I want to give, but....

I thank God that He has brought me to church yesterday... Excuses that I came out with was lame.. Very lame... I give thanks to Him that He have convince me and healed my hand during that period of time... Though the sermon is short but it is a fruitful sermon.. A sermon that made me come back to seek His face more deeply... Went there with a burden heart but came back as a renewed person. God timing is always right on time... He showed me things that I never really open my eyes and look at that area... Or should I say I chose to close my eyes and not look at it?

I pray all the while, until I reach church... The moment I step in church, I pray super hard for myself... Hoping that the "thing" will just leave me once and for all.. It is so hard to even swing the problems and burden out of me... My brain is slowly getting into critical mood.. Not towards God though but towards my problems and burden in my heart.... AHHH... God, that is hard to overcome! Fighting my wills, fighting with myself... I can hardly concentrate... When prayer meeting ends, I sat down and trying to let go of myself and wanting to hold on to Him...

Somehow, I open my bulletin... I got a shock of my life... "I want to give, but..." this is the title for today sermon.. I stone there.. Looking up, I said "You must be kidding right?"... Actually why I am so shock of it because that is normally what I said to God... One word... Excuses to serve Him fully... Excuses to compromise.... Excuses for not following what He wants me to do... It is like... Like God is using my words to speak to me... I close the bulletin and ponder on what will happen next...

One word strike me most...

"If you do what you've always done, you will always get what you've always get."

"Braekthrough does not come by knowledge. It comes with actions"

Short and simple yet the impact on me is so great...

Today sermon was refering to Deu 6:10-12, 24 and 8:6-20.

a) Having the rigth motive - Actions of showing gratitude.

deu 6:10-12

Moses main concern towards the Isreal is they will turn left and right instead of looking at God. He is afraid that once the Isreal are prosperous, they tend to be proud and forsaken the Lord. Therefore, he gave a clear instruction to remind the Isreal to remember who is the provider of all.

"When the LORD your God brings you into the land He swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, to give you - a lang with large, flourishing cities you did not build, houses filled with all kinds of good things you did not provide, wells you did not dig, and vineyards and olive groves you did not plant - then when you eat and are satisfied, be carefull that you do not forget the LORD, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery."

*Underline part: Isreal are not suppose to have all those things but becuase of God grace and great love towards them, God provide them the best. Therefore, Moses reminded them not to forget the Lord as He provide them all this. They should show their gratitude towards God and always remember that We serve God because He saved us [Italic part].

b) Trusting God's promise - Action of Faith

Deu 8:6-9

Always remember that God's province is certain. Isreal pray to God and God promise them a land [Read Due 8:6-9]. Yet they have send 12 spies over the promise land to have a look at the promise land.. However, due to 10 spies saying that the land is hard to conquer as the people who are currently staying in that land are bigger in size, the Isreal are reluctant to conquer the land. They forgot that the Lord have promise them the land and eventually the Lord will provide them the strength to conquer the land. They fear and fail to take the action because they are depending on their very own stregth rather than God's. As a result, the Isreal miss the opprtunity to step in the promise land because they chose to let go of it.. They wonder around the desert for 40 years due to their fear and lack of faith in God. However, God never forget His promise, He fulfilled His promise after 40 years... God never break His promises... It is just the matter of time... God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.

*Malachi 3:10

"Let your tenths come into the store-house so that there may be food in my house, and put me to the test by doing so, says the Lord of armies, and see if I do not make the windows of heaven open and send down such a blessing on you that there is no room for it"

If you could only take one step ahead and do what the Lord wants you to do, you will be prosper... If not, you will end up like the Isreal... God gives yet you chose not to take it? Take the action of faith! It is our faith and action that make things happen!

c)Acknowledging God's supremacy - Action of humility

Due 8:17-18

We always like others to praise us but do we turn the praise back to God and give thanks to Him?

