The mute 33

It's almost 1210 in the morning and I am still awake... Don't ask me why... Though I feel tired but my brain and heart doesn't seems to link together... Sad?? Yes, I am... Not denying that fact at all.... Why? As I said in the previous post, I am not going to spill the beans.... Hahaha... God knows exactly what happened in my life....

Sometimes, I am wondering... Is this a good thing or a bad thing? I have been praying for the day to come but when God answered my prayer, I suddenly wish to take back what I have uttered all this while... However, I know the future is in God's hand... Nobody can change that fact.... I know His plan is the best for us... I just wish calm myself down... Taking that as a reality is not as easy as I think it is... The pain is so great that I can hardly breathe... How I wish I could just leave everything and meet with the Lord... I really thought I was prepared for the day... But I fail to control the pain... I hate to admit that it is happening right now... In front of my eyes, it happened.... Sometime, I really wish to be a mute... Will that be better for me? Will my decision still be the same then?

Things will still be the same I guess... His will... Let it be done.... I just hope that I have the strength to go on... The strenght to move on... To continue on breathing for Him... May I be patient on His plan... I know I will be greatly rewarded at the end of the day...

My short term goal now? I just wish to save more money... Why?? To fulfill my small little desire in my heart... I just wish to get myself involve in the grooming industry and go to Japan if possible after my graduation... Can I achieve it? Yes.... In my sweet, sweet dream....

Chinese New Year

Well, well, well... Happy Chinese New Year to all the reader(s), if I have.... Hahaha.... How was your chinese new year celebration? Boring? Excited? Happy? Sad? Mine? A combination of sad (Don't ask, don't wish to tell), happy (meet up with family and relatives), anticipating (for ang pow and foods =P), excited (firework), boring (watching TV most of the time), a little of stress as my family is getting bigger and bigger each year... Many relatives were asking me where is my "partner". "I left my partner in a deserted place... Hence... I am waiting for him to come back and find me.... If he manage to come back early, you might have the chance to meet with him. If not, I will continue on with my "lonely" journey..." Nah... I am currently not interested in a relationship as I have a lot of things unsettle... Is it wrong to be single that long? NO, I am not a lesbian... Hahaha.... And the last one will be.... Feelings beyond words.... Hmmm.... Why beyond words?? Continue reading then... =)

My First day of CNY

Sitting in a comfortable and nice Toyota Camry.... Acting cool on the first day of Chinese New year... I was actually going out for visiting... Tired....

*Few hours later*

Introducing my cute little niece... She is cute? Yes?? Did I hear you saying that?? Did I hear wrongly??? NOUUU!!!! SHE IS DARN NAUGHTY!!!!!! SUPER DUPER NAUGHTY!!!! Hahaha... She likes to eat sweets a lot! Madness! Darn naughty! She bully me!!!!!!! Hahaha... Bully my cute little DOGGIE!!!! Feel like hitting her but I can't T.T My DOGGIE!!!!! T.T She is clever though... Hahaha... She wanted to eat sweets and asked me to open it for her, I told her to ask permission from her mom as her mom doesn't allowed us to give her sweet to eat. She even got bitting from her dad due to consuming too much of sweets. Do you know how she answer me when I asked her to ask permission? "Jie jie, you go ask mamaaaaaa......." I told her if she were to eat, she will need to ask herself as I am not eating. *Almost crying, innocent look* "I don't wannnnnnnttttttt......" Hahaha... I straight away said, don't give me that look and go and ask your mom... Ganas??? Hahahah... Children.... What to do??? Hai... Ended up, she go with my another niece and she got the permission to eat~ Hahaha...

My handsome nephew.... I darn "love" him!~ Hahahah.. So darn handsome!!!!

I told him I wanted to snap a photo of him and this is the look he gave me... DARN CUTE!!! *Another person who bully my doggie =.=" * Acting cool... Hahaha... I told him to smile for me... And....

So darn cute fellow... Hahaha... So like him! The story didn't end there... I asked him to wear my sunglasses... Hahaha...

Isn't he adorable?? Hehehe... Hmm... How come all his pictures?? =P Ok la.. I show you all another picture... Hahah...

My another niece... Hahaha... I took a picture with her... She is naughty as well... The only thing I heard from her is... "Disappear", "I WANT!!!!", "I DON'T WANT!!!!" Hahahaha... Cute little baby.... Every single things she see, she wants to get hold on it... My grandma's house has a big fan (Chinese type, not the fan on the ceiling ya) on the wall as decoration... She... Pointing at the fan and shouted "I want!!!"... Doink.. Hahaha... So darn cute.. Hahah...

