Hallusinating?? Reality...

Drizzling... Looking out from the window, somehow I felt... Felt... Undescribeable.... Disappointment is the word to sum my feeling... Yesterday memory flash back in my "processor". Talking to a sister till late at night or should I say early morning? Haha.. Sister, no, I am not being influence by your words nor thinking but I think you yourself also sense that I am somehow partially in the same boat with you.

I didn't realise small things such as this tend to lead to a big big trouble... People words towards me... People thinking regarding the word of God... I am concern.... Many people told me that I am too devoted, I am like hallusinating, I am like a person that don't have the direction of life anymore, some even tell me that "God wants .... on me, God said it is not right to do this" etc.. However, all those words doesn't go in my head immediately. I filtered it a lot.. I have only one thinking and one stand, if what you said is what God said show me in the bible. Don't confuse your own desires, your own demand towards me and tell me that "That is what God wants from you". Don't even think I will entertaine your words, yes, I will listen and think about it but don't expect me to take all of it. I WILL NOT.

I learn a lot throughout my walk with God and I always believe that if He wants me to do something, He will tell me... I can see more clearly what is "white" and what is "black"... Though I am not very very strong in His words but I believe that God is powerful and mighty. When He wants to do something, nothing can stop Him. Not even you. If I am going the wrong path, His spirit will lead me back to Him. If I am rebellious, He will punish me. My life is in His hand, He will take care of each and everything in my life. Though my ways may lead me into the wrong path, God will bring me back to Him and He will never leave me...