The last day of the year..

Last day of the year... I am going out soon... Going to a place where I never step my foot in it before... Victoria Station! Slurp~~~ Anticipating for the steak... HOPEFULLY I can foot the bill (-.-)" Darn broke... My hp left with RM0.02... Pathetic new year indeed... Hahaha... Sending out too many "wishes"... =P

My dog is sick... She vomited in the house early morning, around 6am. I put her inside the house yesterday, don't ask me why, I don't have an answer for you... She didn't even want to eat her breakfast! I felt sad for a moment and I decided to bring her for a walk. She started to eat some of the grass while walking and after the walk she ate her breakfast! ^^ Happy~~~ She's still a bit blur though... Sleeping besides me now ^^

Ok... Happy new year to all and may you enjoy your last day of the year. Blessed 2008!

烟火

生活就像烟火，一开始如此的漂亮，但下一秒就消失不见。

真的觉得你可以不面临死亡吗？你以为等你年老了才开始害怕有用吗？你就那么有信心你会有明天吗？你能控制吗？虽然很多东西我都得放手， 很多东西我都不舍， 但我知道总有一天你会明白。。 虽然难受但我会忍耐。

神是永恒的， 你，会选着害怕的面临死亡还是以平安的心，面临死亡因为你知道，死， 只不过是一个阶段。。 过了这阶段，你，即将拥有永恒的生活。。

The end of everything...

Found my bible at last ^^ In safe hand now..

Tired... Deleted a lot of things today... Things that are now categorized as "rubbish". Though I used to love them but things that will hinder me to come closer to Him need to be taken away. Rather than allowing myself to be tempted, I rather it to be painful for a short while. Wielding the knife is never easy... Never... Never look back but to look forward..

My FYP research is in a slow pace. I can't seem to concentrate at all due to various reasons. I am so dead... Left 16 days to submission but I am still here not knowing what I will be doing for my FYP. GAMBATEH! Stay focus my dear!

The lost bible...

Speaking of stupidity, I have never meet with someone with such a "fish memory" except for the one and only 633.

She forgotten where she put her bible and the last thing she remember is she saw it in the recording room in church... ZzzZzZzzZzzz... How can she FORGET????? HOW??? T.T Suffering without the bible................................................................ Hopefully it's still there.....

Xmas...

Merry Christmas to all... Though it's a little too late to say so... Anyway, I am very happy today yet at the same time disappointed and sad.

Sad and disappointed, because my parents nor friends were there to witness the event. Though discouraging, but I know I am not alone in this walk on earth. I shall stand firm and please God in every single step I take. I know He has His own plan. I know God had a better plan ^^
Sad and disappointed, because people who are dear to me are still outside of the Kingdom. Though so, my prayers will be utter out even more and hoping for a transformation of life to take place. I know it well that God is working in each and every heart... Patient and press on!

Happy, because God allowed all things to be good today.
Happy, because I am baptized together with my sister, Willy.
Happy, because I manage to share my testimony with the hearers. Though it's not a good and perfect testimonial, but may all glory be with God.
Happy, because many came to witness the event.
Happy, because I got xmas presents from the church and a brother.
Happy, because I am certain on my faith and knowing that I will meet with God in heaven when I were to die.
Happy, because I had a nice time at pastor's place.
Happy, because I had a great and happy meal with 737 and his wife together with my darling.
Happy, because God made all things happened today.

In short, it is a memorable Christmas indeed. I'll be going shopping tomorrow as someone dear to me is celebrating his birthday tomorrow. Hoping to get a present for him by then. ^^ Ya, miss those day where I went out shopping alone and feeling free on what I want to do.... Hopefully to go to my favorite place to shop ^^

Signing off

彩虹

彩虹 - 周杰伦

哪里有彩虹告诉我　能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静　所有的云都跑到我这里

※有没有口罩一个给我　释怀说了太多就成真不了
　也许时间是一种解药　也是我现在正服下的毒药

＃看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着　你的身影这么近我却抱不到
　没有地球　太阳还是会绕　没有理由　我也能自己走

＊你要离开　我知道很简单　你说依赖　是我们的阻碍
　就算放开　但能不能别没收我的爱　当作我最后才明白

Repeat ※,＃,＊

(Rap)
看不见你的笑　要我怎么睡的着　你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕　没有理由我也能自己走掉
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药　也是我现在正服下的毒药

Wishes...