"You may say to yourself,'My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me' But remember the LORD your God, for it is He who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms his convemant, which He swore to your forefathers, as it is today. [deu 8:17-18]"

It is clearly written in the bible that no matter how prosper you are now, no matter how much you owned now, it is not only YOUR own power and strength but also the opportunity given by the Lord and the blessing He gave to you. He gave you the ability to earn what you have now!

Have you acknowledge Him as God in life?

Sorry... I can't type too much as my hand is aching like mad! This is just a brief notes on what I learn in Church yesterday. Hopefully it speaks to you as well... For your information, I am once spiritually renew by the Lord.. So Praise be with HIM!

Praise Him every single moment...

READ THE FIRST LINE CAREFULLY. .

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God.

Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.

Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God.

Loving without measuring....

You can't make someone love you,
All you can do is be someone who can be loved,
The rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

The measure of love is when you love without measure.
In life, there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love
and loves you in return.
So once you have it don't ever let go,
The chance might never come your way again.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love,
than to lose the one you love because of pride.
We spend too much time looking for the right person to love
or finding fault with those we already love,
when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

Disappointments are like road humps,
they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards.
Don't stay on the humps too long. Move on!
When you feel down because you didn't get what you want,
just sit tight and be happy,
because God is thinking of something better to give you.

When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means.
There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

There is...

There Is
By Cles A. Wilson
http://www.authorsden.com/visit/viewshortstory.asp?id=18135

One day a host of words came out in the streets like town criers to declare their beliefs.

THERE IS… NO Christ, DESPAIR cried out -needing to be heard by all.
THERE IS… NO Christ, HOMELESS moaned - searching for an alley to claim its own.
THERE IS… NO Christ, MISERY uttered - parading itself throughout the streets.
THERE IS… NO Christ, SUICIDE declared - making a strong statement to all. THERE IS… NO Christ, GRIEF stated - stepping up to add its voice.
THERE IS… NO Christ, SORROW grounded out - in solid tones for us to hear. THERE IS… NO Christ, REMORSE hollered - wanting to be heard by the masses.
THERE IS… NO Christ, VIOLENCE shouted strongly - with emphasis on each word.
THERE IS… NO Christ, DEATH roared out drowning out the others at the scene.


THERE IS… A CHRIST, HOPE cried out - to all I have the surety of Christ's words:
Psalm 71:5 Psalm 71 Psalm 71:4-6 For thou art my HOPE, O Lord GOD: thou art my trust from my youth. KJV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, HOME moaned out - as it entered into its sanctuary with Christ's words:
1 Kings 13:15 1 Kings 13 1 Kings 13:14-16 Then he said unto him, Come HOME with me, and eat bread. KJV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, DELIGHT uttered - to all that paraded themselves before it with Christ's words:
Psalm 37:4 Psalm 37 Psalm 37:3-5 DELIGHT thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. KJV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, CHOOSING TO LIVE -to live declared - making a statement of Christ's words:
Philippians 1:22 Philippians 1 Philippians 1:21-23 But if I LIVE in the flesh, this is the fruit of my labour: yet what I shall CHOOSE I wot not. KJV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, JOY stated - with firmness adding its I have the words of Christ:
Romans 15:32 Romans 15 Romans 15:31-33 That I may come unto you with JOY by the will of God, and may with you be refreshed. KJV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, HAPPINESS grounded out - with solid words coming from Christ:
Matthew 25:23 Matthew 25 Matthew 25:22-24 "His master replied, `Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's HAPPINESS!' NIV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, CONVICTION hollered loudly - the faithfulness of Christ's words:
1 Thessalonians 1:5 1 Thessalonians 1 1 Thessalonians 1:4-6 Because our gospel came to you not simply with words, but also with power, with the Holy Spirit and with deep CONVICTION. You know how we lived among you for your sake. NIV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, GENTLENESS shouted strongly - with emphasis on the words of Christ:
2 Samuel 22:36 2 Samuel 22 2 Samuel 22:35-37 Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy GENTLENESS hath made me great. KJV

THERE IS… A CHRIST, ETERNAL LIFE roared out - "I have it with the promise of Christ's words": John 3:15 John 3 John 3:14-16 That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have ETERNAL LIFE. KJV