She... Considered as a cry baby... Hahaha... Don't even try to take away her pillow.... Her "pao bei"!!! *Meaning treasure* Hahaha... Same niece but look so different?? One looks so cheerful and this picture showed the opposite feeling of her's... Hhaha... So cute.. Below is picture of her elder sister....

She and her precious Hello Kitty. *Her sister actually used the Hello Kitty to "mop" the floor!!! =.=" *

OK...... What is next??? *Looking through my camera....* Emmm.... No more picture... Hahahaha... Ok.... Hope you enjoy reading.. Hahaha....

Allow me to pray...

Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it.

-Rabindranath Tagore

Burdened heart on Valentine?

It's the season of the year... *Smile* Happy Valentine days to all the readers out there... May you enjoy yourself on this day...

Me??? Want to listen to my story??? Sad stories, I have tonnes of them... Love story? I have none to share.. Hahah... Still wish to listen now? If yes, continue reading... No? There's a "X" at the top right hand side of the browser... Click on it and U-lala.. You will not see this page anymore... Magic... =P

I was actually quite disturbed by people around me lately.... Am I being too sensitive? Am I being too observant? Should I act as if I don't know anything but reality I actually know the truth? Should I act as though I have not seen all those incident in front of my eyes and just continue on with my work? Should I then act dumb as a donkey and take it as nothing happen in reality? Sometimes, I really don't know which way should I take.. The left or should I take the right turning? Why is it that everytime when I think that the left will be a better road but ended up I am being placed in a situation where I can't even continue on walking?

I really don't understand people around me.... Maybe I am the only person who think that way... It really start to bother me a little for the past few days as the case got more complicate... Is there really a necessary for you to lie to me? I really don't get it... Why lie when you can just tell me the truth? Am I that scary up till the point that if I know the truth I will kill you or threaten you? What is past IS PAST! Don't bring up the issue and link it together with your current life... I am really sick of that attitude... VERY SICK! Whether are you aware of this or not I am still going to say it out... I know what is a lie and what is the truth... If you really think that a lie is necessary... Then continue on with your lie.. I am not bother after much thinking... Why should I anyway??? Your life... Your own decision, your own choice... Then may the consequeces be bare by yourself...

I really don't know what is going on in your head.. I can still guess a little on the issues that is bothering you but ultimately, if you don't speak up, I have no rights to interfere your life.... If you wish to talk, I will be there to be your ears... If not, I have nothing to do but to pray... I leave this issue aside as I really think that it is useless for me to be burden towards it and nothing can be done.... I can only hope that the Lord will lead me in the way I treat you... It is a brand new year and I don't wish to get involve in all this issue anymore... I am tired... Really tired to change my way of doing things just because you are unhappy with some issue... I just wish to be honest towards myself.. At least, if I were to meet up with God, I can justify myself...

I know partially what you are going through as well, hopefully, what I am thinking in my head now is not the issue that leads you to act in such a way... If it is... The only thing I can say is... I know partially it is my wrong... Looking at my past... I know what I have done with my own hands and legs... However, I have clear things off before I left the "place"... What else do you want me to do? I have make things CLEAR!!!! Am I not straight enough on my feelings and thoughts?? Am I not??? We are human... I know... We still need time to really leave the "place" and go on with our life.. But I LEFT long ago.... I move on with life... Why don't I deserve a second chance to prove myself right?

I.... Don't know what is my next step... Let God determine it....

Valentine Day

Valentine is just around the corner but besides than all those florists who are making tonnes of money and the chocolate price hiking up, I still take that day as a normal day in my life. Yes, no doubt that being single through all this year is really a challenge to me. Patiently waiting for my next relationship to knock on my door is really a challenge... Why? Too many things to consider before I were to jump into a new relationship.. Am I raedy for a new relationship? A person who can't find contentment in God will never find contentment in this worldly place, which indicate that you are not ready for one relationship. Am I content?

I used to hear people saying "I love You, Lord" but is that really from the heart? I started to think a lot of things lately.... I always like to say "I love You, Lord" but it really strike me when I started to think whether is that really from the bottom of my heart.. How can a person who is so in love betray the trust of her lover? Is there such statement? In my opinion, that statement doesn't exist. A person who really loves you, will die for you and will not do something that hurts you. Am I doing the same for the Lord?

