The shadow of sins...

I really like the illustration given by Pastor, emm... Can't remember his name nor how to spell his name... He is here only for the ministry conference....

If we go closer to the light, the size of our shadow will be bigger.
If we were to go further from the light, the size of our shadow will be smaller...

The light is used to illustrate God, while the shadow is refering to our sins.... The closer we are to God, the more we notice how unworthy we are.... How sinful we are and how much we need God to be in our life and to change our sinful heart.... On the other hand, when we were to walk away from God, we will not see how sinful and unworthy we are... We will always think that we are the master of our own... I tell you no... To be honest, you can't even live in this world without the help of God.... Whether or not you acknowledge the existance of God, you still need His help in order to survive another day in this world.

Disagreement towards my statement? Let us just experiment it then... Try to control your heart and stop it as you like... Can you?? You can't..... Now, try to hold your breath and see whether you can survive long without oxygen.... The truth is... YOU CAN'T... Now tell me... Can you say that you control your own life? You can't even survive on your own, how then you control your life??? Be logical with your speech... Whether you like it or not, you still need God to provide you with oxygen and life.... You need God!

Repent now and acknowledge that you are a sinner... Come to Him who is merciful and He will forgive of your many sins... Follow His footsteps and you shall be saved by His grace...

The piano...

JAY!!!!!! PIANO!!!!! *saliva coming out* Enjoy...

BFT date...

"Mai luan, mai luan...."

"That's your part ah Dodong..."

"This part yo? Put in appendix lo.. Refer to Appendix, can ah?"

"I think I send you the wrong copy... Cause yesterday I already edit it..."

"Adui.... Ani hin............."

"Chong wa emosi aja..."

(Above are some of the conversation that I managed to record while waiting for Da and Amy to look through the documentation)

*Da typing from time to time while looking through our BFT assignment*

*33: Kestressan*

*Amy: Blur2 as just came back from a tiring marathon*

We are currently in Lab 1 and it is darn hot here!!! We are actually compiling our BFT assignment... It is due tomorrow and each of us have our own version of BFT documentation as we have our own part... (-.-)" So messy.... Emmm... Why am I blogging over here?? Hehehe.... Ah Da and Amy are looking through the whole assignment now =P Me yo?? Become cheer leader lo... Hahahaa... *Jia you*

Yeah.... Tomorrow will be our big day... We will have a one to one dating session with Mrs Kwan in the staff room whereby tonnes of BFT questions will come out from her and obviously answers are expected to come out from us.... T.T I am dead!!!!!!! GAMBATEH NEH..... Hahaha... No time to blog.... =P Ta ta...

Faith..

Was looking through my diary and I found something interesting....

Faith is just like a muscle in our body. If we do not exercise, the muscle will be weak and slowly it might turn to fat. On the other hand, if we were to be hardworking and exercise, the muscle will be strong and firm.

How often then do you exercise your faith? There are a lot of trials in life... I have no doubt on that, but am I standing up for Jesus and live a holy life as Jesus is holy? Alot of things are not under my control nor under my decisions, I just pray that I can glorify Him with my life... I am really tired but may He grant me much strength to hold on...

A lesson that I should keep in head...

Mood swing... It is Friday night and I am stuck here with this stupid mood... Thanks to a person... A person that make decision on my behalf without my consent... Who are you to even made such a decision? My secretary? After making the decision then only asking me whether things can be carry out?? I really am fedup with the way people handle things. Is it that hard to INFORM people? IS IT THAT HARD???? Even if you don't, don't try to make decision on other's behalf then only inform that person about it... I got a shock when I received a phone call once I reached home. I was a little mad but things got worsen when the sms arrived.

OK... CALM DOWN.............. FOCUS......................... STRESS.........................................................

Psalm...

“My soul, wait silently for God alone,
For my expectation is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my defense;
I shall not be moved.
In God is my salvation and my glory;
The rock of my strength,
And my refuge, is in God.
Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us."

Psalm 62:5-8

Deb le???

I looked left, I looked right, I looked everywhere but Deb is no where to be found in Malaysia.... Deb is no more in Malaysia................. She left today.................. I am not even there to sent her off.................. THANKS FOR READING THE SMS LATE!!!! >.<" Gambateh in your study, sister! Will always miss your presence in Malaysia... Don't forget to send back chocolate yo =D~ Hahaha... WEB CAM!!!! =P Keep in touch... *hug*

Direct my paths...

I started to realise how lack of faith I am through a lot of things that took placed in my life... I started to cling on the world rather than the Lord... I am trying very hard to get rid of my unbelieve now... May God take away all those things that doesn't belongs to Him away from me... I give thanks to the Lord for allowing to see how fragile a person can be... I give thanks to the Lord that I am able to read of His words and know him more and more each day... May I learn from Nehemiah to be prayerful always and always put faith in the Lord regardless of what is taking place in his life.

