! happy NEW year !

Brenda send me this while I am online...
I was shock at that time but I am happy with the "wishes"
hahaha... enjoy...


http://www.lintukoto.net/viihde/mielenosoitus/kuva.php?kuvaid=1&teksti=Happy+New+Year+To+633

=永久的愛=

已有一段时间没写blog 了。。真得很想念从前曾经所拥有的空闲时间。。现在的我，忙得很。。忙碌的我，任然不想放弃那一些些的机会去认识我的上帝。。

很感谢上帝所赐给我的一切。。我如此的“肮脏”, 如此的“顽皮”，如此的“坏”，但他的大爱任不顾一切的降在我身上。。感谢赞美神！

相信有阅读过我的blog 的朋友或多或少都知道我的爱情故事。。

“We love because He first loved us.” (1 John 4:19)
“我们爱，因为神先爱我们” （约翰一书 4：19）

一位单纯的小女孩不知不觉堕入了爱河。。在那段时间， 她不断的付出，不断的关怀， 不断的争取。为的是甚么呢? 她到底正在寻找什么呢？ 不可否认她在那段时期很开心，很欢乐。 可是这是她真正在寻找的东西吗? 她是不是单单正寻找欢乐？ 还是爱？有或须她正在寻找着一段永不息灭的爱情？

现在的我所受的一切痛， 一切伤， 一切泪， 一切悲， 都是自己一手造成的。。已半年了， 甚至他都有了新的另一半， 但我身上的伤还未完完全全的康复。这段情在我身上留下了一道很长很长的痕迹以伤痕。。

很喜欢我朋友的blog里头所说的话。

It's the EASIEST to have a crush on someone
It's EASY to say "I love you" to the one you liked
It's HARD to start a relationship with the one you liked
It's HARDER to maintain a relationship you have started
It's HARDEST to fully understand your partner
It's IMPOSSIBLE to forget a relationship you have started

不知如何去形容我当时的感受， 明明爱着他但却不能爱他， 看着他受苦的样子且不忍心 。。矛盾。。不知该不该放手。 曾经向他放手， 但因不舍而把他再次绑住。最后，还是选择了放手。。

最近，上帝赐给我那个机会观看“天作之盒”， 发觉到原来当时向他放手， 不是单单因为伤心， 或不想伤害他，或是不爱他， 而是因为我不能和他永永远远的在一起。。

对我而言，爱一个人， 我不但想给他快乐和幸福， 也在同时希望能永远的在他身边守护他。

你们可能会问有可能吗？永远守护着你爱的人? 人终有一天会离开着漂亮的世界不是吗？各位。。 你。。是能够的。。

戏里头最感动我心的一句话语。。

“ 彩虹是圆形的，一半在人间， 一半在天堂。 当我们完成使命离开这个世界的时候， 就会到达彩虹的另一边， 和我们的心爱的人相去聚， 永远都不会分开”

天堂。。看到这个字吗？如何低达这地方？我又会如何永生？

只有一个方法。。主耶稣。。　

上帝说过“神爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给他们，叫一切信他的， 不至灭亡， 反得永生。”（约翰３：１６）
［For god so loved the world that He gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” – John 3:16］

世上没有一件事情可以把我们从爱分开，　甚至死亡。。因为神就是爱。凡不信上帝的人是没可能上天堂，也就等于你们是没可能会体会那永远的爱的滋味。。你想不想拥有永远的爱？如果想，哪你还犹疑什么？你，还在等什么？

) god is here (

A non-Christian friend send this to me and I was shock but at the same time amaze with God’s work in this world. A bible… is not only a book but it is properly created… praise the Lord!

Hope you all like it….

Q: What is the shortest chapter in the Bible?
A: Psalms 117

Q: What is the longest chapter in the Bible?
A: Psalms 119

Q: Which chapter is in the center of the Bible?
A: Psalms 118

Fact: There are 594 chapters before Psalms 118

Fact: There are 594 chapters after Psalms 118

Add these numbers up and you get 1188.