His Eye Is On The Sparrow

Artist : Lauryn Hill
Title : His Eye Is On The Sparrow

Why should I feel discouraged
Why should the shadows come
Why should my heart feel lonely
And long for heaven and home
When Jesus is my portion
A constant friend is He
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches me

I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches me (He watches me)
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches
I know He watches
I know He watches me

I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches me (He watches me)
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches me (He watches me)
He watches me
I know
He watches
Me

THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS WHAT THEY SEEM

THINGS ARE NOT ALWAYS WHAT THEY SEEM
有些事并不象它看上去那样

Two travelling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion's guestroom. Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it. When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, "Things aren't always what they seem."

两个旅行中的天使到一个富有的家庭借宿。这家人对他们并不友好，并且拒绝让他们在舒适的客人卧室过夜，而是在冰冷的地下室给他们找了一个角落。当他们铺床时，较老的天使发现墙上有一个洞，就顺手把它修补好了。年轻的天使问为什么，老天使答到：“有些事并不象它看上去那样。”


The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest. When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field? The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel how could you have let this happen? The first man had everything, yet you helped him, she accused. The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die.


第二晚，两人又到了一个非常贫穷的农家借宿。主人夫妇俩对他们非常热情，把仅有的一点点食物拿出来款待客人，然后又让出自己的床铺给两个天使。第二天一早，两个天使发现农夫和他的妻子在哭泣--他们唯一的生活来源，一头奶牛死了。年轻的天使非常愤怒，他质问老天使为什么会这样，第一个家庭什么都有，老天使还帮助他们修补墙洞，第二个家庭尽管如此贫穷还是热情款待客人，而老天使却没有阻止奶牛的死亡。

"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied. "When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn’t find it."

“有些事并不象它看上去那样。”老天使答道，“当我们在地下室过夜时，我从墙洞看到墙里面堆满了金块。因为主人被贪欲所迷惑，不愿意分享他的财富，所以我把墙洞填上了。

"Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem."

“昨天晚上，死亡之神来召唤农夫的妻子，我让奶牛代替了她。所以有些事并不象它看上去那样。”

Sometimes that is exactly what happens when things don't turn out the way they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You might not know it until some time later...

有些时候事情的表面并不是它实际应该的样子。如果你有信念，你只需要坚信付出总会得到回报。你可能不会发现，直到后来…….

請問您這兒有上帝賣嗎?

Got this from a close friend... Enjoy..

一個小男孩捏著一美元，沿街一家一家商店地詢問：「請問您這兒有上帝賣嗎？」

店主要麼說沒有，要麼嫌他在搗亂，不由分說就把他攆出了店門。天快黑時，第
二十九家商店的店主熱情地接待了男孩。

老闆是個六十多歲的老頭，滿頭銀髮，慈眉善目。他笑咪咪地問男孩：「告訴我，
孩子，你買上帝幹嘛？」男孩流著淚告訴老頭，他叫邦尼，父母很早就去世了，
他是被叔叔帕特魯普撫養大的。
叔叔是個建築工人，前不久從鷹架上摔了下來，至今昏迷不醒。醫生說，只有上帝
才能救他。邦尼想，上帝一定是種非常奇妙的東西，我把上帝買回來，讓叔叔吃了，
傷就會好。

老頭眼圈濕潤了，問：「你有多少錢？」「一美元。」「孩子，上帝的價格正好是一美
元呢！」老頭從貨架上拿了瓶「上帝之吻」牌飲料給邦尼，說：「拿去吧！孩子，你
叔叔喝了這瓶『上帝』，就沒事了。」

邦尼喜出望外，將飲料抱在懷裡，興沖沖地回到了醫院。一進病房，他就開心地
叫嚷道：「叔叔，我把上帝買回來了，你很快就會好起來！」
幾天之後，一個由頂尖醫學專家組成的醫療小組來到醫院，對帕特魯普進行會診。

