UBI!!!!! 21 lo!!!!

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to UBI,
Happy birthday to you!!!

Hahaha... AT LAST you are 21! Hope you enjoy the birthday celebration! I hope you like the place that I recommended. Though it is quite far away, I hope you really enjoy our present there with you. Thanks for the nice secret recipe cake! Hohoh... Sorry for asking you to treat us... hahaha.... Bluek.... Thanks for the juice! Very nice!

p/s You look sexy yesterday... hahah.. Hope you enjoy yourself... =)

Happy moment during birthday

Hahaha... Lovely birthday I went through.... I got 4 birthday celebration this year... Compared to the previouos year, this year is quiet.... No, my handphone is not a hotline on that day, and no, I didn't received "tonnes" of messages on that day as well... I got tonnes of wishes from friends and relatives through internet and mails though =) However, I was happy because I am at last "grown up" in terms of age... Hahaha...

Well, to my surprise, I got a key this year! Not a gold key but a key from Lazo Diamond! Hahah... My secondary friends bought it for me! Thank you so much for the precious gift! A big thanks to Chicken, Ubi, Micy, Ah Mui and Ah Chiung for the lovely gift... It is very pretty! *If I missed out anyone please let me know as I didn't receive a card from you all le...* Thanks so much for the treat at Tan Gilly cafe, appreciate your present on that very day... =)

My library team? Hehehe... We went to "Cowboy", nearby Cheras Kaki Corner for a big celebration... This is my very first time seeing so many people from the library team present! Hahha... It is like having a stock check day =P We have around 3-4 tables if not mistaken.... They bought secret recipe cake! We celebrated Amr and Akinde's birthday as well! There goes the cake... SO WASTED!!! Yes, my head was on the cake... Hahah... Super nice to eat though =) Thanks! It must have been a big fuss on getting all those people present... Hahah...

Hoho... How can I forget my classmates? They sang a happy birthday song to me after class on Friday! So embarrass!!! Hahaha.. But thanks to all who sang! =) Thanks to Jason who sang it so loudly and then the whole class followed him... =..=" Thanks.. Hahaha..

Thanks to Kelvin and Mike for the gifts as well... Hmmm... I really look like a pig oh?? Hahaha.. Anyway, I placed Kelvin's soft toy pig on my wall while Mike's piggy cup on my study table... Hehehe... Thanks for the lovely gifts =) I like to pinch the soft toy piggy's cheek! Hahaha... So darn cute! Sorry, I don't have a camera to snap all this for the readers to have a look on it Sigh.. My precious phone went on a vacation and never return... Hahah...

My biggest group celebration? CHURCH! Hahaha... On Sunday, the whole church celebrated my birthday with me! They bought me a blueberry cheese cake! Super nice! Yam Yam... The cake is selling like hot cake! In a short moment, all the cake is gone! Hahah... THanks! Appreciated it... =)

I would like to extend my appreciation towards Debbie for the cute little lamp! I am currently putting it in my room as a night light =) Thanks! Besides that, I would like to thank Nicole for the nice pair of earrings! I like it so much! Thanks ah Ma... Once again I would like to thank Vincent for the lovely present that you send me from UK. I stick the box of feather on my wall as well =) So everytime I wake up, I will surely see that present of your's! Hahah... Thanks for calling me as well even though you are having classes hahaha...

Hoho... How can I forget my precious, cute little sister?? Hahaha... The most expensive gift ever from her! Ms Ewilly! Hahaha... Thanks for the romantic moment in Chilis... Cis... Lied to me on that day some more... Cis.. Hahah.. But I really anjoy myself a lot on that day... SO ROMANTIC!! *Like going out with my husband!* Hahaha... Love ya sister!

My family?? Heheh.. Love them so much! Heheh.. My eldest brother and sister in law gave me a big big big any pow on that day! My sister in law said actaully they wanted to buy me a "key" but they were too busy to buy me that... =) Heheh.. Never mind la... Ang pow is better =P On top of that, my brother went out to the cake shop early in the morning to get me a pandan cake! YAM!!!! Super nice! My daddy and mommy treated the whole family to Selangor Club! Wao... Daddy spent around RM150? Hahaha.. Can't remember... But the foods are super nice there! My grandma gave me an ang pow as well! =) What happened to my second brother? Cis.. He didn't even come to the meal as working. Sigh... He some more asked my mom to "ta pao" (pack) foods for him... Cis... "Spiritually" there celebrating my birthday with me.. Hahah...

