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A day where I let go of myself and allowing myself to go free... I can hardly bear the struggling of writing my testimonial. Ahhh... SO DARN DIFFICULT! >.<" Having a bad command of English worsen the whole situation.. YEAH... @(-.=)"

Got my result today... Am very surprise with my result actually... ^^ Praise be with God... Thank you Lord for blessing me good result. Ahh.... LEVEL 3..................... FYP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STRESS.........................................................................................................

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Hebrew 4:12-13
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Indeed, the word of God is living and effective, sharper than any two-edged sword, penetrating even between soul and spirit, joints and marrow, and able to discern reflections and thoughts of the heart.
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No creature is concealed from him, but everything is naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must render an account.

轻轻的我走了

倾盆大雨，站在屋里头，看着雨一滴一滴的从天下降落。突然有个念头出去走走。。 好怀念淋雨的感觉， 好怀念与他在雨中散步的感觉。。

离开是为了走人生里更长的道路，离开是为了自己与他人的好。不知不觉，数年已过，已走了不久的路，看回我的人生，看回我的日记， 泪慢慢的从我脸划下， 满眼看到的全是回忆的泪光。 我的生命里，似乎有许多人的脚印。有许多“脚印”是我一生人会永远记得的。也有一部分是我不想再去回想的事件。 太多，太多了。 伤害人的次数太多了。清楚知道时间不能倒流， 即使后悔也未免太迟了。离开是我唯一的选着。 因为我知道，只要离开，你就会幸福，你就会快乐。 我，不配。不配做你的朋友。不配你对我的好。即使在“远方”，我都会一样的祝福你。

突然想起了这首诗。。。

轻轻的我走了，
正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，
作别西天的云彩。
那河畔的金柳
是夕阳中的新娘
波光里的艳影，
在我的心头荡漾。
软泥上的青荇，
油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，
我甘心做一条水草
那树荫下的一潭，
不是清泉，是天上虹
揉碎在浮藻间，
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
寻梦？撑一支长篙，
向青草更青处漫溯，
满载一船星辉，
在星辉斑斓里放歌
但我不能放歌，
悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康桥！
悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，
不带走一片云彩。

Me, myself and my short short hair...

I cut my hair short... Weeee... AT LAST ^^ NO MORE LONG HAIR!!! I can't even tie up my hair now, that's how short it is.. Hahaha... Cool.... HAPPY!!! Though being constantly teased by 737, but I still like the way the hair dresser did to my hair ^^ Mind you 737, though I like Japan a lot, I don't wish to look like Japanese in any way and most importantly, I DON'T @(-.=)" Cis... Don't like you la

Sleep is all I need?

Never know what is the meaning of good sleep after Sunday. Only God knows what is happening to my body. I have been acting very tired lately for no reason. I can't seems to stay awake though I sleep early the night before. I woke up with cold sweat sometimes as I had plenty of nightmares. I think I am getting Lucky's disease... Eat, sleep, and play... @(-.=)" Cis.... DISCIPLINE!!!!!

=Endzzzzz=
*Purely crapping for express purpose*
Am I doing things in a wrong way? Is those words aren't suppose to be uttered out? Is it because of that I don't have a good night rest? The peace of the Lord doesn't seems to be present in my heart but I know it well that He is there. I just wish to obey... Obedience brings God's blessing while disobedience brings you closer to God's wrath. I have no idea what will happen soon but I know I will need to stand firm and do what is right according to the bible. I am weary... God, take my heart, seal it, take over it and don't allow it to go astray...

Mix feeling...

Writing this blog with a mix feeling... Looking back at those sms, I realise how childish I am to send out such sms. Looking at those replies, I know how frustrated that person is while replying my message in the middle of the night and early morning. Why do people always do the thinking after all things are done? Shouldn't it be before your actions? I tell myself no yet I did it anyway. I really give up... Stupid body I have that doesn't seems to corporate with my brain.