A girl, who is so lucky to have guy that loves her regardless of what she has done wrong and never let go of her hands. Unfortunately, that girl's eye sight doesn't seem to be focusing on that guy rather on another guy that doesn't love her at all. Why is this happening? Yes, you might say that because that guy who loves the girl is not fated to be with her, hence, nothing can be done on it. However, I really wish to know why the girl doesn't want to let go the guy's hand straight away instead of holding on and dragging his life? Yes, I know that the guy loves the girl a lot and willing to stay by her side even though she is just using him. But why???

I think many of my friends out there experienced this feeling often... A person who is taking your love for granted just because she/he knows that you love him/her. Pathetic people... Yes, including me as well. I really wish that I realise that earlier and things will not be the same anymore... I always believe that what goes around comes around. How you treat people, that is how people will treat you back in return.

I think I am starting to talk nonsense here... Hahaha... Allow God to change my deceiveful heart..

Funny survey form

I really can't stop laughing on this lecturer! He somehow reminded me of one of our APIIT lecturer... Hmmm.. If you know who I meant.. Hahaha.. The Indian slang.. However, do enjoy the show.. It is a bit long but trust me.. It is worth the time loading and watching it! Hahaha..

Japanese Pranks

Hahaha.. I really solute Japanese people... All those tricks and pranks they came out with is really "dangerous" and embarrassing moment for the victim! Darn bad!!! But their ideas are really creative... I was just browsing through YouTube to find out something and I saw this... STUPID!!! Imagine how cold the victim will be... Tsk Tsk Tsk... Enjoy...

Stress up

The only word I can used to decribe myself is basically tired and stress up.. I am piled up with tonnes of assignments. I got 4 assignments on hand now.. Having 3 group assingnments and 1 individual. Another individual will come in next week... Madness... I am really stress up.. All the VB programs are not working and I need all those program to do my current assignment! T.T Feel like dying... I am really stress up...

My classes?? So far.... So "GOOD"... Want to have a look at my timetable?? Nah... I better not.. I think you will faint when you see that.. Basically.. The time I spent in the college is longer than the time I spent at home! My classes are really bad for 3 subjects... 2 of them (MAD and IDM), I have no idea what on earth the lecturers are teaching as basically, they don't really have experience in taeching. In addition, they don't really understand the subject itself... I.... Totally wave my white flag to them... They are making me more confuse about those subjects! =.="

A special thanks to my MAD lecturer, now I am totally lost in DFD and context diagram. I also wish to extend my gratitude to him again as he had added in more "harsh words" in my vocabulary... As for another subject (HCI), the lecturer seems ok but then.... He likes to read from the slide... Furthermore, he likes to gives us exercise on designing interface but he took too long to discuss those exercise... For instant, he asked us to design a interface for 3 devices for the supermarket which is a trolley that can calculate the total price of the goods in the trolley, a bar code scnner that tells the customer(s) regarding the goods' price and a credit card/debit card machine. He gave us 45 minutes just to create 3 simple interface and on top of that.. The time doesn't include discussing the answer with the whole class... =.=" There goes... One class has ended... Happy? NO!!!! I didn't learn anything but drawing??

After classes, normally, I will be in the library working. However, as I don't have a strong body, normally I will head home to rest.. Yet I am being "complain" that I am so weak... Why? Because, they used to study until evening and continue working until midnight. Yo... Different generation, different body and different mentality... You can't blame me as I can't work... I am not working as a full time there... I just need a break!!!!!

I am stuck with my work in the library... Every move I made, seems to be so so wrong. Every words I speak, seems to be so hurting and spoken at a wrong timing. What on earth happened? I really am blur actually.. After a day of lecturer... I will be blur.. Information overloaded... I really wish to give up everything and just sleep! Why???? Furthermore, they required for a WEEKLY meeting.. I am dead... How am I going to handle? I have no idea... Pushing myself to the limit?

After classes and work, my day doesn't end there... I still need to do errands.... Sometimes... When I come to think about it... If it is not the strength of God... I think I will probably just hang myself and die.. Tired... Really tired and lazy to even think.. Lately.. I don't really have sleeping problem as I am too tired... I will just fall flat on my bed and meet with my "darling" in my dreams.

