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A letter from a far far land...

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
*only the writer of the letter will know why I put this verse here soon.. Hahaha... ^^*

A letter "swan" through the sea from a far far land and ended up in my mail box today... I think this is one of the rare time I see my name appearing on a letter and ended up in my house mail box! I like receiving mails for some reason... A feeling that made me go understatement. Looking through my drawer, I still remember how my friend and I used to "mail" each other at school... I used to write to her and put it inside an envelope and pass it to her as she is just next door. During festive season, specially, CNY or Raya, I will then put the letter inside an red/green packet instead of envelope ^^ Ahh... Memories... I am still keeping all those letters! Reading through, I realized how childish I were! Hahaha..

Letter is something that you can feel.. You will somehow "see" the writer's feelings... I somehow felt that there is a sense of belonging... Well, there's so many people around the world but the writer chose to write to you! Aren't you happy with that news even before you open the letter to read the content? Well, at least I am... ^^ I like to write but somehow, I know, writing a letter really need a lot of time and thinking. There's once, I wrote a letter whole day but ended up writing it for the next 2 day! No, I am not writing a story book, in fact, that letter only has few pages but I spent a lot of time thinking... Pondering on what I should write and what I shouldn't. Then... The letter went to "locate" my receiver in a far far land as well.. A letter to an important person, that's why... Hahaha..

Ahh... Anyway, I am very happy to receive the mail... Though it is an outdated letter due to the delivery, I am glad that I have something that others don't have, which is, a letter from a far far land, directed to me, and only me... ^^ Thanks... I really appreciate your time for writing, whether are you reading this or not, I really wish to thank God for the letter...

我真得很想呼吸。。

我哭了，觉得一切都太难了。。。 因为压力太大了。。 面临大考的我，似乎因为身边的压力被困死了。。从没晓得， 爱， 这个字， 真的可以带给一个人种种的压力。 爱， 不是由口中说出口， 故事就到此为此，乃是凭行动与心显示出来。真如古人所说的，“行动比口中话来的明显”。

一个平平凡凡的女孩, 心里很清楚现在要的是什么。她要的只是简简单单的过着神要她过的生活，做好神给她的“功课”，好让她的生活敬畏神。 一概的东西，已不再是在她的范围里。从小到大，在还没遇见神， 她都是对自己说，世上是无真爱的存在。在某年， 某月，某日，上帝，打开了她的双眼， 她才发现， 爱， 是存在的。。

经过了许许多多的人生挫折， 她对自己说，爱， 是存在的，但，一颗受伤的心还得需要漫长的时间治疗。但渐渐的，她发觉， 身边的“爱”似乎越来越难面临， 太大的压力搭在肩膀上，我真的快透不过气了。爱， 如果是来自一颗诚恳的心，那就真的不会带给别人压力吗？如果是如此，那为何我所感受的只有压力？真如我说的，每个人都有自己的私人空间，每个人都会有自己的秘密。要不要说出口，如何说出口，对谁说出口，那些都是个人的选泽， 不是吗？

我都知道你是一位很好的男孩，一位愿意聆听的人，一位很照顾别人的人，这一切，我都知道。 但，我真的承受不住了。。 让我在这假期中，好好的把一切画清界限。 我真得想对你说， 我，累了。我，不值得一切的爱戴。我只不过是一个罪人， 世上最糟糕的一名罪人。对，虽然保罗在神经写下他是世上最糟糕的罪人，但，对我而言，我比他更糟糕，因为，他把自己完完全全的交透给上帝，遵从上帝的话语，不理会身边的苦难，在世上传福音， 那我呢？我又做了什么令上帝开心的呢？我只求上帝的原谅以及力量以便指导我如何面对身边的一切。

Burning hot weather

What a day.... I tried to study but the weather really kills me.... DARN HOT! BURNING HOT! AIR-CONDITIONAL PLEASE >.<" I'm dead... Few more days later is my exam but I am not prepared for it in any way. Ahhh... Look at the bright side, I won't need to face someone today ^^ An acquaintance in my pilgrimage's journey. Well, at least I am a bit relief from all those "trauma"... May I be able to concentrate in my study in the evening. Pray much for me... I am facing my final exam now...