Many many wishes this year! Hahaha... So happy~ I even got friends who are studying abroad wishing me happy birthday! =) Never will I expect them to remember my birthday after being in oversea... =) Thanks.... Hope to celebrate my birthday with you guys next year? Remember to come back wei! Don't stay there too long and forget me =P

Thanks once again to all those people who celebrated my birthday with me, to those who send me their wishes, to those who spend on money on me for the lovely present, as well as all those who remember my birthday! Thanks to all! =) If I have a chance to grab hold of my digital camera, I will post some pictures for all to see =)

Tiredness...

Darn stress out man..... SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS!!!! Everything is in a havoc mode.... My head is going to explode soon.... If I am that busy how come I am still wasting my time blogging? Ya... I know what you meant... I am actually waiting for my computer to save all my work.. Once I press the "save" button, I will need to wait at least 1 minute for the computer to save it =..=" FEDUP! Even the computer in college is that slow! Madness... Can't blame the computer as my diagram is a big file...

I.... Just got scolding from the working place as I didn't carry out my duty as how I should. Things are really getting more and more complicated... Really hate the hectic and pressure around me now.. I really thank God that I manage to sleep well... I need to finish at least 1 assignment by this week or next week... Super girl... Hahaha.. Many things in head now...

I just got my blood test result today.. That lady actually remember me when she saw my name.. hahaha... Not bad! My result? Everything is fine... I was shock that I obtained a good blood test result! Hahaha... However, the doctor told me that my white plat cell percentage are quitee high. Normal people will be around 4.0-11.0 but I obtained 11.3! Hahha... My red plat cell is doing fine though... *I hope so* The doctor didn't said anything about leukemia or anything but just asked me to come back if I realised that my leg is still swollen or my urine too yellowish. He said I should have something sore in my body but can't really tell what is that.. Well at least everything else showed as normal but all I know is, after I went for the test, I got headache for 2 days! Madness...

Tired.... Very very tired.... ZZzzzZZzzzzZZzzZZZZzzzzzzzz...........

The needle and me...

Stress is the only thing I can think of.... Half dead is my status now.... My head is definitely not with me... I am facing headache and stomach problem for this 2 days... Really suffering.... During my assignment due period? Is this a joke or what?

I went to see the doctor on Monday as my leg is swollen for quite some time now, hence, I force myself to the doctor. My aunt told me to take a blood test when I am there... Being the typical me.... I...... WAS dARN SCARE!!! NEEDLE!!! >.<" SCARY! I drove there after classes and I arrived around 530pm. I was searching for a car park lot and so coincident a car came out from his car park lot! On top of that, it is just in front of the clinic~ Wee~ Before I step in the clinic, I saw a notice outside stating, blood test analysis free.... In mandarin, it is stated there blood test for free =..=" *Is this a sign?*

I went in and registered myself... I asked the counter people whether is the notice true... They are uncertain as well though... Hahaha... That somehow gave me some comfort... =P In a short while, I was being asked to go in the doctor's room. The doctor was very friendly and he said my leg is fine... I just need to make sure I do a certain exercise and my leg will be fine within 1 week~ =) My leg was swollen due to water... Hahaha... He told me to come back after 1 week if the swollen is still there... But overall, nothing serious about it... He was very detailed in his explanation... Like him for that =) He told me all those possibility that can caused a leg swollen and even teached me on how to check my leg! =) GOOD~ COOL~

The next moment I brought up the blood test notice.... Then only I realised I misinterpreted the noteice.... It is free for ANALYSING your blood report... =..=" Hey, my english is not that good mah.... *Apologies* The doctor then told me how much does the blood test cost... RM198 for a full check up... Not only blood but heart and many more! SUPER CHEAP! Basic check up will cost me around RM90. Looking at my purse.... I didn't bring enough money so I just told him I would like to check on my blood for just in case.... In addition, I didn't check my blood for quite some time alraady...

*MY FEAR OF ALL*
NEEDLE!! I..... Acted very weird there... I realised that the doctor's expression was he wanted so much to laugh at me but he couldn't as it is his profession? Hahaha.. He is super cute then! I told him frankly that I am scare of needle and his reply to me... "Don't look at the needle lo" =..=" Cis... Hahaha... He was like... "Not pain one... Don't worry, got put pain killer" YA RIGHT!!! Hahaha...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..... PAINFUL wei!!! Doctor lied to small kid >.< Hahaha... It's not that painful actually, I am just exaggerating... Hahaha... He used a very small type of needle so I didn't feel much... He took 100cc of my blood... Took my weight and heigh... I went lighter and shorter =..=" Cis... Hahaha... ME WANT TALL!!! Bluek...