Q: What is the center verse in the Bible?
A: Psalms 118:8

Q: Does this verse say something significant about God's perfect will for our lives?
The next time someone says they would like to find God's perfect will for their lives and that they want to be in the center of His will, just send them to the center of His Word!

Psalms 118:8 "It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man."

Now isn't that odd how this worked out (or was God in the center of it)? Before sending this I said a prayer for you.

When things get tough, always remember... Faith doesn't get you around trouble, it gets you through it !!

God Bless You!

~ H@pPy B!rThD@y ~

Happy Birthday to you
Happy birthday to you~

Happy birthday to Danny
Dappy birthday to you~

辛苦得很不值得.....

要等下次甚麼時候見面?
到那個時候為止怎麼等下去呀?
要是沒有他, 我會一直等下去
明知道不會回來, 但還是會等
再見面的話也不是那麼高興
只不過….
可是他不在我身邊的話感覺很奇怪
下定決心不會等….
但還是會想他
還是會等下去 等他回來
不過等一個人真是好辛苦

說好不會再錯過你的
我也不知道怎麼每到重要的時刻就會錯過你
我覺得很冤枉….
對自己很生氣
所以再也不能認下去了
對 像你說的那樣…
我是一個整天讓你受傷的人
像你說的那樣…
我是一個不懂得怎樣去愛一個人
也不懂得怎樣去表達自己的心意
也不知道怎樣做才能讓你幸福
所以我想過了….
因為我甚麼都不懂
所以…
所以你資叫我做的事我都會去做的
你讓我等的話就等
讓我唱歌的話就唱
讓我跳舞的話就跳
总之你要我做的事我都會去做
按你的要求都做
所以…
不要如此對我…..

@LL i want... is to c your face

All I Want Is To See Your Face
All I want is to see Your face
All I need is a moment of grace
It’s in You that I have the faith
To stand up and be strong
‘Cause I know I’m no longer bound
It’s in You that I have found
Peace of mind, freedom from my sin
And the pow’r to love and forgive

Chorus:
I want to walk with You
Everyday of my life
To talk with You
In the good and the strife
You’re my friend
You’re my Father for all time
Nothing can keep us apart
You’re the lover of my heart

...埋在心的話...

喜歡下雨, 因為你不會知道我流淚...............
喜歡微笑, 因為你不會知道我傷心...............
喜歡堅強, 因為你不會知道我是軟弱...........
喜歡健康, 因為你不會知道我生病了...........
喜歡吃飯, 因為你不會知道其實我沒胃口...
喜歡閃躲, 因為你不會知道我在注意你.......
喜歡發呆, 因為你不會知道我想你..............
喜歡孤單, 因為你不會發現我愛你..............

喜歡在你身邊, 因為你是我快樂的唯一因素 ...

如果上天給我一次機會讓時間倒流, 我希望我能對你說聲 “我愛你”.
如果要我在這感情上限上期限, 我希望是一生一世

@ story from God @

I read this story from an E-mail, yes another story. I want to apologies if you are getting sick of my story. I am a person that likes to read stories because through those small stories I learnt a lot!
While I am in a depression stage, God showed me this story.

An aging master grew tired of his apprentice complaining and so, one morning, sent him for some salt. When the unhappy young man to put a handful of salt into a glass of water and then drink it.

“How does it taste?” the master asked.
“Horrible,” said the apprentice.

The master chuckled and then invited the young man to take same handful of salt and put it into a lake.

The two walked in silence to a nearby lake.
Once the apprentice had swirled his handful of salt in the water, the old man said, “Now drink from the lake.”

As the dripped down the young man’s chin, the master asked, “How does it taste?”

“Fresh,” remarks the apprentice.

“Do you taste the salt?” asked the master.

“No,” said the young man.