Somehow, I don't feel like writing in moment like this... Ok, till we meet again... Maybe, until I get the photos from the "photographer"... Hahahah...

谎言

我不知为什么，可是无论你说了什么，我都是半信半疑的，应该是从一年前开始的吧。。我真的希望我这一次的猜测是错的。我真的希望这一次真的是有意外所以一切都得改变。。 当你对我说你因为家人需求，所以比不得已的离开，我真得很想相信你的话语，但，为何你的话语与你的网络所说的完全是唱反调？你开始不诚实了吗？希望不是如此。。。 如果你真地想欺骗我，那， 在此刻，我，承认我是个笨蛋。我也不应该在我休息时间登陆你的网站。我应该好好利用我的时间来休息。。

如果你真的是说了这个谎言是因为你知道我会生气，那你真的错了，我会比你不说谎言来得更生气。我想我不应该用“生气” 两个字来形容自己，乃是用“失望”。 你知道最伤痛的事件是什么吗？认识你已有一段时间，但，你的改变是我万万不想再去想象的一幕。不瞒你说，我以预料你会变得如此，但不是在那么短时间里。我。。。 放弃和你做朋友的那一幕了。。 我依然会像朋友如此的爱你，但，我很清楚地了解，你永不再是从前的你。。。

谎言像一朵鲜花， 外表美丽，生命短暂。。。

算了吧

我累了。。。 我把我的感情，感受，家人，友情，学业，与一切一切，都交透给神你。请求你帮助我，好让我真的真的把我的心交透给你。。 100% 的交透。。 以我自己的力量，我知道我不能。 请救主你对我开恩。。 我只想永永远远拥有你的恩典。。 我知道我不配，请求主你对我开恩。。

好苦。。。 真的好苦。。。即使掉泪，也不能把我心中的烦恼拿走。。因为累了。。。 所以不想再去理会。。。 其实，事情已有一段时间了，只是觉得没必要把事情搞杂。。。 很多事情当中，我看见了很多东西。。 不否认，很多事件， 我都把它们丢掉了，但，也不知为什么，突然，我觉得很累。。。 累因为不知应不应该说出口。。。 对我而言，可能你是做了某些动作令我伤心，但我知道你的心并不是那么想的。。所以，算了吧。。

The gospel of David, Part 1

I am so tempted to write this post since last Friday... Don't ask me why but somehow, I was amaze by the bible... How it supported each book written by itself... Amazing work of God... I am getting a bit blur in vision and tired... Do excuse me if there is (are) any typing error ^^ It will definately be a long long long long long post...

The Gospel of David

Death is something that is certain in this life. Romans 7 shows the nature of death in the human being.

• For when we were controlled by the sinful nature, the sinful passions aroused by the law were at work in our bodies, so that we bore fruit for death. [Romans 7:5] - our flesh bears fruit for death, of itself.
• But sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, produced in me every kind of covetous desire. For apart from law, sin is dead. Once I was alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died. I found that the very commandment that was intended to bring life actually brought death. For sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, deceived me, and through the commandment put me to death [Romans 7:8-11] - sin kills us, not only physically but spiritually.
• Did that which is good, then, become death to me? By no means! But in order that sin might be recognized as sin, it produced death in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful. [Romans 7:13] - We are easily proven to be sinful beings by looking at the reflection of the moral law that is hardwired into our own natural conscience.
• What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? [Romans 7:24] - Paul laments the fact that no one can escape from the body that we were born into. The DNA of Adam and Eve could not be reversed in any manner.

Death becomes the ultimate bane / enermy of all mankind. No one wants to die or to face up to death (in many religion, death is symbolized as many different things, but all are in common in some aspects; namely, the inevitable nature of it... You can't runaway from it and it's silent power... Death can creep unexpectantly into a person's life.

And it is within this context that David's fight with Goliath gives us hope...

************************To be continue***************************

(Taken from CF's notes)

Ian..

To Deb....