Mom is currently having a slight argument with my anuty who called all the way from Singapore. Ahhh... Darn noisy... All I yearn now is just peace and quiet, hopefully a good rest. I meet with a lot of ex-church members today, chatting with them, I realise a lot of things... I didn't talk much to them as most of them doesn't seems friendly to me >.<" Ok... I am a bit anti-social.. Hahah... Well, at least I enjoy the short time in The Curve, Boarder and ICE CREAM.

I saw a KJV bible over there... Eye shinning.... RM60.90 ONLY!!!! (-.=)" SMALL!!! SO TEMPTING!!! \(T.T)/ No money.......................... Went home.................. Empty handed................. Bank account almost zero....................... Yeah........................................................... Christmas present for myself, hopefully... Gambateh more in work yo! ^^ Ahh, need to get a watch as well... Some guys stole my watch and my current watch is going to die off.... It has been with me since form 3.. Hahaha... That's like 6 years?? Good brand indeed! Esprit!! Hahaha... Buy Esprit! ^^

(-.=)" Thanks to my aunty, I got some scolding from my mom as well... I still haven find out my tuition fees for my level 3 and I got scolding from her right after she hung up... Great life... Ahh... I am so darn lazy to update blog.... Till then....

Rehat buat selama-lamanya

Gerimis... Tidak tenang sekali hatiku bila kutermenung di hadapan jendela... Mindaku berat, mindaku keliru. Benda yang senang dijadikan susah. Banyak permikiran yang ada pada kepalaku.. "Tidak ingin ku hanya diberikan gelaran tetapi biarlah hidupku menerangi hidup orang lain." Bolehkah ku? Bolehkan ku sampai ke puncak bukit tu? Bolehkan ku menamatkan perlarian tu? Segala-gala penglihatanku kabur... Terlampao banyak benda yang perlu ku siapkan juga tetapi situasi demi situasi seolah-olah menghalang ku dari kiri dan kanan.

Lesu sekali mindaku... Biarlah ku rehat untuk selama-lamanya...

Missing Taman Desa

Sleepy............................... Miss Taman Desa............................. Miss my swimming pool............... Miss my room............... Miss my house................... Miss everything there................... T.T

BANNED Aqua Bridge Sdn Bhd

Ah... At last my laptop is with me... Thanks for the gift!! ^^ Thank God for hearing my prayers!!! ^^ Now, I just need more ram... ^^ HAPPY~~~

Was a bit surprise that everything is fine when I left my laptop over there in the shop... To everybody outside there, NEVER EVER go to this shop to repair your computers or laptop...

Details of the shop
Name: Aqua Bridge Sdn Bhd
Address:
(a) Suite 7-33, Imbi Plaza, Jln Imbi, 55100 KL
(b) 2.39 / 2.58 / 2.76, 2nd Floor, Plaza Low Yat, Jln Bukit Bintang, 55100 KL

They are a group of bengali, very big group indeed. My friend and I went to the shop to get my laptop repaired. The shop keeper promised me that it will be done in 2 days. So we just left the laptop there and wait for them to contact us to collect the laptop. The problem with my laptop is I am unable to switch on the laptop. We suspected the problem is with the motherboard...

After 2 days, they didn't call me nor message me... So I continue on waiting thinking that they might be facing some problem fixing it... Guess what.. They didn't call at all until I got fed up of waiting! It is almost a week yet no news from them! I called them instead and I was a bit annoyed by their attitude as the person on the other side of the phone sounded like they totally forgotten about my laptop! They said they will fix it asap and I can collect it in 2 days time. YA RIGHT!

The day after I called them, they messaged me informing me that my laptop is fixed but I will need to bring my hard disk along to check whether the laptop is working properly... I got shock of my life when I received the message. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY HARD DISK?? (-.=)" It is quite impossible that the hard disk is not in the laptop as Mike formated the laptop earlier on... Ah.... They said they will check with their technician and after that no news from them..

We went to Low Yat 2 days after he contacted us and they still claimed that the hard disk is not in the laptop... HOWEVER, on the receipt, they marked that the hard disk is there... CONTRACT BOUNDED! After much argument, they have no choice but to replace a hard disk for us and they changed my processor to P4.