I didn't feel dizzy or anything but the doctor still make an effort to check on my heart. He said I am fine and my blood 'looks" healthy. I left after paying for the medicine and treatment... *big hole in my purse* I was about to reach my house and I received a call from the clinic. They actually forgot to take my urine for checking. Doink... I went back there and hoho again, I got a nice parking lot! I went in the clinic once again and the person in the counter kept on apologising. I said never mind and wanted to take the bottle from her... However, due to some circumstances, I didn't manage to give my urine to the doctor... Hahah... No I am not going to reveal what is the reason for that =P If you are smart, then you will know Hahaha...

I came back home..... Looking at the wall... I started to feel dizzy.... I even cooked the dinner for my family after that! I.... Almost collapse.... I did my assignment after bathing... Yes, I didn't manage to produce good work as my head is not with me at all... My headache is faithfully following me.... SUFFERING!!!!

Please pray much for me... I am really stress out... Do excuse me if I were to spell things wrongly as I am really.... @@

PRAYER NEEDED!!!

Aside all those in my blog, please keep me in intense prayer. I had just told my mom regarding my baptism (1125pm, 25th March 2007). I forced myself to speak up. I only kept in mind that, I fear my mom but I fear God more! I am ready for every single thing.... I know it will be hard...
I prayed before I knock on the door and step in.. It's dark.... I went in and told her "Ma, I will be getting baptise on April, IF I pass the church interview. It will be during Ester day."

Mom: *Calmly* What is the date? April when?

33: Mid April like that lo~

Mom: Get baptize is one thing, but you still need to pray to your ancestor.

33: I still got mah.... I still go back to Muar with you all and went to the cemetery. *Actually, I only go there with them but I didn't even pray to my ancestor.*

Mom: *Raising her voice a little* Don't bring bible to the cemetory next time, as though you don't have a heart to pray to ancestor. *Yes, I did bring along my bible along and read it there. Hey, what you expect? It was a Sunday, Sabbath day! I was in a chinese cemetery, what can I do but to pick up my bible and read it?*


33: OK. *SIGH!!!!!! Hmmm... Too bad I lost my hp, I can't play the sermon while they are praying T.T*

Mom: Don't get involved in church activities too much.

33: Only 2 days................. >.<

Mom: Weight your time, how many hours spent on church? More than others?

33: =..=" NOT AT ALL LO!!! I am at home all the while~ Only this few days I went out more often as birthday celebration and I came back before 1am! 1230am I am already back. *I still think that I gave too little time to GOD!*

Mom: *Nothing much to say* How come didn't mop the floor already? *I am being put into duty for mopping the floor*

33: Don't know when to mop the floor also as the maid kept on changing the time of her coming here >.<"

Mom: Be more flexible la you!!!!!

33: OK, but I got do others! I took over the cooking task! Folding the clothes and putting out the laundry le.... >.<"

Mom: Always do half way work.... *After folding the clothes, I left it on the table for them to pick it up as family always complained that I mixed up their clothes.*

33:............... *Lazy to explain* I told them beforehand as I always mixed up the clothes.... For instant, now I got my sister in law stuff in my cupboard!

Mom: FINISH THE JOB NEXT TIME, it's not tidy like that....

33: OK....

Mom: *Change the topic* You didn't greet people when you see them!

33: =..=" Where got....... I DID le..... *I used to not addressing people when I came down from my room, only to my mom, don't ask why... It's a habit since young... Hahaha.. I am changing it now =) *

Mom: I used to tell you off!

33: That was last time OK! NOT now le aunty....

Mom: OK, I will check on that...

33: Check lo... I am not scare... =)

*Silent for few seconds*

I walked off.... Feeling relief..... I thank God for the conversation and it is before 25th March! =) * I promise God that I will inform my family regarding my baptism before this week*

I have 5 assignments on hand and my family will be rough on me... Many eyes will be on me now... I really wish that everybody will keep me in prayer.... Thanks...

The murderer continue on to kill my dog...

Hahaha... I don't think my "campaign" is working in anyway!!! *EL, your hard work in my class is totally down the drain... I failed!! Hahaha...* I didn't know whether you all realise that I wrote "doggies" in stead of "doggie" in my previous post. Yes, that means Mike actaully bully my another dog as well... "SEXUAL HARASSMENT"! Sigh... MY PRECIOUS PENCIL BOX!!!! A gift from a friend.... See, see... Hit him!!! He bully my doggy!!!

Can you imagine that guy while having CNI (networking subject), he was busy harassing my dog? =..=" That was a CD that he brought for me as I needed it for my assignment sake. This is what he do.... Using the CD as a "decoration" on my dog.... I was sitting beside him, giving him a very sharp eyes looks yet he didn't get the message of "DO NOT DISTURB AND HARASS MY DOG!!" *Wanted so much to pick up his K800 and throw it in my bag and take it back home, got 512 memory card some more, evil laugh* Hahahaha...

