A day... Tired? Blessed? Heart broken?

I am making an exceptional today... To get a day off and just write one post... Too many things happened in this few days and I really felt the tension.... May I have a good rest today...

I started to appreciate more the grace of God after yesterday incident. Yes, no doubt that the pain in the heart can never be taken away until the time is right, I thank God for the incident that took place. As I told Da, glass that is broken can never be whole once again, yes, true enough that wound will heal but scar will always remain... I chose to believe that God will heal... However, may I learn the lesson well..

It reminded me of a story that I heard long ago... Never keep your palm close up so that it is easier for God to bless you. In addition, if you hold on so tightly to what you have in your palm, when God wants to take it away, He will need to open up your hand, which will definately cause you pain! So then, make sure that your hands are always wide open so that whatever God tends to bless you, you will get it every single blessing and whenever God wants to take it away, you won't feel the pain because you didn't hold on to it tightly.

I have nightmares the whole night and even dreamt of my lecturer telling me that my assignment title are wrong but the content of the assignment is quite good... I don't know whether is that a compliment or is that a bad news... I don't know... Besides that, I dreamt a lot of things, which I don't bother to remember or recall back. IT'S A NIGHTMARE!!! For what I want remember it?

I woke up around 7 something and was too tired as dreaming whole night, hence, I decided to sleep a little bit longer today. I woke up again at 9 in the morning and guess what.... I became more tired. =..=" I DREAM AGAIN! IDIOT! >.<>.<" Usually I take my breakfast around 8 in the morning. This morning I didn't take my breakfast that early, so..... >.< PAIN! Once finish devotion, suddenly I got very dizzy and my eyes can't stop closing down.... I fall on the bed AGAIN and I was half asleep, yes, you guess it right, I dreamt AGAIN! STRESS... Hahaha.....

I finally got up at 10 something and first thing that came to my head is... FOODS! I really can't ignore the gastric pain >.<>.< Die.... Went to the fridge and saw a bun there, grab it and eat it straight... Cold yet nice hahaha... Yes, don't be surprise with my eating habit, I am used to eating cold foods hahaha... Then.... My sister in law told me.... "Shan, we are going TGIF for lunch ya" I totally.... "OH YA HOH??" Hahaha.. You can't imagine how happy I was then... It is a blessing from God! Hahahaha... A place I long for a long time =P Very nice foods indeed! Should try the dessert, it is nice.. However, I still prefer Chilis for the meals! Bluek~

Came back home, head feeling very heavy... It was aruond 2 something when I arrived home... I went up stair wanting to take a hot bath but ended up sleeping =..=" DIE! I am suppose to meet up with friends! >.<>.< I decided not to go as I was a bit worried to drive and I ended up doing my assignment.

Went to church after that and I thank God that I manage to give full attention during bible study. I was surprise by Willy as she gave me a present =) THANKS!!!!!! =) Sorry for disappoint you oh... Will gambateh to "make things possible" in life... I really love the present... Thanks! I hope it can benefit my life as how it benefit you in your life. =) Thanks!

Ahh... What a day... A looooooooooong day yet I thank God for all the blessing upon me... I pray that strength will be upon me to endure this moment..... =) Thanks for all the prayers for me! I appreciate it a lot! Got tonnes of work to do.... I pray that I can pass all of it >.< Gambateh!