他們採用世界上最先進的醫療技術，終於治好了帕特魯普的傷。帕特魯普出院時，
看到醫療費賬單上那個天文數字，差點嚇昏過去。可院方告訴他，有個老頭幫他
把錢付清了。那老頭是個億萬富翁，從一家跨國公司董事長的位置上退下來後，隱
居在本市，開了家雜貨店打發時光。那個醫療小組就是老頭花重金聘請來的。
帕特魯激動不已，他立即和邦尼去感謝老頭。可是老頭已經把雜貨店賣掉，出國
旅遊去了。

後來，帕特魯普接到一封信，是那老頭寫來的，信中說：「年輕人，您能有邦尼
這個侄兒，實在是太幸運了。為了救您，他拿一美元到處購買上帝......。

感謝上帝，是他挽救了您的生命。但請您一定記住，真正的上帝，是人們的愛心！

My dream, my aim...

How I wish I can take pictures like that... Got this from E-mail..

Bee and flower

A light from the sky

*SWIMMING*

Beauty

Respect!

Cute doggie

Under the sea

Aeroplane

Weird weird people...

Hi there readers... Miss all of you all! Somehow, something hit me... All those effort I put in to design this blog yet I put it aside... Still remember I sat in front of the computer for the whole day just to do some minor editing with trials and error... Wanted to delete this blog so much so much... Don't ask me why.. It is just me... Hmm.. Obviously, I fail to do so... Why? It is like cutting part of me haha..

A girl that likes swimming, shopping, likes cars, likes watching anything regarding cars [but have no knowledge about them, just envy on those people], likes the feeling of sitting in a car [specially when speeding], sometimes watch football, used to play football, likes to read story books, likes to read the word of God, likes to know God more, like BM language, like the beach, like the night, like the sky which is full of stars, like the breeze, like the sun, like to take photograph [hehe, remind me of KM's and Mike's camera.. Haha.. Like 33's property =p ], likes to sing, likes to talk, likes to play, likes peom, likes to hang out, likes to laugh, likes to drink water, likes to chat, likes to tease people, likes to "bomb" people, likes to eat Chillis, likes white color stuff a lot [including foods], likes to play around with animation, likes fever, likes cold weather, likes beauty knowledge etc etc... Wao.. A super long list and it will continue.. haha...

Now tell me... What so weird about me? Hmm... I don't know why but somehow many people around me is telling me that I am not like the normal girl... How I react, how I speak, how I think... Somehow I am carrying myself as a "weird girl".. Haha... Suddenly I am in a mood to write this post.. Not knowing the reason but just following my heart... Still searching my "weird" part.. Or is it people around me are weird? Haha... Hmmm... I don't know...

*Shine Shine*

READ:

Acts 6:9-15 All who sat in the council, looking steadfastly at him, saw his face as the face of an angel. —Acts 6:15

Let the beauty of Jesus be seen in me, All His wonderful passion and purity; O Thou Spirit divine, all my nature refine Till the beauty of Jesus is seen in me. —Orsborn

When Stephen was brought before the Jewish council for interrogation, “they were not able to resist the wisdom and the Spirit by which he spoke” (Acts 6:10). As he was being accused, they “saw his face as the face of an angel” (v.15). By God’s transforming grace, we too can have a daily beauty in our lives. As we walk prayerfully in the Spirit, our faces increasingly reflect the beauty of Jesus.

A distinguished Bible scholar of the 19th century, J. B. Lightfoot, was described by one of his devoted students as “startlingly ugly: a stout little man with a grotesque figure and a squint.” But that same student also said that Lightfoot was “the best man I have ever encountered, and I say this deliberately after the experience of many years. In a day or two . . . his face appeared the most beautiful and lovable thing imaginable.”

When you look in a mirror, what do you see? Do you see a lovely reflection? A handsome face? Or do you see a plain or unattractive countenance? We want to give those who behold us what my friend called an aesthetic blessing. But what about the beauty of holiness? Are others blessed by the beauty that flows through us from Christ?

Opportunities

Got this from a friend... Do browse through it =)

This a deep point that leads to different questions.....

