God assigned to you. Things that will harm your soul should be avoided.

*To be continue...*

Wednesday, November 8, 2006

失去一个人的感觉,你能体谅吗?

昨天他好端端的站在我身旁,
昨天他是如此的好动,
昨天我还感受得到他那温暖的体温,
昨天他的笑容如此的甜蜜,
昨天他还对我说“你很漂亮”,
一切一切都在我的回忆里头。

今天,突然间,世界变得很冷漠,
今天,突然间,我在也感觉不到温暖,
今天,突然间,我的心很痛,很痛,
今天,突然间,我发现,世界没有任何的改变,
不一样的就是,他已在这世界上消失了,
整个世界都没有任何人发觉到他的消失,
只有我知道。。。

他的味道已不再人间中出现,
他的背影也从此在这世上永远的消失,
冷冰冰的他,再也不散发温暖的体温,
冷冰冰的他,以忘了如何微笑,
冷冰冰的他,以把我们的回忆都忘了,
我们的甜, 我们的苦,我们的 酸与一切的回忆
就剩下我与上帝记得。。。

残忍的他。。。 不说一句“再见”就走,
残忍的他。。。 独自地去见上帝,
残忍的他。。。 让我一个人独自的留在这里,
我会好好的过下去,我会坚持的过我的日子,
凭着上帝的恩典,凭着上帝的力量,
我知道我可以度过这一关,
我会好好地把我们的回忆,
小心翼翼的放入你睡的“床上”,
好让你也把它都带走,
让我也在此刻把一切的回忆都删掉,
因为给死人最好的礼物就是把他忘了。。

我从不后悔向你付出我的时间,
我从不后悔向你付出我的爱,
和你度过的时光, 是最快乐的时光。。
一切一切都只剩下过去了。。。
安息吧。。。

Tuesday, November 7, 2006

Happy birthday Amy!

May the Lord God bless you,
May the Lord God bless you,
May the Lord God bless Amy,
Happy Birthday to you.

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Amy,
Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday to you,
You are born in the zoo,
where monkey and lion,
Happy birthday to you,

Amy!!! At last you are 20 years old! Aren't you feeling happy? =P Another year of torturing year with me Wakaka.. Hope you like the bracelet that 1024 and I bought for you =)

No worries, next year, if God allow us to celebrate your birthday together we all go 7-11 and do "something" there ya =P

Monday, November 6, 2006

O.o Optical Mouse also NOT SAFE???

Just in case, please be careful.
The convenience of using optical mouse eventually caused dangerous side effect. After Three years from the first launch by microsoft, have been found thousand of cases - hands tissue caused by mouse radiation.
Optical Mouse works by release Electromagnetic high frequency to the lower surface under it. This frequency much higher than the frequency use for handphone. As it has been known that human hand and wrist contains lot of important nerve connected to brain. According to WHO, the radiation from Optical Mouse is 5 times stonger than using handphone. These radiation is even worse for those product with lower quality ( non branded mouse ), since they use weaker shield to protect customer wrist.
WHO, GreenPeace, and CNN have stopped the usage of Optical mouse in their whole office. Meanwhile Microsoft and IBM have allocate 2 billion of US Dollar, in joint venture to make a safer pointing device. Big Hardware Industries in China and Taiwan are trying to hide all fact related to this things. While in the market, most of optical mouse sold old were coming from their product. To avoid this, try to reduce using mouse. learn how to use hot key (i.e Ctrl-V, CTRL-C for paste and copy ) Use back your old model of mouse ( with the tracking ball).

A broken heart and a broken spirit

I really wish that I am blind,
but never in my heart,
As all I want is to see You with my eyes,
and non others than You.
I really wish that I am deaf,
but never in my heart,
As all I want is to listen to Your voice,
and non others than You alone.
I really wish that I am mute,

but never in my heart,
As my feeling now is way beyond words for man,
Only You, only You alone are able to know my heart well.
Previously, I was puzzled and didn't know why,
but You allowed me to see the ugliest part of a human being,
Now I came to realise that
You are actually teaching me something valuable.
You taught me to be watchful of myself,
Never be like those who sinned against You,
Yet choose to turn away from You.
Thinking that they are great and mighty,
but the truth is they are nothing but dust in Your eyes.
Thinking that they are sinless and perfect,
but the truth is a wrong will always be a wrong,
They didn't realise that without law,
a wrong will no more be wrong,
However, when there is law,
You can never mark a wrong, "right".
Through this incident in my life,
I learn to give thanks more often to the Lord.
I treasured even more the salvation that is given to me through grace.
I am really thankful that I have the opportunity to know You.
I am really thankful that I have the chance to read Your words.
I give thanks for the overwhelming joy and blessing is which upon me.
I have nothing in my hand, my life....
The only thing I can offer to You are just broken heart and a broken spirit.
May You, Lord accept it with an open arms.

Sunday, November 5, 2006

Who am I?