Proverbs 3:6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. This week Sunday School memory verse that speaks to me a lot... May I stand firm on my decisions and may I stand firm on His words. It is never easy to be holy, but God promises great reward in heaven. May I set my eyes on heaven and put all my past as past...

May You Lord guide and lead my paths...

Tan Money and Lau Lucky

Ahhhhhhhh... My long lost blog.... I haven been sleeping well for the past 2 days, hopefully today, I won't have any nightmares anymore... I hate it when it is "peak hour" in my study... I will get tonnes of nightmares and tired morning... I give thanks to the Lord that today 2 classes were cancelled... Tomorrow, I only have one class to attend *yawn* Pay RM3 for parking just to attend one class??? Hmmm.... LAZY!!!! =..="

Heheeh... GOOD NEWS!!! Lucky is well now... She just took off the "operation string" today (I have no idea what is that called). Actually wanted to bring her to the vet but it closes at 330pm. Ended up I asked my aunt to help out as she is a nurse... She knows how to take off all this things... Emmm... Mission failed as Lucky doesn't seems comfortable with her presence... When my aunt left, mom suddenly played with the string and Lucky was quietly sitting there... So.......... Mom decided to cut it herself.... Emmm.... My heart..... *PRAY* Hahaha... It went on fine suprisingly! We then clean the wound with wet tissue (with aspirin)... She is now jumping here and there playing with us like usual =)

However, she still needs to wear the collar for 2 more days for just in case... I am too afraid to take that off... Though she is not comfortable, but I think she is getting use with the collar =) A recent photo of her...

Does she looks like the sun?? Hahaha... Ya, she looks stupid hahaha... Wait till you see my cousin's dog.....

My uncle actually wrapped a towel over the dog =..=" She is actually darn cute! Hahaha...So small size... Lucky like to chase her around and Money (her name) is so scare of Lucky! HahaRemind me of a mop...

The other side of suffering

The other side of suffering
By Ikeuchi Aya

Everyone feels pain.

But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive.

Even with sports, studying or other ordeals.

With life, it’s like that for everyone.

If we can beat the pain, on the other side,

a rainbow of happiness awaits us.

That will definitely become a treasure.

Let’s believe in that.

=EnDzzzz=

When things doesn't goes the way they should go, let it be, because the Lord is under full control.

When everything seems to go against you, rejoice as the Lord will be by your side supporting you.

When we persevere on, I am sure that one day, the rainbow will greet you from the sky...

How dare you criticise OREO!

I got this from an E-mail....

Dear OREO Luvers,

OREO CONTAINING TRANS FAT BRINGS DAMAGES TO HEALTH

An attorney fromCalifornia filed a lawsuit against Krafts, stating that OREO produced by the company not only causes damages in health, but also dishonestly promote their products; requesting the company to halt the sales of OREO in the market.

OREO contains hydrogenated oil or Trans fats, to prolong the storage of the biscuit, but at the mean time increase the consumption of BAD CHOLESTEROL, increasing the possibility of diabetes and heart disease.

INCREASE IN CONSUMPTION OF CHOLESTEROL

Although the research on Trans Fats affecting health has not been concluded, the national institute of science research states that any amount of Trans Fats consumed is not safe.

=Endzzz=

Being a typical Orea lover, I couldn't accept the fact that orea will caused all this things stated here and it is banned in western country. I went to google and check out the news, and guess what... There's no such news in the internet~! Yes, there's tonnes of bloggers out there posted this in one of their post but nevertheless, there's no ACTUAL fact that western countries are banning the product! Grrrr... I hate the person who came out with this article!!!!!! How dare that person critise OREO!

Lucky sick...

Sad, heart broken, sorrowful, etc. Any words that can be used to describe sad... That is my feeling now... I am now regreting for bringing her to the vet... I really am!!!!!!! I feel like crying, I feel like dying... It is as though part of my body is cut....

Lucky was spayed today... The pain in her, I felt it so much... She was in the operation room and I saw her moving her leg and wanting to get up... Yes, pain killer is given to her and the vet was shock that the pain killer reacted so fast on her. However, it is not a full body dose as afraid that she will never wake up... She was so obedient and good girl throughout the whole process but when she came back, she felt so dizzy... She can't even control her own bladder... When I came back from classes, which is around 5pm, mom told me that she is not eating or drinking at all as kept on vomitting once she consume something. I gave her a dog biscuit and she ate it! I was so happy! I then pass her the water and she looks so thirsty. Wee... Nothing happen! Happy me... I went up to change and went I came down... I saw her vommiting.... It's right in front of me..... My heart?? Suddenly so sad... Looking at her, I know she is suffering like mad...

