Beach, here I come!

Getting too emo in blog posts... Sorry for that... Thank you for telling me off dear! ^.^

Anyway, I will be away for 4 days next week... Going to a place where I yearned since the beginning of the year.... BEACH!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait to get into the sea and play in the water! Sigh, too bad dear won't be joining this time... Hehe, never mind, I know we will be having a great time at the end of this year... ^.^ Right??

Gambateh ya! Thank you for all the encouragement!

无助。。。

Helpless...
Hopeless...
Idiotic...

Can I really keep myself fueled and aflame??? Sigh....

Ignore this..

Failure after failure....
Disappointment after disappointment....
In the edge of giving up....
Somehow, something, some words just appeared and...

I can never be perfect nor can I be righteous before You by myself...
I ask not for anything but time and strength for me to change and be consistent.
I ask not for anything but to take away all those pain that is burdening me much.
I ask not for anything but Your wisdom to abide in me in order for me to fear You.
I ask not for anything but Your saving grace to be upon me, a sinner..

一概归于神

情绪：混乱。。 悃！准备进入睡眠状态。

“放工”了。。。 应许我在此发泄好吗？
本人知这绝对是上帝的爱戴。祷告了如此的久，终于， 上帝回应我的其中一个祷告。。
我的心真的有点不知所措。但，还是想献上感谢。毕竟这不是人的工作乃是神的。突然回想到我教小孩的故事。。

“孩子啊， 知道为何上帝不用其他方法来带以色列人去耶利哥， 但却带他们来到约但河吗？”
对，上帝要他的人知道一位平平凡凡的人是却对不能把约但河水停住，立起成垒； 那往亚拉巴的海， 下流的水全然断绝。 除了神， 谁都做不到！不但如此，约但河在那时是涨水时期， 你有是否能想象到水是如此的急？ 水是如此的凶猛？但，在抬约柜的祭司脚一入水， 这一切就发生了。。 神奇吧？

神就是那么的奥妙，神就是那么的强大, 神。。 就是神。。。
献上万万的感恩。。 应许我接下去的走在你的身旁吧。。 原主你的名得荣耀。

Surrender..

好想投降。。。 但， 一旦回想今天的诺言，我告诉自己要坚强。好好的加油！不管以后会是如何但在此刻，我一定要坚强！Aja aja fighting! ^.^

Fire that burns

A little girl, playing with fire...
What she burnt while playing with the fire?
A letter and a key chain that came back to her from a far away land...

Mourning over the fact?
No, because she knows if she didn't play with fire, things will not turn out sour...
Accepting is better than blaming fault to others or God.

Moral of the story?
Never play with fire when you are told that it is dangerous.

*Additional...
Somehow, the fire became a friend towards it.... 6 are used but not even half is black... Maybe it is not meant to be... Let it be then...

The free food restaurant.

I was checking my mail and this mail really caught my attention. First thing that came into my head, WAH FREE FOOD!!!!! I decided to read on.... The place is located in China.

Let the journey begins....

CABLE CAR!!! Reminded me of Genting Highland. To be honest, I kind of miss that place! Hahaha... OK, after this come the interesting part...

Yes, you are not looking at the wrong picture, you actually need to go through this small like wooden path in order to get to the restaurant... *looking down from where you are standing must be freaky~*

The journey seems long...... Interesting part? Your distance with land is getting bigger and bigger... Make sure you hold on to the "railing" (quoted from the mail). Keep an eye on the person in front of you... You don't want to bump into them and loose your balance... >.<

Oh ya, never forget to look out for the people that is coming from the OPPOSITE WAY.... >.<" Now.... Only few more steps to go.... *YA RIGHT!* This is worse then just now.... It gets steeper here... There are some holes available for you to put your legs inside and cross over...

This is how it will look like... Look at the "view" below..... Nice eh?

LASTLY.................. -..-" A LONG WALK.......... DARN LONG WALK...................
AT last................ You can see a restaurant up on the hill...

Wah... Adventurous isn't it? But I bet the view on top there will be marvelous... TOGETHER WITH FREE FOODS! After all those climbing and walking, I bet you can eat a lot! Hahaha... But I have to say, if given a chance, I will be reluctant to climb up there! What will happened if I were to give up half way? How on earth am I going to get down from there? Hahaha, but I think I will still go for it though many questions in my head. Why? Hello, flight ticket is not that cheap ok.... I travel all the way there and just stop there?? Hahah...