At this, the master sat besides the serious young man and explained:

“The obstacles in life are like pure salt; no more, mo less. The number of obstacles you face in life may be the same but the amount of bitterness you taste depends on the container you put the obstacles in life, the only thing you can do is to enlarge your sense of things. Stop being a glass. Become a lake instead.”

% - u Raised me Up - %

這個星期是我最難過的一個星期…. 寫下這blog 的時候才星期一, 我真的把接下來的日子完完全全的交透給上帝…. 好累哦… 如不是主賜予我力量, 我相信我再也不是現在的我….

這場”戰爭”真的差點把我打敗, 可是… 可是… 感謝上帝的力量… 死撒旦, 你等著瞧, 勝利會站在我這…. 雖然現在勝利者仿佛是你, 但我是永不放棄! 我, 現在決對不是讓步而這是上帝要我經過的… 辛苦, 可是我很清楚明白主正在磨練我, 必竟上帝會為我安排….. 時間會証明一切…. 等著瞧吧…

這”戰爭”對我來說是很難打勝戰, 因為媽媽真的很難搞! 無論我做甚麼, 說甚麼, 都是錯…好壓力…. 有些時候我本身很懷疑, 懷疑我是否做的不夠或許是我做的完全就是錯誤 (是指家務)…. 做幾乎每樣事都會被責罵 但我心里現在很清楚的明白媽媽所作的一切一切都是為了我好.. 一步一步的, 上帝讓我看見父母親是多麼的偉大….

在這樣的情況下, 我其實很想找朋友來分擔以及禱告… 可是真的很難很難找到一位了解我心情的….. 我曾經找過朋友訴苦, 但我發覺除了上帝沒人能真正了解我的情況, 除非你把你自己完完全全的放入我的”鞋子”里…. 不會埋怨朋友不明白因為每個人都有不同的經歷, 不同的想法….我還會告訴他們我最近的生活, 雖然有時我不會如何形容我的景況但我很感謝主讓我看見身邊關心我的人…. 感謝他們的禱告以關懷… 我知道因我的事麻煩到很多很多弟兄姐妹, 我乘此機會向大家道歉… 特別是小組的會員….

在我最低落的時候多謝弟兄姐妹的關懷和話語….. 最重要的是感謝阿爸天父!! 在同時間, 我聽見了這首英文歌…. 對我而言是多麼的有意議…. 和大家分享吧, 希望你們喜歡….

You raised me upBy Josh Gorban
When I am down and oh my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raised me up
So I can stand on mountains.
You raised me up
To walk on stormy seas.
I am strong when I am on your shoulders.
You raised me up
To more than I can be.

(repeat chorus x 3)
As we sail through life, don’t avoid storms and rough waters. Just let it pass, just sail. Always remember, calm seas never make skillful sailors.

- ( FooTst3P ) -

FOOT PRINTS

One night I had a dream.
I dreamt I walking along the beach with god

and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two steps of footprints in the sand;

one belonged to me, the other to god.

When the last scene of my life flashed before us,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of life,

there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life.

This really bothered me and questioned god about it.
"God, you said that once I decided to follow you,

you would walk with me all the way,

but I noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why in times when I needed you most, you would leave".

God replied, "my precious, precious child, I love you; I would never, never leave you during your times of trial & suffering.When you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

.............the end...........

This story always encouragement me, I hope its will do the same towards you.. god bless..

I am someone

I am only one, but I am still one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something. And because I cannot do everything I will not refuse to do the something that I can do.

- Helen Keller -

Praise to the Lord

Give praise to the Lord! Today is our first day of Cell Group (CG) in Bukit Jalil! Today is also my first time going to CG without the help of Ewilly! Hallelujah! I even fetched 2 persons there! Even though my car “sei fo” twice but I still want to give thanks to the Lord as I arrived there safe and sound…. Lesson… Do not be panic when you drive manual car, although you are late…. DO NOT PANIC!!! When I go back home that time, everything was smooth, thank God!