This is basically my daily routine... Normally at night.. I will be doing some research on my assignments or doing my assignments... Sigh... Life is darn dulL!!!!!! I want to go out and SHOP!!!!!!!!

Oh ya... I fell in love with this song... Hehehe... Enjoy...

No pork..

Hello, hello, hello... At last I got a group for all the group assignment... *phew* Went through some problems in order to get things right and get things done... I thank God that everything is fine now... Well, let the journey begin... The war... Is about to come...

Next week, a proposal need to be handed in... Thank God one of the group members voluntered to write the proposal as she is experienced with it.. Haha.. I can pick up some knowledge from her~ Wee.. Happy! Anyway... I will need to start off my assignment latest by next week, if not you will see me suffering later.. And the bad news is.. My blog will be full of posts.. Hahah... Enjoy this cute video clip... "No pork" Hahah.. Funny...

The wedding dinner

A dull blog isn't it? I realised normally a highly viewed blog have tonnes of photos, few words and wa lah... The statistic increase non-stop.. Hahaha... This is what pictures can do.. A picture can speaks of thousand word... Hahah.. Maybe I should shoot more photos and post it inside this dull blog of mine =P Anyway... I am actually planning to post some pictures in this blog today.. Hopefully the internet is working fine and I can upload all those pictures in this blog.

Preview: A wedding dinner

Ewilly and I were well prepared to attend a wedding dinner... We departed early as we planned to reach there earlier for rehearsal. VRRRRooommmm.... While on the way there....

..A picture of me, nothing better to do while sitting in the car so I just snap, snap and snap..

How can I forget the "driver" who is fetching me to the wedding dinner?

After several minutes, we realise that we were lost!!! *Hit on panic button* Why? Duh... My hp low credit! Thank God Ewilly still got some credit with her. She took the wrong turning and we ended up at another end of the world. =P We were supposed to be there early but ended up reaching there just in time.. However, we were really tired.. It's raining on that day and Ewilly can't really drive while it's raining, she will get very blur for some reason... I on the other hand, praying hard that she can recognise the road and get there safely..

At last.... Ground!!!! Hahaha... We arrived safely but we were exhausted... First thing that came into me is... TOILET!!!! Haha.. Yo, though it is not my wedding but I don't wish to look messy on that day... Furthermore, I was with holding my bladder for quite some time! Hahah.. This is what happened when I was too bored in the toilet..

A picture of Ewilly and me

A quick snap shot of me

Just to avoid poeple coming in the toilet and start to search for both of us, we at last came out from the toilet. I think we were there for more than 15 minutes.. Hahah.. Can't really remember as too blur... During the wedding dinner, we can't stop ourselves but to snap some photos while the foods were served.

The 38 pohs

A girls group photo

Ok... I think that is enough for today.. Lazy to upload so many photos.. Hahaha.. Hope you enjoy viewing it =)

The stress...

Darn stress up... On the FIRST DAY of class, my lecturer was so generous and decided to gave us an early ang pow for the coming Chinese New Year. I just started my course last week and I have 2 assignments on hand. Aren't you all happy for me? I think this is my very first time skipping class due to sick (college)... I actually plan to take "MC" the whole day but somehow I don't feel right when I was resting at home. As though I have something on hand but it is undone.. I really am uncomfortable. I ended up skipping only one morning class. Haha...

The moment I steped in the second class, the lecturer pointed at me and said "Huh, you were not here for the morning class" =.=" Cis... I changed my coat as having fever... A wool type of coat yet I was feeling cold... It's as though I was at north pole.. Hahah... Audi 1!!!! Madness air conditional...

I have been sick for quite some time now... I guess Mr Sick really loves me a lot! Dating me from time to time though I do not wish to go out "dating" with him... Sigh... I was having a high fever last last Sunday but I recovered the next day as I slept through the whole evening... Following week, suddenly, I felt very dizzy when I woke up... My head was heavy... It was the first day of class and I was not feeling well at all... For your information, my fever is no more with me but I still have flu and cough, faithfully following me wherever I go...

I don't really have proper sleep lately as my brain didn't seems to know the word "rest". It is spinning 24/7.... I have dreams and nightmare most of the time. I tried to take nap in the afternoon and it worsen the situation! Just today, I dreamt of a dog chasing me... =.=" Cis.. This morning, I actually asked (more like pleading her) my mom to rear a dog.. My brother's gf is giving out a dog... A huge dog though... It's 1 year plus old, weight more than 20kg. I like dogs but at the same time afraid of dogs.. Hahaha.. If they are nice to me, then I like them all =P Talking nonsense... Hehehe... Ya... What I am trying to say is... I can't have a good night sleep... Is either my eyes will be wide open or I sleep without peace...