悲

心真得很悲。
上帝的话语是我唯一的安慰。

WiNt3r L3aF

Title: Winter Leaf
Taken by Martin Ptacek
From: http://www.flickr.com/photos/martin-ptacek/2406912770/

A simple picture yet it meant a lot to me... It reminded me why I chose "Winter Leaf" as the main title for my blog. Many memories "flew" back to me... Looking back... It has been with me for almost 3 years! Well, 2 years plus to be exact. Ahh... I am indeed getting old..

OK, back to work..

背叛

再次的被背叛... 真的没话可言。

"因 为 我 所 做 的 ， 我 自 己 不 明 白 ； 我 所 愿 意 的 ， 我 并 不 做 ； 我 所 恨 恶 的 ， 我 倒 去 做 。若 我 所 做 的 ， 是 我 所 不 愿 意 的 ， 我 就 应 承 律 法 是 善 的 。 既 是 这 样 ， 就 不 是 我 做 的 ， 乃 是 住 在 我 里 头 的 罪 做 的 。我 也 知 道 在 我 里 头 ， 就 是 我 肉 体 之 中 ， 没 有 良 善 。 因 为 ， 立 志 为 善 由 得 我 ， 只 是 行 出 来 由 不 得 我 。故 此 ， 我 所 愿 意 的 善 ， 我 反 不 做 ； 我 所 不 愿 意 的 恶 ， 我 倒 去 做 。若 我 去 做 所 不 愿 意 做 的 ， 就 不 是 我 做 的 ， 乃 是 住 在 我 里 头 的 罪 做 的 。"

在此刻，圣经（罗马书 7：15-20）突然在我脑海中出现，　心真的有少许的悲。　是真的少许吗？我真的不知了。。顿时觉得自己真的是走投无路。我似乎了解保 罗在写“我 真 是 苦 阿 ， 谁 能 救 我 脱 离 这 取 死 的 身 体 呢 ？”这句话的感受。

神啊，　感谢你因为在我走投无路时，　你为我开了一道路。　你在十字架上的死，不但应许我罪一概被你的宝血洗净，　而且还应须我来到你的面前叫你一声“啊爸天父”。　你的恩典永是我一生中最宝贵的一份礼物。

Fish Therapy

Part 1
*Just woke up from sleep.... *

Mum: "Want to come along for foot SPA? Fish Therapy"

33: Mana?

Mum: Tesco, Ampang that side. Got Mothers' Day special so got promotion... Going there with Granny. If you want, get ready now and we will leave in 45 minutes time.

33: OK.

=End of part 1=

...Information Column...
What is Fish Therapy?
Allowing some kind of fish to "eat" your flesh... Emm... Is this explanation leads your thoughts to piranhas? OK, just nibbling... Not eating.. Mind you, this fish that I am referring to is toothless! ^.^

Fish name: Garra rufa and Cyprinion macrostomus (There are two species of fish)
Alternatives name: nibble fish, kangal fish, doctorfishen, doctor fish or reddish log sucker (for non-medical context)
Origin: Turkey (a hot spring near Kangal)

Why on earth allowed toothless fishes to "eat" your flesh?
They are first discovered by Turkish to obtained healing power! They are called ‘Doctor Fish' as these fishes help in easing the symptoms of those suffering from skin conditions such as psoriasis and eczema. They actually nibble away your scaly and dead skin, leaving your skin smooth and glowing.

In addition, they only eat dead skin so the fishes will leave your healthy skin alone. Children who have young skin, seldom attract a large school of fish while adults with more dead skin are more attractive to the Garra Rufas.

Each session lasting a minimum of 30 minutes but not more than an hour in order to see effective result.

(taken from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doctor_fish)

=End of information column=

Part 2
Anxiously walked out from the car with granny and went to the place. It's a very small place. It is located at the main entrance of Tesco, Ampang. You can see a 250*100 cm "fish pool". It looks something like the picture below but it is rectangle in shape. *Ignoring the cute little puppy as well*
(Picture taken from: http://www.mateerlabs.com/summer.htm)

Sorry readers, I don't have a camera phone anymore, so I can't take real time picture for you all to see the real situation. Sigh... Wait until I get my hands on a new camera phone first ya ^.^ Till then, be patience with the pictures.