Yes, I am late for CG. I want to take this opportunity to say sorry to Li On, and both Michael. Due to my lateness, the CG started late and the worst part is I made Michael and Li On late! Sorry… apologies accepted?

Today is a blessed day, we have many visitors! Sophia’s mom, Lai Kang, Sophia, and my “cute little” brother Desmond were there! Seeking forgiveness from Brother Desmond, as I said I am not close to him… but that is the truth! Hehe… I do not know what is your favorite foods, color etc. HOWEVER, I do know something about you….. He… got a very WEIRD way to keep his money in his wallet! For more information., go ask him yourself haha… (Desmond, I am actually “promoting” you, hahaha… see, this type of sister where to find… one and only… =P )

I was touched by the Lord through Sophia’s mom, I... Actually never hug my mom before but on that very day, I felt I was hugging my mom! How I wished that moment never ended. When she pray, I keep on inviting Holy Spirit to fill me and when I hug her, my tears was pouring like rain~! There has been a while whereby I felt so relief, handling all my burdens, problems into God’s hand. I was happy and I can feel the peace in my heart.

I didn’t joint them for “mamak session” after the CG as I have now prohibited myself to go back home after 12 am. I want my life to be a good testimonial; I want my life to glorify His mighty name; I want to touch others’ life with my life testimonial; I want a life that please God; I want a life whereby His words are always followed.

Well people who know me well should know I have “buta malam”, meaning I can hardly see things at night. It is very dangerous and because of that, I don’t like to drive at night. Once I stepped out of Ewilly’s house, my mouth can’t stop praying for journey mercy, I don’t know why also… I pray, I pray, and I pray… When I started my car, and I reverse the car in a straight, but suddenly when I almost reach the opposite side of the parking space, my hand suddenly turn the steering slowly according to clockwise. I change the reverse gear to gear 1 and to my horror, when I suddenly look at my right hand side, there’s a car parked there! I don’t even know there’s a car there when I reverse my car! If I had not turned the steering, I will probably meet another accident! Now I know the reason I was praying non-stop! Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!

I learnt a lot today, a lot, a lot… I will put faith in God as He has great plans for me… As it is written in the bible.

“for I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” [Jeremiah 29:11]

I shall stand firm!!!!!

~~ @sKiNg 4 MoR3 ~~

致 YL,

如果你真的花了時間看了我這個 blog 我很想對你說聲對不起…. 因為拖了別人傳話給你, 告訴你我寫了這個 blog 給你…. 我很想自己本身告訴你, 可是我真的辦不到….我是從 “那天” 開始, 已不放希望在你身上…. 即使你沒看這個 blog 我也不會覺得傷心或難過…. 因為我已站了起來….


最近, 我在 Friendster 里想要尋找一位朋友的時候, 我發現原來你已刪除了我…. 在那一剎那間, 我的心很痛, 可是我現在很清楚知道, 那已不關我的事了…. 那是你的自由, 我不能說任何東西…. 現在, 在我的生活里, 你幾乎不存在了…. 一切都已不重要了….


即使你要這樣, 我可以要求你一件事嗎? 不用擔心因為我知道這件事你一定能辦得到…. 那就是在你的 MSN 及 Yahoo Messagers 里头也做出同樣的事, 我覺得你已刪除了我, 可是我希望你能 block 了我…. 不要單單刪除而是要刪除及 block! 因為我做不到所以才拜託你…. 對你而言, 我已很久不在你的天空里出現, 所以這樣的要求不會太過份吧… 我真的希望你能夠成全我….. 我掙扎了很久才能從跌倒中爬起來, 我不想再回想以前的生活…. 很幸福可是那只不過是暫時的幸福…. 我不想擁有那種愛…. 很辛苦…. 因為看到你在掙扎….. 我忍受不住….

我祝福你和你的女朋友…..