Yes, I really have a lot of things in head.. My classes starts from 845 in the morning and end at 5pm. I only have one day whereby class start at 1025 in the morning but end at 6 in the evening! I don't even have time to work! Madness... I am so drain out at the end of the day... I can hardly do errands back at home.. What do I get at the end of the day? Knowledge! I am happy actually whenever I have the chance to sit in class and learn something new everyday. You can't imgine how happy I am to be able to study.... I used to hate studying but now I started to realise that studying is not for others but for myself =) The more I know, the more I can contribute, the more I can serve the Lord. I know I am not doing an excellent job in studying but I am trying my very best =)

Besides knowledge that I gain, I on the other hand obtain scolding from my mom as well.. I didn't help out much as I am really tired.. I still try my best to set up the table, mop the floor and even fold the clothing but regardless of how I try I didn't seems to satisfy her request on me.. I will continue to try though =) May the Lord grant me strength to hold on..

Bla... Bla... Bla... A long post with tonnes of blas of mine... Hope you are not sleeping after reading my blog as it is too boring... Hohoho... Happy Chinese new year to all..

The dinner

I would like to use this opportunity to extend my gratitude towards a newly couple. *You know who you are, not sure whether my "mama" is reading this or not, but I really hope she still visit my blog*.

Actually this week is really a tough week for me... I just started my semester 2 and I am asked to handle 5 subjects. 3 groups assignments, 2 individual assignmenets, 2 final exams and still uncertain on the number of test I will need to go through... I am lack of confident to go through this semester but I am thankful for the opprtunity to go through this. I still believe whole-heartedly that God will never give you something that you can't handle. =)

Back to the topic... I went to their house for dinner this week and this is the very first time *if not mistaken* I am having a proper meal with a family and said a prayer together. This is actually the scenario I long the most to take place in my house. Holding hands and say prayer together then partake the meal together. You can never do that in a non-Christian family.... NEVER... I am still awaiting for the time to come. I know it will come... One day, it will come... Yes, nobody can imagine how happy and joyful I am... Though it is just a simple dinner but the joy in my heart is everlasting... It's really like having a meal with my parents... I yearn for that moment to come...

Thank you once again for giving me that experience... Thank you for the wonderful meal and dessert =P

I started to stay away from it...

I went through a tough day today... I wanted so much to just express every single thing through this blog but somehow, I, got stuck on what to write... I really don't know where to start. Normally, I will just write without thinking too much. The content of every post in my blog is basically from my own personal feeling and perception towards this world and my life.

Whatever I wrote in this blog is purely to blurt out every single thing that is in my head.. Some may perceive it differently from what I really meant (due to language barrier, yes, I do admit that my language is bad), some may think I am out of my mind, some may agree with my saying, some might not. So many things views, so many perceptions, so many different type of mentality... I am not really bother actually, what others think or how they judge me as a person, I really am tired to even care...

Sometimes, it is not that I am not caring towards people around me. I can know their condition by seeing it with my own eyes. Well, not spiritually, but at least I know they are well physically. Sometimes, it is not that I am not concern regarding people around me, but normally after asking them, I tend to forget things easily... People who know me well, should know how forgetful I am.. However, that shouldn't be an excuse for me not to be concern about others as God asked us to love others as ourselves.

The point I am getting here is... I am really tired of listening to others boasting in front of me regarding how good they are now, how popular they are now, how busy they are now as their responsibility increase, and many more. Trust me in this... I am not interested in your "glory" life when I am asking you about your healthy and other stuff. But it will be very helpful if next time you would just get to the point and answer my questions. You can save your "glory" life for your mamak session with your friends who are definitely look more interesting than I am.

I wish to make things clear before I proceed on, I am not stating over here that whenever a friend is telling me about his /her life, I am not listening. In fact, I am listening and I like to listen to story.. But not BOASTING. There's a big difference between both... I am really sick of listening to it... So what you are a celeb? So what you manage to draw the whole world attention? So what you have tonnes of dates? So what you have tonnes of appointment? So what??? Life still go on, isn't it? You still have a pair of eyes, a pair of ear, a nose and a mouth, isn't it? So what is the difference between you and me then? So what is there to be so action about? Always remember one thing that, the Lord gives and He takes away... Be humble and content with what you have in life. I am trying to learn this lesson as well...