Ok back to my story. Looking at the pool, it's actually a bit dirty as full of fish pooh! >.<" We took off our shoes and immerse our leg into a pale of water before submerging our legs into the water. I was the first to "go in"... *Glurp* I slowly dipped my toes inside the water and followed slowly by my legs, worrying that I will scare away all the fishes by going into the water. Within second the "feast" began. (Picture taken from : http://www.daylife.com/photo/0gyx6xocz3dkm)
The water almost came up to our knees and TONNES of fishes swam to my legs and instantly I can feel them "bitting" me. The fishes are 2-3cm long. Though small in size but I couldn't stop thinking of the scene of piranhas biting my toes.

How do I feel?

This is how I feel for the first few minutes. No, it is not painful at all but it is DARN ITCHY and it tickles!!! I feel like stopping the foot SPA! But after awhile, I was actually enjoying the therapy! Hahaha... It's actually very fun and interesting to see the fishes coming to your side and started "kissing" your legs as though you are someone important =P

I think the fishes are enjoying it because the moment I put my legs inside the pool of water, almost all the fishes came running to my legs! Even the people there were amaze with the scene (-..-)" I really got a lot of dead skin on my legs... Hahaha...

Ahh... 30 minutes is up! Sigh... SO FAST! When I was starting to enjoy the SPA suddenly it came to an end... Sigh...

Well, I myself find it quite relaxing and most importantly, my legs feel smooth! Statement were supported by granny but not my mum because there aren't many fishes that ran after her legs due to her sitting position. Oh ya, forgot to tell you about the payment.

Priced: RM12 - 20 minutes
RM15 - 30 minutes

But 3 of us only paid RM12 person for 30 minutes because mum negotiated with the seller. Hehehe... It is really a pleasant treatment (in my opinion), if you haven try it, haha, you should. Just for the sake of relaxing ^.^V

A piece of advice..... There are many places in KL that provide such SPA but do look out for the price before stepping into the SPA. Pavilion fish Spa therapy is priced at RM38 for 30 minutes while foot, hand and shoulder massages are priced between RM22 and RM149. Yes, It's TRIPLE the price I paid for the same service!

Anyway, we went to Ampang for Yong Tau Fu after the SPA. Slurp.... Ahh... I missed that place! Madness expensive though! RM 0.70 PER ITEM!!!!!!!!! -.-" My mum used to brought us there when she's working nearby. Last time we only ate RM0.20 per item. Inflation, inflation and inflation...

Ahh... I really enjoyed myself today ^.^ A Monday filled with activities

Happy Mothers' Day

Mothers' Day is around the corner... Ahh... A month filled with memories.... Many things came across my head when I think of this day... =)