Yo... I can't get hold of KM... So... All I can post for now is the outdated pictures of Ian... ^^ This is when he is just 1 week old!~ Sorry for the late upload..Well.... When we were there, we were just in time to see him drinking milk.. Emm... After that.... He.... Fall asleep.... Thank God KM didn't take a picture of me carrying him, if not, I will be a laughing stock... (-.=)"

Yeah, there will be more to come... Just be patient ya... ^^

Money is no more around...

For the last time.... You will be seeing this dog moving around... She is no more in this world due to some virus infection... She passed away peacefully last month...

*不知该放什么题目*

我。。。 最近做什么啦？头脑不停的旋卷。 我快要疯啦。。

同样的事件， 不同的人。。 我。。。 真的有点撑不住了。。。 我试过很多方法来麻醉自己，但还是低了头，闭上眼睛，开始祷告。。 慢慢地把神经打开， 然后开始阅读。。满足感与平安充满了我。。 突然间，觉得充满了力量。。 我笑了。。 只有神， 唯有神， 能了解我。。

Teach me Thy way, O Lord

Teach me Thy way, O Lord,
Teach me Thy way;
Thy gracious aid afford,
Teach me Thy way.
Help me to walk aright;
More by faith, less by sight;
Lead me with heav'nly light,
Teach me Thy way.

When doubts and fears arise,
Teach me Thy way;
When storms o'erspread the skies,
Teach me Thy way.
Shine through the cloud and rain,
Through sorrow, toil, and pain;
Make Thou my pathway plain,
Teach me Thy way.

Long as my life shall last,
Teach me Thy way;
Where'er my lot be cast,
Teach me Thy way.
Until the race is run,
Until the journey's done,
Until the crown is won,
Teach me Thy way.

An Hymn that I personally like it alot... It somehow shows my life? That I needed a guide... Regardless of what happened O Lord, teach me Your way...

The CL that kills.....

STRESS................ Law assignment is now occupying my time... I am darn stress out.. Law, Law and more Law!!! >.<" So many to read... So many to put in until I lost track on what I need to do... PLAN AHEAD! I am darn stress.... T.T Help.................................................. HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BLUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Repent O sinners

I was chatting with a friend and he brought up an interesting issue...

Devil knows who is Jesus.... They knew that He is the son of God..
(Refer to Matt 8:28-34, Mark 3:11, Mark 5:7, Luke 4:33-34 for the above statement)
In all those accounts in the bible, the devil was begging Jesus to spare their life.... What does this show us?? It only shows us that the devil is afraid of the Lord Jesus Christ, who has higher authority than them. Who can destroy them if He wants to... The fear of Christ is in the heart of the devil, hence, in some sense, fearing of doing things that is not right as afraid of being destroy by Him.

Looking from another point of view, doesn't a person knows what is written in the bible? Well, at least a general view of it... Yet chose not to believe in it... Doesn't that shows the similarity of the devil? The devil knows that Jesus is the son of God yet from time to time, he is there challenging God from doing evil. However, at the end of the story, devil should know better that God will always wins the battle as no one will gain victory from "fighting" with God. Even so, the difference between human and devil is... Human do not fear the Lord... Doesn't that make us worse than a devil? We still continue on doing what is wrong despite of the rules and regulation set by God..

What words can be used then to describe? Understatement...

Having head knowledge about God is never enough... Devil has that too, but God still said that the devil is evil instead of good... Always remember that faith without action is death... May I fear the Lord almighty and do what is right in His sight... Repent O sinner....

Tapi Bukan Aku

A song that I wish to share with all... I found it through YouTube... Enjoy... Kind of saddening though... Though can't fully understand the lyrics but.... Nevertheless, I still like the melody of it ^^ It is from Keris Patih - Tapi Bukan Aku

To obey is better than sacrifice..

I fell in love with the song by the late Keith Green - To obey is better than sacrifice...
(available download from http://cfellowshiponline.com/?q=node/52)

I presume it is taken from the passage of 1 Samual 15:22. Reading his life is really interesting... I don't really have time to read it during weekdays hence, I read it every Sunday... ^^ I really like him! How blunt he is in his speech and how strong his determination he has.... Hmm.. Can't tell much about his story as I haven finish reading... Maybe you can have a look at some of his life testimonial from YouTube...

