I come to Thee for rest

Bow'd down beneath a load of sin,
By Satan sorely pressed,
By wars without, and fears within,
I come to Thee for rest.

=John Newton=

似乎被捆绑着的感觉。要努力哦刘珊杉！加油，加油！

IN GREAT PAIN (T.T)

Don't like 737.... Said no pain but I am in GREAT PAIN wo...

His description of the injection worsen the whole situation all together.. I didn't open my eyes when the injection was given to me... The dentist was laughing a little on my reaction and he kept on comforting me that it's alright, finish already, NO MORE PAIN AFTER THIS (Main things that I need to emphasize)...

Dentist said it will be a little painful after the numbness is gone so he stresses that I need to take the pain killer since I am so darn scare of pain. >.<" IT'S STILL SO DARN PAINFUL! But thankfully no injection on my other part of the body~ Yeah, can't eat the whole day, not that I have the mood to eat anyway... SIGH!

P/s AWAITING FREE ICE CREAM FROM SOMEONE... Hoho...

Gembira..

Gembira kerana laptopku sekarang boleh dipakai.
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Gembira kerana dikatakan ku seperti rusa masuk ke kampung,
kerana ku dapat menyaksikan sesuatu yang dilakukan dengan laptopku
(yang dinamakan canggih olehku) melalui kawanku
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Gembira kerana Tuhan telah membuka jalan untukku.
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Gembira kerana aku masih hidup dan sihat sejahtera
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Gembira kerana segala-galanya dalam tangan Tuhan
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Terima kasih banyak-banyak kerana sudi meluahkan masa untuk membentuku
^.^

Pedih..

Pedihnya hatiku..............

Serve Him with all your heart, soul & mind

Most people are preoccupied with wanting to live long.
Few are concerned about wanting to live well for God.

Which one are you then?

"It is appointed for man to die once, but after this the judgment" (Hebrew 9:27)

=Quote from Bible study note=

Be still and know that I am God.

The north wind blows, but the sourthern breeze will arise
In everything God's will is done
The north wind is bitterly cold, but it will bit last long
Soon the warm sourthern breeze will arise.

Be patient and wait, be patient and wait
The Lord will make everything beautiful in His time
When the time has come, when the time has come,
Abundant grace will overflow to you.

You who are burdened with sorrow, don't sign any longer
The Lord will undertake for you
If the Heavenly Father does not permit it
Who can do anything to you?

(Taken from: The heavenly man)

Accidentally in love~

(Taken from: http://www.samirkamble.com/2007/05/)

Fell in love...
Yes, apparently, he is much older than me....
(*Dejavu, if you understand what I meant, especially ML & 737*)

Tell you more about my "lover" next time...

(Taken from: http://my-life-and-my-views.blogspot.com/2007/09/how-do-we-fall-in-love.html)

Nightmares..

Nightmare after nightmare. Yesterday coffee worsen the situation... Shouldn't have taken in coffee yesterday... Ahh... But somehow, I crave for white coffee during my "teh cang kong" session...

Barely have enough sleep.... Worst part??? I dreamt of Kiran... OF ALL PEOPLE.... KIRAN??? =..=" This is my worst nightmare of the year... I straight away got up with cold sweat and I can't sleep after that. Mind you, I slept at 145am yesterday and I woke up around 7am. I AM DEAD TIRED!

I am sleepy but I am now so afraid of sleeping... Somehow, recently, I am afraid of sleeping... Nightmares after nightmare, I am really scare of it... >.<" T.T My precious sleep.........................................

晕。。

现在的脑袋。。。

(Taken from: http://www.alfredo-haeberli.com/exhibitions/the-lines-of-my-thoughts/4.html)

在深入了解。。 才发现。。。
(Taken from:http://www.alfredo-haeberli.com/exhibitions/the-lines-of-my-thoughts/6.html)

真的真的。。。 好多东西得读！（·。·）”

神啊， 我的每一步， 请求你带领。。我真的不想成为下一位米迦!! >.<

Tiredness

!!!!!!!!!TIRED!!!!!!!!
...MAKE SURE THIS IS WORTH THE EFFORT...

Father and son

I was surfing.... And I read something INTERESTING....

Father:
Son, let's go destination A for a walk.

7-year-old son:
But mommy said destination B.

Father:
Let's do a SWOT analysis to decide.

