Monday, May 29, 2006

God's words to me..

Spiritually renewed *Smile Smile* I have never felt that joy so strong in me for the past few weeks until the camp... I actually didn't expect much from this camp as I know God will not speaks much to me at this very moment... Yet He proved me wrong again.. His words just came in just in time.. A very very hard lesson to pick up but I know if I mastered what He want me to do, I will have abundent joy in my heart. Slowly I am growing due to some personal life... Going the process of moulding is never easy but I believe that the end result will be a satisfying result.
I never knew I can do things this way... I never knew I am that strong... I never knew... Because that is never me but God in me... Reading the bible sometimes is a hard task for me.. Why? because "someone" is "scolding" me... However I still chose to read it because later I raelise that the wonder of His love, His power, His forgiveness, His everything is a blessing in my life.
There is a period of time, I never like to live in this world with my family because I always think that they are not loving me... I always asked God why He put me in this family while others are enjoying their parent's love... God proved me wrong... VERY WRONG.. Actually He purposely put me in this family so that His name will be glorify in this family of mine! I can slowly see how God moves in my family, how God have change me, how God have bless me.. My life is never the same, my thinking is never the same, my actions is never the same as how I was before I met Christ...
God said one thing to me during the camp...
"Yes, you are facing trials now but am I in your troubles? All your problems is not a problem for you anymore if you would have let go of it and leave it to Me"
"Whatever you don't have now, I will bless you in the future."
This is the answer that God said to me for my problems... Though I didn't ask for an answer but He reassure me regarding His promises to me. Those sweet words will remain in me.. Really hope I can hold on to His words and go through all this trials...
Stuck with tones of assignments and stress up with it. *waving white flag*

2 comments:

sephirot said...

God only provides the best amen? Be patient and hold steadfast to His promise ya... encouraged to hear that =)

Shan Shang said...

Amen.. yes provider.. i know.. is just the process and waiting part that is killing.. hehe.. wil hold on.. let God lead..