Piggy ^^

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... SO CUTE!!! PIGGY!!! *.*

Have fun... ^^

http://ecard.iclp.com.hk/chinesenewyear2007/inf/index.cfm

The truth is always hard to learn...

A day that I don't wish to mention a word about it yet the heart is really "not in the right position"... Is it really "fact of life"? I really chose not to believe that... Why can't I just put it in another comforting way? It's called the preparation for God's plan.... Somehow, I really wish that I'm blind so that all those that I saw earlier on is nothing but a black image. I really wish that it is not happening, but reality strikes me... IT IS THE TRUTH, whether I acknowledge it or not... IT IS...

I have no where to hide my face, I have no where to go but to face with the reality.. I choose not to see but I really can't go through that... My heart, my conscience and even my head are coming out with tonnes of stuff... After much thinking, the only thing that came to me is.... Do you really think that is his fault?? Do you?? I tell myself no... It is not... I asked myself another question... After so long, what have you done about the gospel you have in your hand? Do you share it as you ought to? I.... Don't.... Is that how you define love then??? No....

I don't know why but somehow I felt like crying... No, rephrase, I am crying... The heart is aching and I am not doing anything about it? How stupid is that?? HOW STUPID ARE YOU?? A wrong will always be a wrong... You can never mark a wrong, right. So... MARK IT WRONG AND DO WHAT IS NECESSARY! Regardless how I pray, somehow, it is still bothering me...

A tough time indeed.... May I have the strength from the Lord to go through every single day...

如果你愿意

心事重重的我。。完全无法专心做我应该做的事。。。我真得无法专心做我的作业。。。身边的事情慢慢的从好变坏。。。 一切真的不重要了吗？ 心里的某一部分告诉自己， 让上帝安排吧， 只要交透就好。。 但。。 不知怎么， 心就是那么的不平安。。

不知从何时开始，我以慢慢的发觉我身边的烦脑渐渐的增加。。也不知从何时开始，我已慢慢的麻木了。。 世界不停的旋转，但我又在做什么呢？正如古人所说，时间不等人。。 一刹那间， 一切都改变了，我。。。 又如何呢？去了从前爱去的地方，心突然觉得很伤痛。。 以前的熟悉感已不再出现。。 有的，只有一股生疏感。。。 好像挽回当年的感觉， 但。。我可以吗？才发觉，原来，我的心也改变了。。

开始成长了吗？还是因为世界在改变我呢？ 不是的。。。 是因为我把我的心交了给神。。 我。。 真的很想完完全全把一切交与上帝，以便可以拥有圣洁，开心，平安，安慰等。。。 我。。 只想成为神的孩子。。。

神啊，如果你愿意，请求你赐予我你的恩典。。。 请求你赐予我你的平安。。。

Merdeka? No... sleep day....

Today is a public holiday... I allowed myself to have a rest... Rest from every single work that I have in hand and just loiter around... I went to the Curve yesterday for the countdown but ended up watching the fireworks in the car... >.< Stress... Due to the bad traffic jam, we were late for the fireworks... However, we manage to get a glimps of it (-.=)"

ANYWAY..... KM treated all IKEA ice cream!!! *.* And for some reason, they started to call me small kid just because I kicked something while walking, being excited when I see ice cream and... emmm... I can't think of any anymore.. =..=" Cis... Don't like them la... We then went to Ming Tin for yam cha session but I was darn sleepy for some reason.. I can bearly open my eyes... Darn sleepy! I slept in the car.... When I wake up... I was in front of my house and my contact lense is not comfortable at all! I can bearly see and sleepy at the same time (=.-)" Stress.... After washing up, *jump on bed*....... ZZZZZzzzzZzzzzz.........

Guess what time I woke up.... Never before I woke up so late... *If not mistaken la... For this year*... I woke up at 1pm =..=" Real piggy.... Madness.... Madness hungry!!! Hahaha... Ya after lunch and stuff, I played with Lucky and there goes my day... Basically.... A boring merdeka... As usual.... *yawn*