The day when all things went wrong..

I couldn't stop myself from thinking... Thinking of what God told me previously. Am I at the position to speak? Am I at the position to act? Am I? Things seem to be complicated yet the root of all things fall back to one simple question.... Are you trusting in the Lord and are you willing to bear up that cross of your's every single day of your life? Who do you live for in this life? The Lord? Or self?


Slowly getting closer to the world... At the edge of the cliff... Still the Lord is offering me His hand and asking me to reconsider my life. A young lady is able to serve the Lord faithfully and able to do much for the Lord, why can't I? One crucial element draws a line between me and her... Which is the commitment and the trust upon our Lord Jesus Christ. Are you putting your trust upon the right thing? Or are you putting your trust upon the world?


The grass withers and the flowers fall,
but the word of our God stands forever. （Isaiah 40:8)

病猫

病的快要放弃痊愈的机会。。。 康复了，又再次的生病。。 真的快要疯了。。


短短的一星期，很快的又要画上了句号。脑袋不停的在细考。。 似乎越来越多疑问。。 不停的问自己到底自己站在哪个岗位。。 我似乎失去了平衡点，脑袋似乎离我而去。。 模糊的视线， 不平稳的脚步，失去了理智， 我，再次的跌倒。


一个跌倒的女孩，正在痛苦当中，一心一意的只想从跌倒中爬起，但却不断的跌。。 罪， 是可恶的。。 刹那间， 我突然有了个念头，我真得恨不得想打醒自己，提醒我自己，只有神， 唯有神能救我。。 醒醒吧， 刘珊杉！！！！


O to grace how great a debtor, daily I keep this in view.
Let Your grace Lord, like a fetter, bound my wondering heart to You.

My Birthday...

I am 21 today, I am 21 today, it's my birthday today, hip hip hoyaa~~~~

Bad day?? Bad hair??

(Taken from: http://www.city-data.com/forum/other-topics/140638-death-bad-hair-day-wars-2.html)

Nothing is wrong with my hair... My hair is perfectly fine, EXCEPT the fact that the person with that hair is unhappy with it. Aisheh all the drama going on after I cut my hair... TensioN~~~~ (-.=)"


When I arrived in the office.....


a) My colleague (C1) got a shock when I opened the door and walked in... First thing that came out of her mouth...
C1: "What happened??"
33: *Duh look* Don't comment on my hair, I know it looks horrible... *Walk to my work station*
C1: "Why suddenly go cut your hair like that?? "
33: "Buntut gataL~" *SAD* "Some more not 'balent'"
C1: "Show, show"
33: (=..=)
C1: OH MY.......
33: "I got not enough money to cut the other side.. That's why..."
C1: LOL...
33: *Ignore, do work*


b) My boss came into the office....
Boss: *SHOCK* *step back a little* "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAIR???"
33: (-.=)"
Boss:........ You shouldn't have cut your hair, it looks better last time...
33: YES!


I thought all the drama is coming to an end..... HOWEVER.... While I was walking to the server room...
MIS guy: "Shan Shang, turn turn..."
33: *REFUSE*
MIS guy: "Shan Shang"
33: "I chose to ignore you~~~~~~" *quickly walk off*


*I NEED A BREAK FROM THE DRAMA~~~~~*
During lunch...................................... Walking....................
Some of our office colleague (different department) were walking with us....
TO MY HORROR..... One of them actually turn back and looked at me.... (-.=)" NO! I am not pretty or anything but because of my HAIR CUT (-.=)' My boss looking at the situation started to make fun of me and that guy... (-.=)"


BEST PART??? A colleague of mine can actually came up to me while I was buying lunch, looked at me as though I am an alien.. He did that TWICE! Popping his face in front of me, looking at me carefully... (-...+)" He ended up getting beating from me for his action =P


Back from lunch... Account department guy came in to ask something...
Accountant: *Blink, blink, staring at me* "You cut your hair?"
33: "Don't talk about my hair, it's horrible"
Account: "OK mah"
33: *Straight face*
Account: "If that person is not beautiful, regardless what type of hair style also the same..." *Giggle*
33: *DIIIISSSHHHH* "Don't like you la~~~"


In between there were many dramas... These are the few that I remember~~~Mind you... Today is only the FIRST DAY.... (-.=)" How can I survive?? One thing I know for sure that 737 and dear are anticipating to see me... Hopefully I won't get any KC from Pastor... CIS~

最后一次。。。

爱上了这首歌。。。谁有这首歌？？

在我最后一次,闭上眼睛之前,我想對你說我愛你 在你怀里,舍不得放弃,心里有千万语还没说给你听我使劲全力,不 想闭上眼睛,这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你,但不要忘记你曾经 答应我你会好好活下去 (我永远爱你)* 先走了~去了好远的地方,不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮所有回忆抹 去却并不容易,生死由天决定不要太伤心 *repeat

For the last time, before I close my eyes, I wish to tell you I love you. In your embrace, unwilling to give up, in my heart, I have many things that I yet to tell you. I used all my strength, unwilling to close my eyes, for if I said goodbye now I will never see you again, unable to accompany you. However, do not forget that you promise me that you will live well ( I love you forever). I'm going first, going to a far away place. Unable to accompany you to see the sun rise. Unable to wait until day break. All the memories are erase but it is never easy. Life and death is determine by God, thus, do not be to sad.

For the birds... =)

Enjoy the video... ^^ SO CUTE!!!