^ lOv3 LeTt3R ^

Father’s Love letter

My Child…
You may not know me, but I know everything about you... Psalm 139:1 I know when you sit down and when you rise up... Psalm 139:2 I am familiar with all your ways... Psalm 139:3 Even the very hairs on your hand are numbered... Mathew 10:29-31 For you are made in my image... Genesis 1:27 In me you live and move and have your being. For you are my offspring... Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you are conceived... Jeremiah 1:4-5 I chose you when I planned creation... Ephesians 1:11-12 You were not a mistake... Psalm 139:15-16 For all your days are written in my book... Psalm 139:15-16 I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live... Acts 17:26 You are fearfully and wonderfully made... Psalm 139:14 I knit you together in your mother’s womb… Psalm 139:13 And brought you forth on the day you were born... Psalm 71:6


I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me... John 8:41-44 I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love... 1 john 4:16 And it is my desire to lavish my love on you... 1 john 3:1 Simply because you are my child and I am your father... 1 john 3:1 I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.. Mathew 7:11 For I am the prefect father... Mathew 8:40 Every good gifts that you receive comes from my hand... James 1:17 For I am your provider and I meet all your needs... Mathew 6:31-33


My plan for your future has always been filled with hope... Jeremiah 29:11 Because I love you with an everlasting love... Jeremiah 31:3 My thoughts towards you are countless as the sand on the seashore... Psalm 139:17-18 And I rejoice over your with singing... Zephaniah 3:17 I will never stop doing good to you... Jeremiah 32:40 For you are my treasured possession... Exodus 19:5


I desired to established with you with all my heart and all my soul... Jeremiah 32:41 All I want to show you great and marvelous things… Jeremiah 33:3 If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me… Deuteronomy 4:29 Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart… Psalm 37:4 For it is I who gave you those desires.. Philippians 2:13


I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine…. Ephesians 3:20 For I am your greatest encourager…. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles… 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you… Psalm 34:18 As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart… Isaiah 40:11 One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes… Revelation 21:3-4 And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth… Revelation 21:4


I am your Father and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus… John 17:23 For in Jesus my love for you is revealed... John 17:26 He is the exact representation of my being... Hebrew 1:3 And He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you… Romans 8:31 And to tell you that I am not counting your sins... 2 Corinthians 5:10-19 Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled… 2 Corinthians 5:18-19 His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.. 3 John 4:10 I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love… Romans 8:32 If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me… 1 John 2:23 And nothing will even separate you from my love again… Romans 8:38-39 Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party has ever seen… Luke 15:7


I have always been Father and will always be Father.. Ephesians 3:14-15 My question is… will you be my child?... John 1:12-13 I am waiting for you… Luke 15:11-32

..Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God

Taken from : http://www.fathersloveletter.com/fllpreviewlarge.html

Heavenly Father,

I thank you for what you had done for me. I believe whole-heartedly that you gave your one and only son, Jesus Christ, to be crucified. I believe that Jesus rose from the died, giving me an eternal life.

O Lord, forgive all my sins. Heal me, give me a brand new, clean and pure heart. Lord Jesus, I invite you to come into my life, be my personal savior and my life savior. Help me, O Lord, to always follow you, living a life that follows your wills.

All this I pray in the name of Jesus. Amen~!

*sMiLe* god is beside me....

今天是我最難忘的一天, 30.10.2005, 星期日, 我原本應該在這一天洗禮, 可是”泡湯” 了… 想在此對整體小組的組員說聲 “對不起”… 特別是 Ewilly 和 Gillian, 原本打算一起洗禮, 哪知這樣的事發生… 我… 從來沒向主埋怨半聲, 我反而很感謝上帝! 原因嗎? 很簡單… 因為此事, 我向家人宣佈了 “我是一位基督徒”… 也因此事, 我和家人有了少許的磨擦….. 開始很擔心, 慢慢的我站了起來…. 我… 不想再次的讓 “恐懼感” 控制我….我…. 再也不想讓 “機會” 白白的溜走…..凭着我身邊的朋友地禱告, 支持, 以及上帝所給我的膽量… 一却都會好起來地…. 感謝上帝的愛…