You think that is not too much?? You think I am exaggerating on things and "small gas"? Wait till you see the mext picture!

I was snacking while the boring lecture was teaching in front. After finishing the mamee, I put the plastic underneath my dog so that it will not "fly away". I don't wish to disturb the class by going to the dustbin there and throw the wrapper. Next thing Mike did was............

Mike: You dog wants to eat MAMEE!!!!

33: =..=" I hate you la....

My dog must be LIKING Mamee so much.... Thanks to MIKE!!!! CIS!!!

I caught him in action!! WITH HIS EVIL SMILE!!!

T.T My poor little doggie.....

Anti-Michael

I am having a campaign in my blog!!!!! *Study too much IDM already =P*

Campaign Tittle: Anti-Michael

[Created by 33.. Muahaha...]

Objectives: Create awareness among friends and my blog readers regarding the evil deeds that Mike commited.

The reason I came out with this is because he is BULLYING MY DOGGIES!!!!! CIS!!!!!!!!! He even snap photos of him bullying my DOGGIES!!!!!!!!!! >.<

Below are the torturing moments of my doggies...

My cute little doggie is resting on my tea pillow.

Suddenly, don't know from where, Mike's bee came over to invade my doggie's privacy.

Invading is bad enough yet the bee doesn't stop there but sit on my cute puppy!!!!! TOO MUCH!!!!! BULLYING MY DOGGIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *HIT BEE*

T.T My DOG!!!!!! STUPID BEE SAT ON HIM!!!!

Doggie: I can't breathe!!!! Help!!!!

*Pulling my doggie's tail*

Doggie: OUCH!!!!

Do you think the bee is saying sorry to my doggie? IN YOUR DREAMS!!!! He is actaully HARASSING HIM!!!

T.T My poor doggie.....

There is more to come.... T.T Poor little me... My DOGGIe... Sigh... *Snift*

The time of the year...

Another disappointed year I suppose? I still fail to save up money for a meal in Chilis... Hahaha... Don't ask me why I like it so much... Well, I have the ability to have a meal there but =P Hmmm... People who has been faithfully following my blog should know what I meant by "Chilis"....

Yeap, yeap, yeap... It is the season AGAIN... HAHAHAH.... The period where I will start to get a bit "drunk" and smile even I am walking... I think Amy should be happily reading this blog =P *Anticipating moment isn't it? Bluek*

Hahaha... It's my birthday AGAIN!!~~~ WEE!~~~~ This means......... I CAN EAT CAKE!!!! YAM YAM!!!! Hehehe... =D~ Chocolate banana cake, white chocolate cake, oreo cheese cake, carrot cake, egg cake, pandan cake, cheese cake, etc... The list go on and on! Hahahaha... Super nice!!! YAM!!!! I have decided to buy myself a slice of secret recipe cake on that day as a present to myself... Hehehe... Like the cake so so so much... YAM!~~ Hahaha...

So many memories when I think about my birthday for the previous year.... I am really happy!!! Hahaha... Unforgetful.... This year will be my 21st birthday and I don't expect a golden key from parents as this is never our culture. Hmm... So sad... Like normal celebration only... But.. Hehehe... This is the day of the year where you can eat tonnes of cakes for so many times~~!!! Hahaha... I remember there is a year *Should be last year* I ate around 5-6 cakes! Hahaha.. One of them is baked by my friend! Hoho!!! Superb nice!!! I got Pringles as my birthday preesnt!!! HOHO!!!

A big thanks to Vincent for the early birthday present! CAME FROM UK!!!! =) THanks! I really like it! Very unique! =) I just received it today evening =) I purposely went to the post office and collect it but the opening hour is over =..=" Thank God the lady is kind enough to pick up the packet for me =) So nice of her!!! Though she doesn't sound really happy as it's off duty for her. Too bad I lost my phone and I can't snap a picture on the present... Happy birthday to you as well! Hahaha... If you were to be in KL, then we can celebrate together?? Hehehe.... Thanks!!!!! For your information, Tody the dog said "hi" to you! Bluek~ +D