The laptop was not with me all the while as Mike helped me to install some software inside.. When I got the laptop.... I realized the "standby mode" is not functioning when I am using battery. However, when I am using direct power, standby mode is working fine. STRESS... Again, Mike took the laptop and try to find out what is the problem... (-.=)" STRESS... He later send back the laptop to the shop for repair as he can't seems to find out what's the problem.. BEST PART? They started using their native language and started scolding when they see the laptop being bring back to their shop.. I think they are still unsatisfied as they need to replace the hard disk for me. They thought that Mike will not understand their language and they go on scolding in front of him.. This is what you called customer service? I wonder how come they are still surviving with such service...

After few days of observation, they claimed that it is the processor problem... I can either chew with the fact that the standby mode is so or I can change the processor back to celeron. After some discussion with my friends, I got to know that, processor shouldn't be the problem as it is not related... Somehow, I don't feel right as though the shop is trying to cheat the customer.. I called them up and I tell them that I will want to take back my laptop. At last... The laptop is now safe and sound in my room... Hopefully nothing will go wrong after that... I felt SICK of going LAW YAT...

Anyway, thank God for the laptop and may I use it wisely ^^

疲倦的我

累了， 疲倦的我，依然很希望能够靠着神的力量来面对一切的困难。即使很难熬，但我告诉自己，神永远在我的身旁。 请求你带领我吧。。 迷路的小羊， 不知该往哪个方向前进了。。。 什么是应该，什么事不应该，请求神你告诉我好吗？

一个不值得爱的小孩，真的可以拥有这一切吗？我是谁？我凭什么去接受？

一个不值得爱的人，但又渴望有人爱， 那他又是谁？他又凭什么去要求？

好矛盾。。。 事情真如很容易的解决但又似乎如此的艰难。。。 啊。。 刘珊杉退休了。。 。我只能做我应分的工作。。 我好像回家。。。

Obedience...

Still confuse... What should I do next? I am giving myself a kick at the back to wake myself up from the dream and get back to reality. I have been trying to pack myself up with activities so that things on earth will not bother my thinking... Phil 4:8. May I learn more about His truth and His will upon me.... Guide me O Lord as your daughter is now in total lost on what to do next.

OBEY, obey and obey my dear 633.....

累了。。。

Tired... Somehow, I need a space to just breathe... I really don't deserve it but it kept on coming into my life. I know how painful it is when the truth strikes me, I don't wish that other will need to bear that pain as well. It really took me quite some time to recover and stand up once again. I really wish to go back home... I have no idea why but Phil 3:13-14 kept on appearing in my mind. But nevertheless, it encourages me a lot to persevere on.

I just uploaded a new song, somehow, I like the melody of the song. It is from the animation "Devil May Cry". I kind of like the animation. Hahaha... However, I find it quite fake when the main character doesn't seems to die off.. Hahaha... Nah, I still like the show even though so. Hope you enjoy the song.. ^^

An eternal rest...

I wish to rest.. I wish to leave.. I wish to throw all things away from the heavy head of mine and just run to Him and tell Him that I am really weary and I wish to go back home...

The trip to Chilis...

Big Chilis logo? ^^

Ahh... I miss the smell of Chili's... I miss the foods!!! I still haven have the chance to try out the chocolate dessert >.<" I WANT CHILIS!!!!

Hahaha... Ignore me... I was browsing through my pictures and Chilis caught my attention... It is not long ago when a group of us went to Kaki corner and then Chilis to give a friend of mine a surprise birthday party! Hahaha... Due to some personal issue, I am unable to post the video in YouTube... *"I would like to thank all for coming... " Just to remind someone... Hahahaha* Ok...

Cut the words and here comes the pictures! ^^

Chilis salt, Chilis menu, Chilis sugar and not forgetting my favorite ESPRIT!

*Looking through all the pictures... Wah... All so P&C... Can't post it up here... Hahaha... I got around 90++ pictures in that folder! Thanks to someone..... Who claimed to be giving us some training on smiling and posting in front of the camera... FOR FUTURE WEDDING PHOTO SESSION.... (-.=)" *You know who you are...*