DB test is on Friday and I have no idea how am I to put the 6 chapter into the tiny little head of mine. Besides that, there's another test on the following Friday! Gosh... Got a little stress up as there's many things on hand that is left undone. I really give thanks to the Lord for He told me that He will be there for me... Never will He forsake me, never will He leave me... I have no idea how many times this verses came to me... I lost count on that... But it doesn't fail to encouraged me to continue to press on and look forward....

I am really worn out. The trails that the Lord gives me is really challenging. I am really afraid that I will fail this "test"... Reading as much as I can and spending time with the Lord as much as I can does help me to persevere. I am besically fighting the battle with myself. The inner desires of mine is so strong that I almost got control by it. Bit by bit, I am feeling the pain... Day by day, I am feeling the stress.... However, this is the time, whereby I see clearer that God's grace and mercy is upon me. Looking back my life, I always remind myself that without Him in my life, I am nobody here.

You've Touched My Heart

You've Touched My Heart
by Kyle Butler

You've given me a reason
For smiling once again,
You've filled my life with peaceful dreams
and you've become my closest friend.

You've shared your heartfelt secrets
And your trust you've given me,
You showed me how to feel again
To laugh, and love, and see.

If life should end tomorrow
And from this world I should part,
I shall be forever young
For you have touched my heart

Psalm 13

Psalm 13

For the director of music. A psalm of David.
1 How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?

2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

3 Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

4 my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5 But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

6 I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

The untrue bible?

Story time...

If I had cherished sin in my heart,

the Lord would not have listened (to my prayers);

(Psalm 66:18)

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R. A. Torrey tells the story of a woman who came to him and said she did not believe in the Bible any more. When he asked her why, she replied, "Because I have tried its promises and found them untrue. The Bible says, 'If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.' (Matt 21:22) Well, I fully expected to get things from God in prayer, but I did not receive them, so the promise failed."

Dr. Torrey then turned her to 1 John 3:22 -- "And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight." Then he said, "Were you keeping His commandments and doing those things pleasing in His sight?"

She confessed she was not. Her trouble was not the Bible's Promises.

It was her own DISOBEDIENCE.

Source: Obedience=Joy by Bill Bright

Confuse whether should I continue on being like this...

I am posting a lot of songs lately.... Hmm.. Don't know what got into me.. Stress I think? I have lost myself in all those assignments, test, personal problems and work... I am getting a bit lazy to write blog regarding my own personal feeling... Not really lazy but my feeling now of days is more towards "feeling beyond words"... Reluctant on my next step, having a blur vision towards my future. Will I be able to pursue my dreams? *Do I even have one? =P JAPAN!!!*

Things are changing like nobody business. All those events that seem so impossible to happen in the past but lately it happened in front of my eyes. I myself was shock with my observations and the way you handle situations... You claimed that it is good for all but do you really think it is the best? I made mistakes as well, I don't blame you... I always think that my decision should be the best for all but God proved me wrong. I should never think with my own thoughts and ability but I should be guided by Him! It is really true that I shouldn't get involved in your life.. As one of my friend told me, it is better for me to just let go of you, don't care about your things and just be concern about my own character. That might be his reason of leaving but I don't wish to use that as a reason for me to just "don't care about anything". Sorry, I doubt I can even "don't care about anything", I can't help it but to at least know my friends are alright.

I learnt something through this incident... A hard lesson to learn though... To expect less from others... The lesser the expectation, the lesser the disappointment. I should always think about others, I shouldn't be so self-centered. It is somehow in my blood, I really need to be more concern rather than self-centered. I am such an imperfect human being! I leave it all in God's hand....

Last but not least..... Hehehe.. Another song to all the readers out there... It is from Karen, I found this through Friendster. She has a sweet voice... feel in love with this song... BM song... Wah... *air liur dah mengalir keluar =P* Enjoy...


Thursday, November 2, 2006

How to recruit the right person for the job

I got this from an E-mail.. Quite funny.. But to a certain extend it is true also! Haha...

How to Recruit the Right Person for the Job

Put about 100 bricks in some particular order in a closed room with an open window. Then send 2 or 3 candidates in the room and close the door. Leave them alone and come back after 6 hours and then analyze the situation:

If they are counting the bricks,
Put them in the accounts department.

If they are recounting them,
Put them in auditing.

If they have messed up the whole place with the bricks,
Put them in engineering.

If they are arranging the bricks in some strange order,
Put them in planning.

If they are throwing the bricks at each other,
Put them in operations.

If they are sleeping,
Put them in security.

If they have broken the bricks into pieces,
Put them in information technology.

If they are sitting idle,
Put them in human resources.

If they say they have tried different combinations, yet not a brick has been moved,
Put them in sales.

If they have already left for the day,
Put them in marketing.

If they are staring out of the window,
Put them on strategic planning.

And then last but not least.

If they are talking to each other and not a single brick has been moved,
Congratulate them and put them in board of directors and top management.