A broken heart and a broken spirit

I really wish that I am blind,
but never in my heart,
As all I want is to see You with my eyes,
and non others than You.
I really wish that I am deaf,
but never in my heart,
As all I want is to listen to Your voice,
and non others than You alone.
I really wish that I am mute,
but never in my heart,
As my feeling now is way beyond words for man,
Only You, only You alone are able to know my heart well.
Previously, I was puzzled and didn't know why,
but You allowed me to see the ugliest part of a human being,
Now I came to realise that
You are actually teaching me something valuable.
You taught me to be watchful of myself,
Never be like those who sinned against You,
Yet choose to turn away from You.
Thinking that they are great and mighty,
but the truth is they are nothing but dust in Your eyes.
Thinking that they are sinless and perfect,
but the truth is a wrong will always be a wrong,
They didn't realise that without law,
a wrong will no more be wrong,
However, when there is law,
You can never mark a wrong, "right".
Through this incident in my life,
I learn to give thanks more often to the Lord.
I treasured even more the salvation that is given to me through grace.
I am really thankful that I have the opportunity to know You.
I am really thankful that I have the chance to read Your words.
I give thanks for the overwhelming joy and blessing is which upon me.
I have nothing in my hand, my life....
The only thing I can offer to You are just broken heart and a broken spirit.
May You, Lord accept it with an open arms.