Anyway.... Hope all of the readers out there enjoy their celebration with their mums ^.^V

~~~.....Happy -- Mothers -- Day..... ~~~
to all mums

(Picture taken from: http://woodennickel.com/cms/)

Ezekiel

Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean; I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will keep My judgments and do them. Then you shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; you shall be My people, and I will be your God. I will deliver you from all your uncleannesses. I will call for the grain and multiply it, and bring no famine upon you. And I will multiply the fruit of your trees and the increase of your fields, so that you need never again bear the reproach of famine among the nations.

(Ezekiel 36:25-30)

The snake..

*Put my hand on my heart*
"I hear something... I heard 'bip bop bip bop bip bop'."
"Phew!!!!"

I am still alive!!! Ok, a bit nervous... Ok, my heart is beating fast. OK, I am a bit freak out... -..-"
Why??? Let me tell you a story.......

After finish with the cooking, I was preparing foods for my dogs. I placed Lucky outside of the house while Xiao Bai at the back of my house. Both with a glutton look, anxiously waiting for me to placed their dinner down on the floor. Hehe... Ok, I like to look at their glutton face before serving them dinner. I find it hilarious... I always hold their foods for one minutes or less just to look at their funny face. Bad owner huh... Yeah, I like to torture my dogs!! *Evil laugh*

While having dinner with my mum, suddenly Xiao Bai was barking like a mad dog.
"Xiao Bai, yo yo apasal?? Shut up.... I need some peace and quiet for my dinner!"
*Dog kept on barking like a mad dog, IGNORING my words to him, SWEAT*

I got up from my seat, drag my lazy, heavy body to the back gate.... I.... Saw something outside the gate. It looks like a wire... Hahaha... I so wanted to hit my dog's head because he is wagging his tail while looking outside of the gate and bark. But I stopped and on the back light.

*33 fainted....* OK, I didn't faint.... I lied... I was SHOCK... BECAUSE.... There's a SNAKE AT THE BACK OF MY HOUSE!!!!! *Panic button pressed*

"MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....... SNAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
That's all I scream... My mum got a shock as well... My dog? Kept on barking as though ready for a fight. NO, I didn't open the door for him to go out and fight. *Sayang Xiao Bai* I still treasure my dog. The snake is around 60cm, black in color. VERY SCARY!!!!! Quickly I asked my mum to take out the sulfur and before my mum can come back with that, the snake went away. I then asked my mum to bring Lucky into the house as the snake is going her direction. I went out with my dog and he was so anxious to find the snake. He walked here and there and...... HE PEE and went back into my house (-..-)"

My mum was so busy making phone calls because my aunt was staying nearby. My uncle.... Got so excited for some reason.... He called again to my house and asked for the location of the snake and so wanted to catch it... -..-" Mind you, He caught a 5 feet snake before in his house. The snake came into his house from the back door. Don't ask me how but it scare my aunt like mad when she saw the snake inside her house! *Goose bump*

I went out alone and put sulfur all around my house because my mum was so darn scare of snake. -..-" I so wanted to scream already because I too were afraid of SNAKE! No choice but to go out and put sulfur around the house else the snake will come in the house. Praying like mad but thank God nothing happened. All brothers' fault! Came back so late! Don't like them la.... But, hehe.... Thank God for my dogs! ^.^V *sayang and hug doggie* Ahh, love them so much!

失去了。。

失去了她的祝福了吗？一位我敬畏与爱护的人， 她真的离开了吗？毕竟是我的错，我不怪任何人。我只想感谢上帝给与我那个机会认识了一位那么棒的女人，那么棒的朋友，那么棒的知己。

看着电话的屏幕, 出现了她的名字， 我顿时傻了眼。 我，毕竟没接。在睡梦中的我，突然变得如此的精神。我不断的在心里头祷告。她终于挂了。。 不久，她的短讯就接二连三的来了。傻傻的看着她的来讯， 我真的很伤心。虽然我知道她一定会很不开心，但，我不能不下此棋。

以是过去了。我不能挽回我所做的一切。只求主你的恩典降入她的生活里。。

Interesting facts

I was checking my mail and suddenly my friend send me this through MSN. I was looking at it once it finished transferring. With a puzzle look on my face, I messaged my friend and asked what on earth is he sending me and why send me such thing....

He.... Pointed out something very interesting from the picture.... "Look at the gender" That's all he said.... When I looked at it... -..-" Stupid..... "Male, Female, DOUBT". It's actually in the option box!!!! Look carefully... IT'S A GOV website!!! It's actually a government website! Look at the picture below, click on it and enlarge it if you can't see it clearly. It's blur if you don't click on it...

结束了。。。

终于结束了。。 我的心终于有了一个了断。笔记本里头也不许纪录任何关于此事。因为，我不想回顾这一幕。对我而言，这，毕竟是一个很大的突破，从没想过我会下此“棋”， 但我依然相信神的话语是真诚的。

在此情况，我深深的感受到什么是坚持。阅读圣经的时候，我真的没办法不去思考， 主耶稣在十字架上的感受。没办法不去思考， 主耶稣在被钉之前的感受。 没办法不去思考， 主耶稣被折磨的时候的感受。对，我永永远远都没办法明白他的感受。但我知道，他所承受的折磨，痛苦，与侮辱等等，虽然他可以不遵从天父的话语，脱离一切，但他依然不顾一切，选着了听从天父的话语。最后，得到了胜利。如果不是主耶稣的坚持，他的人们就不能被得救。 如果不是主耶稣的遵从，我们拿来的平安与神？如果不是主耶稣， 我们前面的路，就只有死路一条。

神啊， 应许我也像你如此的遵从与坚持。 给与我力量来面对我的未来的路。。

John Bunyan

Was reading a book in the morning and this prayer always came into my mind though I am now almost finishing the book (for your information the prayer was said in the first few chapter of the book).... It is a prayer by John Bunyan..

