Monday, February 27, 2006

Lend me your hope

Lend me your hope for awhile,
I seem to have mislaid mine.
Lost and hopeless feelings accompany me daily,
pain and confusion are my companions.
I know not where to turn;
Looking ahead to future times does not bring forth
images of renewed hope.
I see troubled times, pain-filled days, and mare tragedy.
Lend me your hope for awhile,
I seem to have mislaid mine.
Hold my hand and hug me;
listen to all my ramblings, recovery seems so far distant.
The road to healing seems like a long lonely one.
Lend me your hope for awhile,
I seems to have mislaid mine.
Stand by me, offer me your presence, your heart and
your love.
Acknowledge my pain, it is so real and ever present.
I am overwhelmed with sad and conflicting thoughts.
Lend me your hope for awhile;
a time will come when I will heal,
and I will share my renewal,
hope and love with others.
A very meaningful peom to me.. The author is unknown though... Taken from Victory over the darkness, by Neil T.Anderson. I think the author faced the same situation with me? Having pain and confusion as companions... Somehow, something in this book catch my attention..
"Do these words reflect your experience and echo your plea as a believer? Do you sometimes feel hemmed in by the world, the flesh and the devil to the point that you wonder if your Christianity is worth anything? Do you sometimes fear you will never be all God called you to be? Do you long to get on with your Christian maturity and experience the freedom God's Word promises?
Well, I won't tell you which sentence catch my attention that made me stop for awhile and ponder on the question being posted to me. I just can't stop myself from thinking.. My brain.. reflected tones of events in life, as though I am leaving this world soon.. (since young, I heard that when a person is dying, he/she brain will play back his/her life...) All those event were so real in my head as if it is happening in front of me!
Ponder on my life, my attitude, my thinking, my actions, my attire, my everything! After a person encounters God, she will be changed. Am I? I doubt... I am more like a person that hurt Him till the max rather than putting a smile on His face... Heart is willing, body is weak.. My heart is not connecting with my body... Hopeless 33.. Very hopeless..

2 comments:

sephirot said...

playbacks of my life? i think of them everyday, from my earliest memories until today. 1990-1999 is the period of time i enjoyed the most. 2000 era is out of place for me. How i wish i'm back in the 90's and year 2000 will never come. Dying? oh i've given my best effort and i've grabbed every chance and taken every opportunity that i can find. If i were to die tomorrow? i haven no regrets. I've found the most precious jewel above. I've finally found rest and peace... i can go home now.

Heart not connected to body? Maybe you are writing too much. Try to put down your pen and notebook and just listen. You might learn something.

- @ 3.3 @ - said...

opportunity? grab it? hahaha.. i miss a lot.. because my heart asked me not to grab it.. in cross road..
i dun wish to go back to my pass.. nvr 1 tat... except asking my friends tat i meet in secondary to come into my life again.. in fact, i want to forget each n everything bout my past!

writing is the only thing i do.. i realise i am not worth to be known by others. so writing is the way to express myself.. listen? haha.. i will..