A little joy, a little sadness,
A little closer, a little further,
A little cuddle, a little isolation,
A little concern, a little ignorant,
A little too much, a little too many,
A little sweet words, a little crude words,
Having a lot of thoughts lately after hearing a news from someone dear to me, especially after seeing a truth in myself. I quaver as I heard the news, heart stopped beating for a second and the sudden coldness on my leg and hand. Somehow, that very instant, I felt alone, being pushed aside like an unwanted criminal, but yet all I see was a smiley face on him. As he stepped out, "drive safe" was his last word to me. The darkness of the road suddenly dawn upon me that the life that I am about to tread will be as dark as what was before me. Fear came silently, conquering the inner me...
As I drove off, the road was as dark as before, as I continue on to tread, street lights seem to be getting dimmer and dimmer.. Was it because of the electricity outage or was it because fear was clouding me? Will I still see hope? A short prayer was uttered and as I pray, then only I realised, my heart has actually changed. Tears doesn't seem to flow neither do I felt pain in the heart anymore. I know not when the incident took place but I do know that a burden, which is constantly eating me up, has at last being lifted up from my chest. As I drove out from the place, street light began to brighten up the road. As described by John Bunyan, Christian was truly delighted as his heavy-loaded burden was at last being cast away on the foot of the Cross, ahh... Such is my feelings. After so many years, at last dawn is approaching...
The sun seems to shine brighter today and the sun light was as though reflecting the status of my heart. I am truly speechless and the only thing that came to my mind was, thank you Lord for such blessing. Though I was puzzled and constantly asked You, why O Lord, You pour out such selfless love to such undeserving wretched sinner like me, but the answer will always bring me back to the foot of the Cross. Ahhh... Such beautiful, selfless, undefiled love..... Who can compared to You, O Lord?
With a little mustard seed faith, allow me to come before You, submitting myself once again into You hand. Come and fasten the fetter towards this wayward heart of mine, allow this heart to be solely Yours and Yours alone...
Good night to all....
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