What is/are your Christmas wish(es)? Well, I know mine well.... Though it is impossible, I still hope for the best. I know God will eventually listen to my prayers. He knows well what is in my heart. I know things will never work out without His grace and mercy upon us. I just hope that things will be changing in the years to come. I don't mind waiting, but I just hope that His hand will not withdraw from all.

Wish you all a merry and blessed Christmas =) May God bless each and everyone of you out there...

Last Christmas

Last Christmas
By Beatles

Wait
Oh yes, merry Christmas little girl
Wait
Last year, you left me, little girl...

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance
But you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me?
Well
It's been a year
It doesn't surprise me

I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you"
I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now
I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special, special
Oh oh baby

A crowded room
Friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My god I thought you were
Someone to rely on Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore him apart
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore him apart
Maybe next year I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone special, special

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

http://www.tongcom.co.kr/dingani_13.htm

笑吧， 上帝在你身旁。。

今天，是我最后一天看到那灿烂的微笑。。 心虽然如此的痛， 但我知道一切都是上帝的安排。。 愿他的旨意我全心全意地顺服。。 因为有上帝的出现，我有了希望。。 也凭着这希望，我会继续的祷告。 我，依然相信上帝所说的。。。 也因为如此，我站了起来，告诉自己千万不可让魔鬼打败。坚强的走下去。感谢上帝，因为，我知道，我也相信，他的安排是有他自己的原因， 而且他的安排是最好的。。。 给我力量吧上帝　＝）

＊Edited*
一切负担都已被拿走了。感谢上帝因为他开始了新生活，感谢上帝因为他的心已得到了平安。虽然永远都看不见那微笑，我知道上帝会保守他。。 =)　我，硬着我的心，　把一切的东西都仍掉了。　即使是多么的不舍，　我还是把它扔了。不希望这一切再次的带我回去。　他对我的轰吓，　还在我耳边不停 的在响。。　他发怒的模样，我一一记得。　现在，我只能把一切交透与上帝。我，累了。。　我相信他比我累一倍吧。　对不起。。。　愿上帝祝福你。。。　

爱上了这首歌。。。　与大家分享。。　＝）

Misogyny

Ahhh..... 2nd week of Level 3 is over.... Approaching to the 3rd week in few days time. How were the classes? So far so good, I THINK.... Had some confusion between the two subjects as taught by the same lecturer and both the subjects are overlapping.... Sometimes, I go in the class without knowing what subject I will be learning on that day... Ok... Not sometimes but everyday, for that 2 subjects... Ya.... I am a bad student.... I only know I need to get my butt on the chair, listen to the lecturer and off I go...

Learnt a new word today... Misogyny... The antonym of philogyny. Ya.... A term that can be used to describe CMI??? Bahh.... I am just too 'yong sui' (ugly face) therefore the lecturer kept on picking on me... *Shake butt* Interesting lecture indeed... However, I still can't accept some of his teaching as contradict with my own believes... I still can't agree with the statement whereby a lie is considered as rightful depending on situation. A lie WILL ALWAYS be a lie.... It's a sin and that's the end of it... Nothing can be mark as right when it's actually wrong!

Feeling tired...................... Anticipating for the Youth camp.................... I need a break.......... Anticipating for Christmas to come.... My wishing list is cancelled..... Sigh............ No bible this year.............. Money went for fixing my laptop.................. Sigh................... Never fear.... Chinese New Year is near............... I hope............ >.<" NO MONEY!!!! This is my very last year to collect ang pow from my relatives as by next year I should be working... NO MORE BIG BIG ANG POW though you are not married T.T

Till then....

*Sign off*

Magic...