O Lord, I am a fool and not able to know Truth from Error. Lord leave me not to my own blindness, either to approve of or to condemn, this doctrine. If it be of God, let me not despise it; if it be of the Devil, let me not embrace it. Lord, I lay my soul, in this matter, only at Thy foot; let me not be deceived, I humbly beseech (Ask for or request earnestly) Thee.

Yes, somehow, I am still reluctant to do things that I had in mind. Though I am convicted that I should be carrying out the task but somehow, I am afraid... Afraid that I will be getting negative responds. May that fear be taken away... May it be far far far away from me... May I be like the Lord Jesus Christ who obeyed His Father's will even though it is difficult for Him to bear it. As the prayer uttered above, "if it be of God, let me not despite it and let me not embrace it if that is from the devil." May I do only what is required by God and not my own self-will.

Sempurna

One of my favorite songs for now... Currently "hunting" for this song. Anybody has it?? Ahh... Sometimes I wonder, am I better off to be an Indonesian...

Title: Sempurna (from the movie "Love" soundtrack)
By: Gita Gutawa

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku
Akan slalu memujamu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku kau begitu....
Sempurna.... sempurna....

Kau genggam tanganku....
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata
Dan hapus smua sesalku

Isaiah 55

Received an unexpected message today morning. However, the news to me is nothing surprising nor unexpected. What surprise me the most is... LOVE. Something that I thought I have all this while but this time, God extended my "love" boundary. Am surprise as well that tears doesn't flow when I saw that message. ^.^

Tears flow only when I was reading the bible. Flipping through what I have learnt yesterday from church. Isaiah 55.

“Ho! Everyone who thirsts, Come to the waters; And you who have no money, Come, buy and eat. Yes, come, buy wine and milk . Without money and without price.
2 Why do you spend money for what is not bread, And your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, And let your soul delight itself in abundance.
3 Incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear, and your soul shall live; And I will make an everlasting covenant with you— The sure mercies of David.
4 Indeed I have given him as a witness to the people, A leader and commander for the people.
5 Surely you shall call a nation you do not know, And nations who do not know you shall run to you, Because of the LORD your God, And the Holy One of Israel; For He has glorified you.”
6 Seek the LORD while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near.
7 Let the wicked forsake his way, And the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to the LORD, And He will have mercy on him; And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon.
8 “ For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the LORD.
9 “ For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.
10 “ For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, And do not return there, But water the earth, And make it bring forth and bud, That it may give seed to the sower And bread to the eater,
11 So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.
12 “ For you shall go out with joy, And be led out with peace; The mountains and the hills Shall break forth into singing before you, And all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress tree, And instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree; And it shall be to the LORD for a name, For an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.”

Well it turns out to be a comfort whilst a rebuke to me. Why is it so? Hehe, that is for me to think deeper and not for you all to find out =P But something interesting that I learnt from this passage yesterday is in verse 7. Let the wicked forsake his way, And the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to the LORD, And He will have mercy on him; And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon.

Forsake his way and his thoughts. A person who is truly repented of his sin will be forsaking his way and wanting to do things according to God's ways. Furthermore, he will somehow hate his old ways and knowing that all those things are sinful (because not according to His will) and displeasing before God's eyes. Hence, not wanting to have any relationship with all his old ways anymore.

Though it is noted that self-denial is something very difficult, but I can assured you that it will be worth the price because God said in His latter verse that He is merciful and He will abundantly pardon. Give thanks to the Lord because He is merciful and gracious towards each and everyone of us. Though you might not be a Christian but let me tell you that God is still watching over you because of His mercy towards you. Else you won't be reading this post anymore because sin only leads you to death and not life. Repent now of your sin and turn to our Lord Jesus Christ. Seek Him while He may be found, so that you too will have an everlasting life....