1) What is our heart for God ?

2) Why did I become a disciple/Christian ?

3) Did i think this life would be easy and that there would be no challenges or struggles ?

Those opportunities to invest your life for Christ’s sake are God-given. What we decide reflects who we really are.

Point # 2----What is striking in this story is that this is not coincidental.

Let me put a serious thought on our minds this morning...Every 20 minutes there are six people who will die, thats 600,000 people or more who will die without knowing if they will go to heaven or hell......How should that make us feel ? and how urgent should we be in making sure that the population of the Earth knows about Christ ?

We should remember the words of our Lord and Saviour when he says that he didnt come to be served but to serve and give his life as a ransom for many (Matthew 20:28) that means that we are being called out of our comfort zone and called to do something great for God

I think to share a little on the first point....

I totally believe that God wants us to search for him through our time with Him but he wants us to take what he has given us and not only put it into practice but to share it with others......we may think that the time we have belongs to just us but in reality it belongs to God and we should use the time He gives us wisely and share what we have in Christ with others so that they to may enjoy a personal relationship with God

Do I stay with a smaller church that desperately needs me, or do I choose a larger, more prestigious congregation?

Those opportunities require risk when we would rather play it safe. What will I do with my life? What am I going to do with myself? Is it a sucker’s game to give myself for others when everyone else is looking out for themselves? Should I get involved with my neighbor’s problems which seem endless and beyond any solutions? Should I try to help or should I read my Bible, study, and pray?

Life is made up of opportunities in which we make decisions that count for our Master.

there are two points that i would briefly like to cover..........

1)

To have listeners realize and apply how opportunities work out their commitment. "Talents" represent the opportunities that God gives to us. What does that mean? We are given the opportunities to invest and use our natural abilities, not for ourselves, but for Jesus Christ.

2)

Our true commitment is seen in how we respond to the opportunities that are given to us. TEXT: "For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. And to one he gave five talents, to another, two, and to another, one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey. Then he who had received the five talents went and traded with them, and made another five talents. And likewise he who had received two gained two more also. But he who had received one went and dug in the ground, and hid his lord’s money. After a long time the lord of those servants came and settled accounts with them" (Matthew 25:14-30).

OPPORTUNITIES GOD GIVES US TO SERVE HIM

The Da Vinci Code

To those who are confuse or wanted to know the difference between the "The Da Vinci Code" and the real truth, which is based on the bible, please browse through this website. After watching the short clip, click on the "One truth, Believe it." Hope it will take away all your doubt...

http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html

Goodbye my readers....

Dear readers...

Well good news to all! From this very moment, 04 June 2006, Sunday, Lau Shan Shang will officially stop being a "blogger" or "writter".... I don't dare to say I will stop writing for the rest of my life, but at this very moment, I will be taking a very very long vacation from this blog.... Due to some personal issue, I might be coming back from the vacation!

I am currently uncertain of my life, my brain, my soul and even my dream... I need some quiet time to just calm myself down and look for "myself"... In order not to write things that shaken others' faith, I would like to take a break out of all this... I will still browse through my blog though to just check on the comments and chat box but I doubt there will be anyone to leave me messages hahaha... I will still put in stuff in this blog but it will not be something that is written by me... I think I will put in short story and inspiring life stuff in this blog.... Anyway, do keep me in your prayer as I seriously need your prayer... Pray that I manage to find myself back and let His will be done in my life *smile* Thanks for reading my boring blog all this while... Appreciate your time and effort...

Enjoy your life to the fullness and never regret in what you did in life =)

There is always a point where people stop and have a rest in order to continue the walk in the future. Hopefully this rest will really help me... Goodbye for now.. Hope to see you all soon in the near future =)

Yet not as I will but as Your will

Enjoy what you have rather than desiring what you don't have. Just dreaming about nice things is meaningless; it is like chasin the wind. [Ecclesiastes 6:9]

"Dream Chaser" is the theme of the camp that I attended recently... I can't help but starting to think about my future... Looking at my notes that I have and this bible verse... However, this verse reminded me something... A lesson that God assigned to me long ago yet I still fail to master it.. APPRECIATION...