I..... Carry out an action...... What is that??? Just keep a distant from them... Nothing much I can do but to pray for them... May the Lord lead us..

Hahaha.. Reading back... I think I am too rude in writing... Do excuse me... I will write in another post =)

Rest in peace

Sometimes I do not know what is in the heart... Such deceiving... Sometimes I really wonder why on earth am I doing something different from what I am thinking. It is connected yet it is not the same... It is related but it is not related at all... I know it is right to do so and I know it will be hard to continue on this action and thinking.

I am tired... Really tired... I am awaiting for the day to come... Can I patiently wait for it? I really believe what I see... I really do... I really am scare to go on... Scare to step out of that tunnel and go on the highway... I really am scare... You only said one thing to me...

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matt 7:28-30)

May I rest in peace...

Proverb 23

Hahaaha... While I was looking at my own blog... I found out something interesting.... A day after I wrote the post "Is money more important than losing your soul?", I was reading the "Daily Scripture" *on my right hand side of the blog* It is written there...

Proverb 23:4-5 (King James Version)
Labour not to be rich: cease from thine own wisdom. Wilt thou set thine eyes upon that which is not? for riches certainly make themselves wings; they fly away as an eagle toward heaven.

Proverb 23:4-5 (New International Version)
Do not wear yourself out to get rich; have the wisdom to show restraint. Cast but a glance at riches, and they are gone, for they will surely sprout wings and fly off to the sky like an eagle.

Enjoy reading... Hopefully, money and fame aren't your main objective in life...

Is money more important than losing your soul?

Today while I am preparing dinner, I switch on the radio... The DJs were debating on "what women want" and most of the callers who called in were saying that they need financial security from man. They prefer to have cash rather than a faithful husband... I totally speechless and realise how the world has changed. How materialistic people have became... I... Really hope that my "husband" will treat me as how God wants him to treat me... I am not really worried about financially because I know the Lord will eventaully provide us. Haha.. If I manage to find someone special in my life then I will share our life =P

I am totally lost... Lost on what should be my next step. Should I do this? Should I do that? What I shouldn't do now? What I should do now? I really don't know. Regardless of what I have done, you will never be happy with it. So why bother? Because... I really wish to live a life that is glorifying God's name... I came too far to give up just like that... I don't wish to give up either...

Is education equals to money? Why do you study? Have you ever taught of that? Your answer to me is.. Without education, you can't earn money. I was sad when I heard that.. How worldly that thinking is.. True, I don't deny that every human being need money but until the extend money became your master, that is too much. You study just because of money, to me, that is pathetic. You don't know how much fun you have missed out.... You really don't know... Donald Trump, Bill Gates and many more don't have high education, so what? They earned big moeny. Doesnt' that prove your statemenet so wrong? I am more concern regarding the character... If you were to have good character, who won't want to emply you?

I only wish to have a simple life... If God bless me with wealth, I thank God for it. If not, I pray that Lord will make sure that I have enough for every day. That is more than enough for me. I don't wish to be like the person in "The Click". He was fortunate as he can "rewind" his story but in real life, can we do that? Do you know how many people out there miss out so many things in life due to the objective in life is seeking money and fame? Do you really think that they are happy? Some might be happy but money is something that is not long-lasting. So what you gain the whole world wealth? What's next? You have nothing else to proceed to, am I right? What is the point of you gaining the whole world but losing your own soul? Why go for something that is not long-lasting?

I am not saying that you are to sit at home and wait for money to fall from the sky.. That is going to another extream... I just hope that I can work and earn my own living and be content with what I have in hand now. As long as I am breathing, I wish to glorify His name....

Bukit Tinggi

Don't ask me why but out of the blue I wish to go to Bukit Tinggi. Not for a stay of cause but just a one day trip.. It looks nice but what I heard is, there is nothing much to play in that place. However, who cares? Well, at least I don't... I just wish to go there and relax and enjoy the slow pace of life over there... A break from this hectic life of mine... A break from all those things that is in my head... Here are some details regrding the place...

Bukit Tinggi is just over an hour's drive from Kuala Lumpur City centre and lies some 2,500 feet above sea level.