Will this year celebration be unique? Or will it be dull? Awaiting moment.... =) I don't know why but I just like to celebrate my birthday a lot... Some doesn't like it as it is getting personal as the age increase... However, I am proud to tell others how old am I and when is my birthday. Why? Because it is a blessing for me to go through another year... Because it is a joyful day for your parents! =) Most importantly.... It brings together all your friends and family =)

~~~~~HAPPY ME~~~~

The sad news...

I was a bit carried away when I heard that my friend's dog passed away few days back... I... Fell in love with the dog the first time I saw it... So cute!!!! Below is his picture...

Yes, to some, this dog might look ugly or not even near cute. However, I don't know why, I like it a lot... Maybe it's because the way the owner present his pets story to me... Somehow, I felt pity towards his dogs and wanted to show my care towards those dogs *He got 2 dogs at home*

It not mistaken, it was Wednesday, I met my friend while walking to class. He stopped me while I was walking and claimed that he has something to tell me... After getting to know that I am going to class, he said he will break the news to me at night. I was so anticipating to know what is it all about as he already started the conversation yet he stopped the conversation without telling me what is going on. The very first thing that came to my head is his dog. I asked him is it regarding the dog... He answered yes.... The next thing that came to me is.... NO NO NO!!! I DON'T WISH TO KNOW... But I still opened up my mouth and asked him whether is it dead... *Hoping so much it will be a no* He said yes to me.... I................... Don't know how to react or respond on that news...

The dog has heart attack and during CNY, I visited him. The dog slim down a lot!!!!! Not because of beauty purposes but because it was sick... I really..... Though I didn't bring up the dog with my own bare hands but I really am thankful that I have the chance to see it once again before it went to see God... I really think I am not suitable in getting a pet. I still remember I rear a fighting fish last time and just because I forgot to feed it as I was busy, it died... I cried like mad when the moment I heard the news... I even buried it and burned some hell money for it. I can't sleep on that night as well.... *That period of time, I am not a Christian but a Daoism* I really miss them... T.T

Life is so fragile isn't it? How about you? Have you ever imagine if you were to die today, what will happen next? Hell awaits you or Heaven? You will never know when you will say goodbye to this world but you can be definite that one day you will die. Treasure every moment of your life and may your life glorify God's name on the earth...

Stress again...

At last... I am able to go online as usual... =) I manage to fix the network card nicely into my PC... Thanks for selling me the network card and cutting down my trouble to travel to Low Yat (The place I hate to go as too crowded and I know nuts about computers stuff)... Wao... Really am thankful to God that I manage to install all those and get the internet working once again! I was amaze myself that I manage to go online... I was really amaze that I manage to fix all those with my own bare hand and without the help from others (except the help of the manual)! Even my mom was shock that I manage to get it fixed =) *That is how stupid I am in computer*

Things are getting better I hope?? I am still waiting for the "moment" to arrive... Actually I am preparing for 2 to 3 situations that I expected it to take place in this few weeks.... What is that??? Hahaha... Let it be kept in the "small box" of mine and not to be share out until it take place...

Things are getting more interesting lately... I am being loaded with 5 assignments. Each and every assignment on hand required me to put in my full attention and full concentration... Networking??? Gone case subject... Why? I had a presentation today in the class regarding VPN (Virtual Private Network) and my group were basically being put in a hot soup as what we are presenting, we do not know!!! Why didn't I do more research on it? Good question... But I don't have a good answer for it... I can only say that I am a computer idiot, what more NETWORK??? DIE!!!

Human Computer Interraction (HCI)??? My lecturer meet an acciddent lately hence all the classes for HCI are canceled... Hope he is alright, I heard he is in a bad condition... Get well soon oh!!!! What about his assignment?? Ohh.... I totally loose touch with that... I basically procrastinating??? YES!!! I know.... Sometimes, I just felt lazy to move on... Sigh...

MAD?? "Nice subject" .... End of comment... Assignment?? Haven even look at the question...

IDM and MPO??? Hahha... My FAVOURITE LECTURER *.* Hahaha... How is the assignment going on??? "GOoooooooOOOOOOOOOOooooooood"

That is basically my progress of my assignment... Sigh... HELP ME GOD!!!!! T.T Darn STRESS!!!!

渴望自由的我

张开了我的庞大的翅膀。。。 挥挥翅膀，正想开始飞行的时候，我顿时停了下来。。。 从那高高在上的杉树上，我看见了我最喜爱的食物， 也就是小鸡。。小鸡正在农村里忙着寻找小虫来填饱肚子。。 我把我的视线转向小鸡的位置， 正准备攻击的时候，突然，我回想到爸爸对我说的一句话。

“小妹啊， 虽然农村里小鸡多的是， 但你得万万记得千万不要把那些小鸡当成你的目标， 因为那里猎人很多，要逃出来的机会可是很艰难的哦。。”

我犹豫了一会儿， 我。。。 还是。。。。 忍不住地飞了过去。。。 抓了一只小鸡正要离开的时候，突然间，我的天空只看见了网。。 我。。。 被逮捕了。。 顿时间， 我突然后悔了。。。 我。。 会死吗？突然间，我害怕了起来。。 过了一会儿，猎人把我放入鸟笼里头。。 就这样，一年一年的过去了。。 不知不觉， 我开始习惯了鸟笼里的生活。。。 我。。 竟然爱上了鸟笼里的生活？？