按住alt 然后按 22 3 0 7 最后放开alt (Alt + 22307)
按住alt 然后按 3 5 8 0 6 最后放开alt (Alt + 35806)
按住alt 然后按 24 5 5 5 最后放开alt (Alt + 24555)
按住alt 然后按 2 0 0 4 8 最后放开alt (Alt + 20048)
会 神奇 ４个字出现

Try this on MSN... COOL! Sorry to "bananas", it's written words will be in Chinese =P

Merry Xmas to all ^^

憔悴的心。。。

好累。。。好累。。。 为何世界就是那么的奇妙？压力慢慢的向我而来。。 敬畏神， 以一颗纯正的心来敬畏他，我可以吗？我的心是如此的脆弱。。。 神啊， 求求你灌输我你的爱，你的力量，你的话语，你的一切。。。 我。。。 真的很累。。 让我用在黑白中间的时候， 知道自己应该往哪个方向走。让我用永永远远的依照你的旨意走我这一生吧。。。 我很期待在天堂见到你的那一幕。。。 愿我凭着你的力量在这世上荣耀你的名。。让我做个明亮的光。。。

我把我一切的“不明白”， “烦恼”，“不清楚”，“远望”等等都放在你的手里。你以知道结果了，那就让他去吧。。。在多一会儿，我也会知道上帝你的意识。只要你喜悦， 上帝，我都会遵从。。。 给与我力量吧上帝， 让我不要像以色列人一样，忘记你所为他们做的一切。。 让我忠诚的跟随你。。。

Invitation..

A fruitful week, things that are unclear in my head seems clearer and clearer as time passes by... Praise God for His guidance and teaching.

God willing, I will be baptize in this coming Christmas. Prayers are much appreciated as I am expecting my family to join in the celebration. Though it seems impossible but I know God works miraculously. Let it be in His way... Would like to extend the invitation to all who are reading my blog or friends or relatives, in short, all are welcome to come over for the celebration! It will be held in my church on the 25th December 2007. I am still uncertain of the time but I am surely anticipating for that moment to come ^^

May God be glorify...

Silent... I'll kill you...

Enjoy ^^ The voice as though coming from the puppets are actually his own voice!!! Cool!!!

First week of Level 3

First week for level 3 isn't as bad as I think it will be... My foundation lecture is teaching me again! Weee~~~ He's teaching me two subjects this semester... Though a little monotone, I still like his teaching ^^

Today is my first day meeting with my CMI lecturer... Disaster.... Why?? (-.=)" He's actually one of the lecturers that I blacklisted from the library... Too demanding in the library I presume?? I am a lazy person... That's why... When I were to give out service, I will do the bare minimum =P My colleagues know me well.. *pet myself* Ok, back to my story... Never came across my head that he will be teaching me... How was it?? I think he hates me... HAHAHA....

Very interesting lecturer.... Can you imagine his ice breaking session is actually an open discussion on the topic "Equality is justice"? (-.=)" First time I went through ice breaking session in such a way. UNIQUE, is the only word I can used to describe him... The guys in my class took the lead as usual... When it is the girls' turn to talk, he actually cut us off and continue on with the guys' opinion... Stress.... He actually shook hand with the guys when they gave out some good opinions and congratulate them! Hhahaaha... He even suggested one of them to take up post-graduate program as he is too brilliant... GAMBATEH neh... Me?? I stayed at one corner chit chatting with the girls.... Trying my best to take down notes and ZZZzzzZzzzzZzzzz...

A nice subject indeed... A subject where you will need to argue your way out in order to gain marks from the lecturer.. There's no right or wrong answer as different people different view. Depending on are you focusing on the processes or the end result. For instance, if you are hungry, therefore you steal from others. Is that right or wrong? Two views, one, it is right if you were to look at the end result only. Didn't you get your foods and you are no more hungry? Isn't that achieving your goal?? If you are thinking in such a way, you are then focusing on your result and not on your process. You are categorized as a person who is holding on to the believes of "ends justify your means".

Another school of thoughts will be the actions carried out is wrong. Though you manage to achieved your goal, but the way you achieved it is wrong! You are suppose to go through the same process as how others did, which is to earn your own living or get money from your parents to purchase the foods. *Support*

Only thing that came into my mind that time is this illustration that I learnt from a friend of mine... Mean + action must be right in order to be right in God's eyes. If either one is wrong, then it's considered as wrong though you manage to get one of them correct... ^^ A wrong will always be a wrong... You can never mark that as right!

Well, a great start.... Though late for few classes (-.=)" Hopefully I can endure this and finish up my FYP on time and GRADUATE! YAHOO~~~