Colmar Tropicale, located in Bukit Tinggi, Pahang, is a replica of a collection of buildings from a north-eastern village in France dating back to the 16th Century. It's just like a picture postcard. The French themed resort was opened in July 2000. It's surrounded by lush tropical forest land. Just RM 16 for adults and RM 8 for children below twelve, you can enjoy the various entertainment at Colmar Tropicale. A clock tower at the entrance welcomes the visitors. You need to walk up (and down) curvy concrete staircases to view the entire development.

The theme hotel is made up of eight blocks of architectural wonder, each with its unique style, from its colourful roof tiles to cobblestone ground. The hotel has several outlets, where you can dine in the French way. Central to the village is Colmar Square where the aroma of the blooms will tantalise your senses. There are fountains and park benches in the square for relaxation after a hard day's work browsing in the 17 theme shops, or should one wish to take a breather from participating in the various activities. The drawbridge reminiscent of ancient castles, clock tower with an original cuckoo bird clock, and the viewing tower complements the ambience.

Live bands and snake performances entertain the visitors on a stage. A clown juggles balls and pins, rides on his cycle, hops around playing tricks and acting merry. Authentic French food is served from sidewalk cafes and restaurants. The tables are placed strategically around the square so you can enjoy a meal or glass of wine whilst taking in the ambience.

The children can play with the adorable furry beings at The Rabbit Park and you can discover Japanese authenticity at the Japanese Village.

The Japanese Village is located at 3,500 feet above sea level. The first of its kind outside Japan. It encompasses a Japanese Tea House, Sakura and Ume Tatami Suites, and a Botanical Garden. An hour long authentic Japanese Tea Ceremony conducted by Kimono clad ladies can be observed at the Japanese Tea House located within a Japanese garden with mini waterfalls and a pond of multi-coloured Koi.

A one kilometre walk path built on four acres of virgin forest lies the Botanical Garden. Here amidst lush greenery, one can appreciate the sight of multi coloured and multi shaped floral and fauna, hear the call of birds and monkeys, insects buzzing and the fragrance of the growing forest. Signs with names and information snippets of trees, plants and flowers were put up for visitors.

(Retrived on 16/01/2007 from http://www.cuti.com.my/Sub/Pahang/guide_bktinggi.htm)

Nokia 6233 and me..

Trying out the Nokia 6233 camera while I have nothing to do on Tuesday night... Though it is only 2 mp but the quality is consider alright to me... Pictures are quite clear... Hehe.. A picture of me and my cute little TY teddy bear *Christmas present*

Well, how can I miss out my doggy while taking picture? Hehehe... Introducing... *drum drum drum* My cute little doggie with my TY bear... They get along quite well... Heheh... Oh.. I didn't manage to take a photo of Tody *my another doggy* as I was too tired.... Though it is only 9 something while I was playing with the camera phone but I was too tired to even bath! HOWEVER.... I still force myself to pick up the towel and took a hot shower then put on my pyjamas... Can't stand the dirt on my bed... Anyway... Why am I telling you all this things? Weird girl... I am suppose to show you my cute little babies photo! Here it is...

Aren't they adorable?? Well, at least I think they are =P I will really hit the person who try to harm them! Haha... Ewilly should know it well.. Haha... Here's another picture of me... A sleepy and tired look...

Am I willing?

Who will understand my feeling now? Nobody... Nobody at all but God... Trying my best to put down every single thing that is in my head but I failed to do so. Everywhere I go, every place I visit, every human being I met, every conversation that I made, doesn't seems to be able to take away what is in my heavy head. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second, my head is non-stop spinning, how can I put a stop to this?

Whether is it for the good of myself or not, I will continue to press on and wait patiently for the Lord.. I know His plan is to prosper me and never to harm me. May I stand firm and be strong... I know time will take away all my pain eventually. Until then, may I continue to be with Him and never be shaken due to this.. Though my heart hurts but I know God will heal me... Do I have the faith like the women in Matt 9:20? Am I willing to believe?

Gambateh!

Big apologies to those who are involved on Sunday... I am really sorry to give you more pressure and burden on that day... I know you are very tired on that day as well... Sorry.. Didn't know things will turn out that bad.. I will take this as a lesson and take note of the time well next time.

I will continue to keep you in prayer. I know you are stress out right now but I know it well that God will raise you up and you will go through this. God is always with us so continue to press on and have faith. Gambateh together o~!!!!!