(Taken from: http://kzken.blogspot.com/)

Remind me of someone... Hahaha...

Allergy... Medicine anyone?

Current status: Allergy towards meetings.
(Let those who understand, understand it...)

(Taken from: http://despair.com/meetings.html)

No joke... This is the second time I have been in a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG (multiply infinity) hours meeting (For academic purpose). Ever since I joint APIIT, I don't recall having such long meeting until recently..... When.... Wei Wei Ah Wei meet with Da Da..... What is the consequences of it??? The "listeners" will have their eyes opened wide and looking at both of them.... Not to forget the long hours meeting. =P OK, not solely their "fights"... It's actually a combination of 4 people "argument"...

Thankfully, we manage to get some progress out of it... Emm... I think...

OK, I think I will be killed for writing this post. Ciaoz...

健康

我的爱心药丸呢？(Only 2 person will understand what I meant by that =P )

(Taken from: http://www.bloginyourface.com/)

头好晕！血压太低了。。。 年纪轻轻但却生病得要死要活的。。 (>.<)"

我要健康!!!! 快把健康还我!!!! 然后我就可以。。。。。。

(Taken from: http://www.puptalk.com/2008/01/page/2/）

SICK STILL!

Since early morning......

*AHHHHHHH...... CHOOOOOOOO..................*
*Cough, cough, cough*

(Picture from: http://www.pintunet.com/lihat_opini.php?pg=2008/01/04012008/69502)

I have been non-stop popping in Wood's Peppermint lozenges into my mouth.



How I wish the lozenge works as how it was advertised... But unfortunately.... I still can't stop the irritation of my throat.... Don't believe all the things you see from advertisement!!! Cis...

FOR A MOMENT..... When my head is not functioning well... I feel like using.....(Picture from: http://www.chinatraderonline.com/Infant-Care/Feeding-Bottle-Brush-191812931.htm)
To take away the irritation.... NO, I didn't do that... Suddenly..... This came into my mind...
UNFORTUNATELY.... I don't have this at home.... SIGH.....
*Remind me of how dear and ML coupled together and sang the "cap ibu and anak" song/imitated the advertisement/ promoting the cough syrup.... HAHA.... =P

OK, I think I should eat all the medicine that the doctor prescript to me.... Bah......

Medicines and me == No Good friend

I am as sick as a dog when I am typing this post. OK, maybe not as serious as the description as I am still able to sit up and write this post. Well, I am currently cooking for myself and while waiting for the water to boil, here I am to drop a piece of my mind in this small column of mine.

I just came back from the doctor not long ago. I actually planned to go for a medical checkup but ended up seeing a doctor for my sickness only. Well, I can't perform any medical checkup over that place anyway as they didn't provide a full checkup. I have only a minor sickness and I think the doctor wanted to kill me for going to them as I only got to know that there is no medical checkup available in the government clinic after my registration.

How unwilling I am to go back that place. I have a bad experience with that clinic before this, that is why I claimed that they will "kill" me. I have to go back to that place because Ampang Hospital directed me to go to the clinic for medical checkup. Furthermore, it is cheaper compared to other private clinic. I can't understand why that hospital asked me to go there when there's no such facilities provided! However, I was quite surprise that the doctor was nice to me though I was the last patient before they were to close the clinic for lunch and patiently treated my sickness!

Well, my sugar level is average but my blood pressure is a bit low *as expected* but the doctor said it is still consider alright. After a short conversation with the doctor, through my description, he said that I might have light sensitivity since my eyes are feeling discomfort in bright light. As for my flu, sore throat (now really can't speak much as no voice), fever and cough, medication will be given and I will be well again in no time. ^.^V

When I went to collect my medicines, the person in charge gave me 6 types of medicines to consume and when I got the medicines, I was.... SPEECHLESS.... Those who know me, should know that I hate medication. NOW, I GOT 6 types of medicines to consume. (-..=)" Now I really start to wonder is it the rice problem (Sunday cooking) (>.<)" OK, got to go... Need my sleeppppppppppppppppp... Sigh.......................

Big Fat Pig's delicious rice ^.^V

When I was so cast downed, suddenly a "brother" just messaged me in MSN. He reminded me many things that God has done in my life. Well, not directly but he reminded me what happened in church yesterday. I can't stop thinking about God's words that was spoken to me so clearly yesterday. Though what I have done today is definitely a big wrong, but I really hope that He who is merciful and gracious will forgive me and grant me the strength to carry on His wills.