在某天某日， 我看见了一只老鹰在空中自由自在的飞翔，我才慢慢的发现，自由是如此的被我渴望。。 我。。。 可以在次的飞翔吗？

Happy day =)

A day that I started to be grateful of the things I have in hand... I really thank God for answering my prayer...

I am getting a bit worried as my study is getting hectic... My 5 assignments are still under pending status... Not having connection at my place doesn't seems to be a good news to me at all! I was praying hard that my computer can be fix asap so that I am able to resume my work. The moment I got back from college, I realise that I was home alone and the next thing I have in mind is to get myself clean up as I want to date with my beloved bolster... When I step in my room... I saw......... A laptop bag!!!!!!! WEEEEE~~~~~~ My sister in law actually borrow me her laptop! They went on a honeymoon today... Hehehe.... HAPPY ME!!!! Super duper happy! The tiredness in me suddenly went missing! Hhaha... So happy!!! Can never describe the joy I have in my heart! Yes, I can actually do my reseach on my favourite company, Toyota. =) That should be a good news to someone =)

I am darn stress up.... I am currently in a state of don't know what to do next.. Many things in head... Too many to be exact... May the Lord grant me knowledge and wisdom to handle my life...

Life? Worse? Or worst???

Can things go worse than my current life??? My internet is gone due to thunder storm *I am currently in grandma's place to go online and the line is darn slow~* I can't do my homework properly... Sigh... Sad...

The best part?? I lost my Nokia 6233~ NEW PHONE!!!! Only 2 MONTHS OLD@!!!!!! It was stolen during the wedding ceremony at my place... Sigh.... I felt like slapping the person who took my phone... The weird part is... Everybody who attended the ceremony are relatives.... Except for 5 person.... 2 maids and 3 bride mates... Suspect them?? Hmmmm yes, I do.. But what to do now?? I have even go to the extend on checking the maid's room and bags! Hahah... Can't find anything at all...

God only tell me one thing... Through the book of Jeremiah... "I know the plan I have for you, all to prosper you and not to harm you..." I.... Really am thankful for all that is happening in my life after that very moment... Yes, I am having the peace in my heart... Though I am a bit sad as most of my contact are gone, but I really thank God that I manage to save that number! Yes, I won't need to change my number =) Hey, look at the bright side gal... If the old is still here, it is impossible for the new to come =P

God gives and He takes away, but may His name be praise... I am getting baptize soon, how soon is soon?? I have no idea... Let His will be done on me.. =) Do keep me in prayer.. Thanks...

For the better or for the worse?

It has been some time since the last time I blog... I have been busy lately... Busy with what? I myself have no idea....

Things aren't going smooth at all in my life for this few weeks. Tonnes of stuff are bothering me.... Brother's wedding, study, baptism, family and now relationship..... Sigh.... I have only one brain, that means I only have one tiny little processor.... How to multi-task? Am I Superwomen? Well, I wish I am...

I started to feel the pressure around me... I really don't understand why people react in such a way... Due to a guy, my life became more miserable... I really hope that what I sense is wrong... I really hope that it will not be the truth... People tend to appreciate things more when they once loose it, isn't it? I really don't understand on those ambiguity situation happening around me... Am I right? Am I wrong? Who cares anyway? You? Me? All those words that came out of your mouth previously, suddenly turned into void... Actually, I am not really bother with the words that you said previously but I abhor people who tend to play with others feeling... Just a reminder to you, what comes around, goes around... Be careful of yourself as you will one day experience all those heart breaking moment...

Things will be better soon right? Is the sun coming out by any chance? My only comfort is with the Lord... I basically have nobody besides me that I can trust them 100%. I............. Really wish to get out from this place and head to Japan and enjoy! Hahaha...

The mute 33

It's almost 1210 in the morning and I am still awake... Don't ask me why... Though I feel tired but my brain and heart doesn't seems to link together... Sad?? Yes, I am... Not denying that fact at all.... Why? As I said in the previous post, I am not going to spill the beans.... Hahaha... God knows exactly what happened in my life....

Sometimes, I am wondering... Is this a good thing or a bad thing? I have been praying for the day to come but when God answered my prayer, I suddenly wish to take back what I have uttered all this while... However, I know the future is in God's hand... Nobody can change that fact.... I know His plan is the best for us... I just wish calm myself down... Taking that as a reality is not as easy as I think it is... The pain is so great that I can hardly breathe... How I wish I could just leave everything and meet with the Lord... I really thought I was prepared for the day... But I fail to control the pain... I hate to admit that it is happening right now... In front of my eyes, it happened.... Sometime, I really wish to be a mute... Will that be better for me? Will my decision still be the same then?