在這一天, 我媽媽, 她跟了我去教堂, 說要了解我的教堂等事. 感謝主為我 “開門”!! 我的感受真的不知如何形容, 帶着害怕, 開心以及興奋….雖然她擺了一副很冷淡的臉, 可是就如 Sophia所說的, 終有一天她會相信主! 今天我得到了很多祝福, 謝謝大家的禱告, 我真的很感動…. 萬萬的感謝你們那麼的支持我….牧師和媽媽談了蠻久, 說得那麼久不須辯論也知是誰的錯…. 因為我不尊重家人, 事情才搞成那麼糟糕! 牧師的話我會聽, 從明天開始我會糾正我的態度和行為…. 要榮要上帝的名字! 一定要! 我希望能夠在家人的祝福下洗禮, 看起來好像不可能, 可是在神的眼里, 萬事都有可能! 只要信, 不要怕! 加油, 加油喔劉珊杉! 上帝在你身邊帶領你!

在人是不能， 在神却不然。 因为神凡事都能。(With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God)
[馬可福音10:27 / Mark 10:27]

牧師在講道的時候講了一個故事… 對現在的我特別的有意義, 特別的鼓勵我接下去走這道曼長的路…

我們的人身就好像在駕車, 我們全部人都可以說是正在一道沒有路燈的路上駕駛 (生活很多不開心的事), 當你在這樣的道路上, 我相信每一位都會把車燈開了吧, 要不然我們就無法看到我們所要走的路…. 上帝就是我們的 “車燈” 一路以來為我們 “照路”, 可是 “車燈” 只不過是照亮了 “路程的一部份”, 燈是沒可能照到 “路程的尾端” 除非我們以抵達 “目的的”…. 也就是說我們不會知道我們的前途會是怎樣, 可是我能夠很肯定的向你說, 上帝會一直做你的 “車燈”, 問題就是你把 “車燈” 開了嗎?

由如聖經說的 “耶和华说 , 我知道我向你们所怀的意念是赐平安的意念， 不是降灾祸的意念， 要叫你们末后有指望.” (For I know the plans I have for you, declared the Lord, plans that prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.)
[耶利米書 29:11 / Jeremiah 29:11]

雖然我不知道我的前面的路是一道怎樣的路, 可是我完完全全的交透給上帝因為我相信牠的安排是最好地…

人身真的很短, 你不知你幾時會向這世界說再見, 在這世界上問題多的很, 遇到走投無路的時候為何不嘗試把 “車燈” 開了? 你不會有損失啊, 反正你都是走投無路了… 在那一刻… 你.. 會感覺不同…. 因為你看到了 “道路”….. 一直記住…. 在上帝的手里, 沒有一件事是不可能地…..

聖經說 “你们要呼求我， 祷告我， 我就应允你们。你们寻求我， 若专心寻求我， 就必寻见。耶和华说， 我必被你们寻见， 我也必使你们被掳的人归回， 将你们从各国中和我所赶你们到的各处招聚了来， 又将你们带回我使你们被掳掠离开的地方。 这是耶和华说的。” (Then you will call upon me and I will come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declared the Lord, and will bring you back from capacity. I will gather you from all nations and places where I have banished you, and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.)
[耶利米書 29:12-14 / Jeremiah 29:12-14]

在此想向世界說雖然我現在沒辦法洗禮, 又或許我得得等很久很久才能洗禮, 可是我要確定我對基督的火不會熄灭… 我要一直確定我的 “車燈” 是開着的….我會因着信來走我的道路….阿門!

p/s 至朋友們, 我沒事, 謝謝你們的關心以關懷… 更謝謝大家的禱告, 我會繼續的禱告, 總有一天我的家人會 “醒” 的! 繼續為我禱告喔!!!

~ eNjOy ~

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