Well, would like to apologies to the big big "brother" of mine since he sacrifices himself to bring back my cooking yesterday. Hey, look at the bright side OK? I helped you to save some lunch money and you didn't date the toilet or face with discomfort after eating my cooking! Be thankful ya =P Well, have to admit that only Kah Liang faced with stomach discomfort after the dinner, I think it is because I "influence" him too much during dinner time. Hopefully he's well now, or is he pulling my leg? Hahaha...

Hehehe... I think my "brother" really like my cooking after he took it back home... See what he wrote on his MSN nick the next morning!


p/s Meaning... (Today special: Big Fat Pig's Beautiful aroma delicious rice)

Ahh... Such a comfort... Though the cooking was a disaster, but it served as a encouragement for me to continue on to improve my cooking ^.^ Thank you brother! Hehehe... OK, need to do some work now, enjoy your Monday!

可恶的罪

心情糟透了。。 越来越讨厌自己。。

好想离开此地。。 此地真的不能久留。。 毕竟这并不是我想前进的地方。也清楚明白罪是如此的可恶。

神啊， 如果你愿意，救救我吧。。

In evil long I took delight

Fell in love with this hymn. MP3 anyone? >.<

By John Newton

In evil long I took delight,
Unawed by shame or fear,
Till a new object struck my sight,
And stopp'd my wild career:

I saw One hanging on a Tree
In agonies and blood,
Who fix'd His languid eyes on me.
As near His Cross I stood.

Sure never till my latest breath,
Can I forget that look:
It seem'd to charge me with His death,
Though not a word He spoke:

My conscience felt and own'd the guilt,
And plunged me in despair:
I saw my sins His Blood had spilt,
And help'd to nail Him there.

Alas! I knew not what I did!
But now my tears are vain:
Where shall my trembling soul be hid?
For I the Lord have slain!

--A second look He gave, which said,
"I freely all forgive;
This blood is for thy ransom paid;
I die that thou may'st live."

Thus, while His death my sin displays
In all its blackest hue,
Such is the mystery of grace,
It seals my pardon too.

Fruitful trip

Feeling refreshed.. Am thankful for the time over in Port Dickson (PD) =) Though it is just a short trip and I got some bruises on my leg but nevertheless the trip is really worthwhile.

Yes, I went to the beach.. Yes, I got up early every single day except the last day of the trip as too tired, just to go to the beach and enjoy the sea breeze. Yes, the beach is definitely not crystal clear but nevertheless, it is something better than nothing. I am contented with it ^.^

During this short trip, what I learn, what I saw, what I felt, what I experienced are priceless.. Somehow, when it was time to leave, my heart just sank. Guess what, the day I am coming back is the day whereby my last semester result is published (-..=)" My result is average but I was expecting higher grade for one of the subjects. Well, I am still anticipating for my full result to be publish. I expected my ethic subject to flung.... >.<

Want to draw back the attention to the trip to PD. Somehow, Jim Elliot words kept on running in my mind. (Click on the link to find out more about him). When he went to preach to the violent Huaorani Indian tribe, he said to his wife, OK, a confession to make. I can't clearly remember whether did he told her or he wrote in his diary, either way the main point is I remembered his words...

"If they were to attack us (because Huaorani are violent), we will not attack them back because if they die, they will be condemn forever but if we were to die, we will be in heaven."

They really were killed by the native..... 5 of them died because of a lie.... When I was watching the show, I can't help but to put myself in their wifes' shoe. Don't ask me why, but somehow, I felt their lost, it is as though I am really in their position. What encouraged me is their wife never gave up hope but continue on their husbands' works. In the end, God allowed them to bring forth the gospel to the native and a transformation took place.

God is great isn't He? Though Jim is unable to see the fruit of his starting work, but I believe that in his heart, he knows God will bless His people. All glory to the living God.

"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose."
= Jim Elliot =

Beach, here I come!

Getting too emo in blog posts... Sorry for that... Thank you for telling me off dear! ^.^

Anyway, I will be away for 4 days next week... Going to a place where I yearned since the beginning of the year.... BEACH!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait to get into the sea and play in the water! Sigh, too bad dear won't be joining this time... Hehe, never mind, I know we will be having a great time at the end of this year... ^.^ Right??

Gambateh ya! Thank you for all the encouragement!