Things will still be the same I guess... His will... Let it be done.... I just hope that I have the strength to go on... The strenght to move on... To continue on breathing for Him... May I be patient on His plan... I know I will be greatly rewarded at the end of the day...

My short term goal now? I just wish to save more money... Why?? To fulfill my small little desire in my heart... I just wish to get myself involve in the grooming industry and go to Japan if possible after my graduation... Can I achieve it? Yes.... In my sweet, sweet dream....

Chinese New Year

Well, well, well... Happy Chinese New Year to all the reader(s), if I have.... Hahaha.... How was your chinese new year celebration? Boring? Excited? Happy? Sad? Mine? A combination of sad (Don't ask, don't wish to tell), happy (meet up with family and relatives), anticipating (for ang pow and foods =P), excited (firework), boring (watching TV most of the time), a little of stress as my family is getting bigger and bigger each year... Many relatives were asking me where is my "partner". "I left my partner in a deserted place... Hence... I am waiting for him to come back and find me.... If he manage to come back early, you might have the chance to meet with him. If not, I will continue on with my "lonely" journey..." Nah... I am currently not interested in a relationship as I have a lot of things unsettle... Is it wrong to be single that long? NO, I am not a lesbian... Hahaha.... And the last one will be.... Feelings beyond words.... Hmmm.... Why beyond words?? Continue reading then... =)

My First day of CNY

Sitting in a comfortable and nice Toyota Camry.... Acting cool on the first day of Chinese New year... I was actually going out for visiting... Tired....

*Few hours later*

Introducing my cute little niece... She is cute? Yes?? Did I hear you saying that?? Did I hear wrongly??? NOUUU!!!! SHE IS DARN NAUGHTY!!!!!! SUPER DUPER NAUGHTY!!!! Hahaha... She likes to eat sweets a lot! Madness! Darn naughty! She bully me!!!!!!! Hahaha... Bully my cute little DOGGIE!!!! Feel like hitting her but I can't T.T My DOGGIE!!!!! T.T She is clever though... Hahaha... She wanted to eat sweets and asked me to open it for her, I told her to ask permission from her mom as her mom doesn't allowed us to give her sweet to eat. She even got bitting from her dad due to consuming too much of sweets. Do you know how she answer me when I asked her to ask permission? "Jie jie, you go ask mamaaaaaa......." I told her if she were to eat, she will need to ask herself as I am not eating. *Almost crying, innocent look* "I don't wannnnnnnttttttt......" Hahaha... I straight away said, don't give me that look and go and ask your mom... Ganas??? Hahahah... Children.... What to do??? Hai... Ended up, she go with my another niece and she got the permission to eat~ Hahaha...

My handsome nephew.... I darn "love" him!~ Hahahah.. So darn handsome!!!!

I told him I wanted to snap a photo of him and this is the look he gave me... DARN CUTE!!! *Another person who bully my doggie =.=" * Acting cool... Hahaha... I told him to smile for me... And....

So darn cute fellow... Hahaha... So like him! The story didn't end there... I asked him to wear my sunglasses... Hahaha...

Isn't he adorable?? Hehehe... Hmm... How come all his pictures?? =P Ok la.. I show you all another picture... Hahah...

My another niece... Hahaha... I took a picture with her... She is naughty as well... The only thing I heard from her is... "Disappear", "I WANT!!!!", "I DON'T WANT!!!!" Hahahaha... Cute little baby.... Every single things she see, she wants to get hold on it... My grandma's house has a big fan (Chinese type, not the fan on the ceiling ya) on the wall as decoration... She... Pointing at the fan and shouted "I want!!!"... Doink.. Hahaha... So darn cute.. Hahah...

She... Considered as a cry baby... Hahaha... Don't even try to take away her pillow.... Her "pao bei"!!! *Meaning treasure* Hahaha... Same niece but look so different?? One looks so cheerful and this picture showed the opposite feeling of her's... Hhaha... So cute.. Below is picture of her elder sister....

She and her precious Hello Kitty. *Her sister actually used the Hello Kitty to "mop" the floor!!! =.=" *

OK...... What is next??? *Looking through my camera....* Emmm.... No more picture... Hahahaha... Ok.... Hope you enjoy reading.. Hahaha....

Allow me to pray...

Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it.

-Rabindranath Tagore

Burdened heart on Valentine?

It's the season of the year... *Smile* Happy Valentine days to all the readers out there... May you enjoy yourself on this day...

Me??? Want to listen to my story??? Sad stories, I have tonnes of them... Love story? I have none to share.. Hahah... Still wish to listen now? If yes, continue reading... No? There's a "X" at the top right hand side of the browser... Click on it and U-lala.. You will not see this page anymore... Magic... =P

I was actually quite disturbed by people around me lately.... Am I being too sensitive? Am I being too observant? Should I act as if I don't know anything but reality I actually know the truth? Should I act as though I have not seen all those incident in front of my eyes and just continue on with my work? Should I then act dumb as a donkey and take it as nothing happen in reality? Sometimes, I really don't know which way should I take.. The left or should I take the right turning? Why is it that everytime when I think that the left will be a better road but ended up I am being placed in a situation where I can't even continue on walking?