Please keep her in prayer ok?? THanks..

I again gave her water as she really need water to survive. Her whole stomach went in and I can now see her bone structure so clearly now... When I touched her, I feel like crying... It is as though my loved one is darn sick right now and I can't do anything about it! I kept on praying that she can stop vomitting... I put clothes on the floor for her to have a more comfortable sleep and I know it well that it doesn't help as the wound is really painful...

At night, she still refuse to eat but thank God that she is drinking watering now... A better news? She is not vommiting after drinking! I really thank God that He have mercy on her... Hopefully tomorrow Lucky will be feeling better... Sigh............. DARN NO MOOD!!!!

The artistic Amy + Da as the model == ??

Stress................................ I really don't work well under pressure. BFT test is a total disaster for me... Don't ask... T.T I hate to describe it................................ There's a presentation coming up... Ah... My "favourite"..... Remind me of what my classmates and I were doing during classes....

It was a fine day and we were being placed in MSC 2 for class. While doing tutorial, Amy suddenly turned on her "artistic" mode and started drawing. I don't know why, but suddenly the attention turned to Da... Amy started to used her as her "model"... Her first draft was rejected by Da as the face was not round enough... Hmm... I suggested Amy to use her bracelet to draw a round shape... Hahah... The end product?? Do you wish to see it?? Ok...

Look like Da?? Hahaha... *Focus on the face!* Introducing.. Ms Huat Huat.. Hahaha.. =P

There's actually more pictures, but I am afraid that Da will be mad if I were to post it here for all to view haha... For that I kept it as private ok Da? Hahaha.. Doink Doink... =P

失忆症

Feel in love with this song when I first heard it from the radio.. =) Ya, how I wish I can forget all the care of the world and just live a carefree life =)

失忆症
by: 蔡健雅
作曲：陳文華 作詞：杜鑫

忘了你的姓名 忘了你的聲音
回憶就一步一步遠離

忘了天很透明 忘了風很無情
也忘了當時擁抱的甜蜜

愛不再繼續
一個人離去 另一個人學習忘記

失去了記憶
我的世界能不能夠 風平浪靜

我 不能忘記 深愛過的你
太過洶湧的會議就像風雨來襲

每次想你 都慢慢沉溺
失憶症是一種無法治癒的清醒

暴風雨 轉眼間就要來臨
當所有關於你的舊情節還在翻雲覆雨
走下去 天空瞬間就放晴
經歷遺忘的風雨再看不見親吻的痕跡

不再想你 oh...

我的勇氣 已不言而喻
我學會了將自己從往事中抽離

不再想你 就這麼決定
失憶症是一種難得一見的幸運

忘記了你的姓名 忘記了你的聲音
忘記了 我的愛情

脚印

我。。 只不过是一个过路人。。

在每个人的生活里划过,

路过的时候，

我。。 留下了深深的脚印，

或许对某人而言，那些脚印带来了短暂的欢乐。

或许对某人而言，那些脚印却带来了短暂的安慰。

或许对某人而言，那些脚印又带来了永久的忧愁。

或许对某人而言，那些脚印带来了许多伤感。

但对我而言，我所踏出的每一个脚步，

都带给了人们犹豫， 悲哀，担忧以及一切不愉快地感觉。。

没有任何一刻， 我的脚印会是人们想保存的回忆。。

没有任何一刻， 我的脚印会是人们想珍惜的回忆。。

没有任何一刻， 我的脚印会是人们想回顾的回忆。。

心里头的一道长长的伤口，就是我所能给的。。

心里头的一道长长的伤口， 虽然能康复， 但疤痕永不消失。。

正如徐志摩所说的“悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来，

我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩”

是啊， 就允许我悄悄的离开吧。。。

Where is my first love?

Today, a day where I got myself involved in something called love... I am asking myself after the sermon "Where is my first love? Where has gone the passion and the heart for Him?" For that very moment, I am questioning about my faith. I have no doubt that I went through a lot, but am I getting stronger spiritually each day? "Sin will only leads to unheard prayers".... Is my prayers being heard by the Lord? "Give ears to my prayers, O Lord"....

I am stress out... I restrain myself from going online as I really think that it is a waste of time and I am addicted in blogging =..=" To my surprise, there's a Hong Kong lady came and view my blog! Hahah.. Internet can really make the world "smaller".

I am having exam on Monday and I am not prepared for it... I am dead... ZzzzzZzzZzzz.....