I really don't understand people around me.... Maybe I am the only person who think that way... It really start to bother me a little for the past few days as the case got more complicate... Is there really a necessary for you to lie to me? I really don't get it... Why lie when you can just tell me the truth? Am I that scary up till the point that if I know the truth I will kill you or threaten you? What is past IS PAST! Don't bring up the issue and link it together with your current life... I am really sick of that attitude... VERY SICK! Whether are you aware of this or not I am still going to say it out... I know what is a lie and what is the truth... If you really think that a lie is necessary... Then continue on with your lie.. I am not bother after much thinking... Why should I anyway??? Your life... Your own decision, your own choice... Then may the consequeces be bare by yourself...

I really don't know what is going on in your head.. I can still guess a little on the issues that is bothering you but ultimately, if you don't speak up, I have no rights to interfere your life.... If you wish to talk, I will be there to be your ears... If not, I have nothing to do but to pray... I leave this issue aside as I really think that it is useless for me to be burden towards it and nothing can be done.... I can only hope that the Lord will lead me in the way I treat you... It is a brand new year and I don't wish to get involve in all this issue anymore... I am tired... Really tired to change my way of doing things just because you are unhappy with some issue... I just wish to be honest towards myself.. At least, if I were to meet up with God, I can justify myself...

I know partially what you are going through as well, hopefully, what I am thinking in my head now is not the issue that leads you to act in such a way... If it is... The only thing I can say is... I know partially it is my wrong... Looking at my past... I know what I have done with my own hands and legs... However, I have clear things off before I left the "place"... What else do you want me to do? I have make things CLEAR!!!! Am I not straight enough on my feelings and thoughts?? Am I not??? We are human... I know... We still need time to really leave the "place" and go on with our life.. But I LEFT long ago.... I move on with life... Why don't I deserve a second chance to prove myself right?

I.... Don't know what is my next step... Let God determine it....

Valentine Day

Valentine is just around the corner but besides than all those florists who are making tonnes of money and the chocolate price hiking up, I still take that day as a normal day in my life. Yes, no doubt that being single through all this year is really a challenge to me. Patiently waiting for my next relationship to knock on my door is really a challenge... Why? Too many things to consider before I were to jump into a new relationship.. Am I raedy for a new relationship? A person who can't find contentment in God will never find contentment in this worldly place, which indicate that you are not ready for one relationship. Am I content?

I used to hear people saying "I love You, Lord" but is that really from the heart? I started to think a lot of things lately.... I always like to say "I love You, Lord" but it really strike me when I started to think whether is that really from the bottom of my heart.. How can a person who is so in love betray the trust of her lover? Is there such statement? In my opinion, that statement doesn't exist. A person who really loves you, will die for you and will not do something that hurts you. Am I doing the same for the Lord?

A girl, who is so lucky to have guy that loves her regardless of what she has done wrong and never let go of her hands. Unfortunately, that girl's eye sight doesn't seem to be focusing on that guy rather on another guy that doesn't love her at all. Why is this happening? Yes, you might say that because that guy who loves the girl is not fated to be with her, hence, nothing can be done on it. However, I really wish to know why the girl doesn't want to let go the guy's hand straight away instead of holding on and dragging his life? Yes, I know that the guy loves the girl a lot and willing to stay by her side even though she is just using him. But why???

I think many of my friends out there experienced this feeling often... A person who is taking your love for granted just because she/he knows that you love him/her. Pathetic people... Yes, including me as well. I really wish that I realise that earlier and things will not be the same anymore... I always believe that what goes around comes around. How you treat people, that is how people will treat you back in return.

I think I am starting to talk nonsense here... Hahaha... Allow God to change my deceiveful heart..

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I really can't stop laughing on this lecturer! He somehow reminded me of one of our APIIT lecturer... Hmmm.. If you know who I meant.. Hahaha.. The Indian slang.. However, do enjoy the show.. It is a bit long but trust me.. It is worth the time loading and watching it! Hahaha..