Am I starting to appreciate things and people around me? Or am I complaining? The previous post about story of the nail and the son really "speaks" to me! I realise I am still not living my life to the fullness and appreciating what have God blessed me in my life. I took things for granted from time to time.. I complain, complain and complain and I know that sometimes my tongue even hurt people that I love so much so much...

As it is written in the bible that though the tongue is the smallest part in our body yet the consequences that tonngue can do is very huge... So guard your tongue. I even print out a "thanks giving" list and paste it in my room, reminding me from time to time to give thanks instead of cursing and complaining... I should always remind myself that I do not deserve to have so much blessing in my life.. To all my friends out there, if I ever said or do something that hurt you, please accept my sincere apologies... I raelly pray that God will heal the cut that I caused.

= Not my will but Your will be done =

Everyone have their own dreams, what is your's? Dreams are from God. We have the image of God and therefore we will be wrestling with our own desires and God's will. If things are not going according to your will, what will you do then? Sit down there and cry in addition cursing and blaming God for not opening a way for you? Or will you press on and look forward? Always have in mind that God planning for each and everyone of us is different and His plan is NEVER to harm us but to prosper us. Then now think again why are you blaming God? Aren't you suppose to say "Not my will but Your will be done"?

Try this out... I telling based on my own personal experience... When things doesn't go your ways nor according to your will, press on and continue to hang on to God. Look at the outcome then... I just want to share a song with you all..

Thy way, O Lord, not mine

Thy will be done, not mine

Since Thou for me didst bleed

And now doth intercede

Each day I simply plead

Thy will be done.

A personal prayer....

Consecrate me now to Thy service Lord by the power of grace divine

Let me soul look up with a steadfast hope and my will be lost in Thine

Draw me nearer, nearer blessed Lord.

When things are not going according to your will, you are closer to God .

and all the thing are somehow not a big trouble after all.

God's words to me..

Spiritually renewed *Smile Smile* I have never felt that joy so strong in me for the past few weeks until the camp... I actually didn't expect much from this camp as I know God will not speaks much to me at this very moment... Yet He proved me wrong again.. His words just came in just in time.. A very very hard lesson to pick up but I know if I mastered what He want me to do, I will have abundent joy in my heart. Slowly I am growing due to some personal life... Going the process of moulding is never easy but I believe that the end result will be a satisfying result.

I never knew I can do things this way... I never knew I am that strong... I never knew... Because that is never me but God in me... Reading the bible sometimes is a hard task for me.. Why? because "someone" is "scolding" me... However I still chose to read it because later I raelise that the wonder of His love, His power, His forgiveness, His everything is a blessing in my life.

There is a period of time, I never like to live in this world with my family because I always think that they are not loving me... I always asked God why He put me in this family while others are enjoying their parent's love... God proved me wrong... VERY WRONG.. Actually He purposely put me in this family so that His name will be glorify in this family of mine! I can slowly see how God moves in my family, how God have change me, how God have bless me.. My life is never the same, my thinking is never the same, my actions is never the same as how I was before I met Christ...

God said one thing to me during the camp...

"Yes, you are facing trials now but am I in your troubles? All your problems is not a problem for you anymore if you would have let go of it and leave it to Me"

"Whatever you don't have now, I will bless you in the future."

This is the answer that God said to me for my problems... Though I didn't ask for an answer but He reassure me regarding His promises to me. Those sweet words will remain in me.. Really hope I can hold on to His words and go through all this trials...

Stuck with tones of assignments and stress up with it. *waving white flag*

Story time =)

A story I read from the website that my friend sends me. A lesson that I am currently learning as well, hope this story will bring you something in your life..

从前，有一个脾气很坏的男孩.他的爸爸给了他一袋钉子，告诉他，每次发脾气或者跟人吵架的时候，就在院子的篱笆上钉一根。第一天，男孩钉了37根钉子。后面的几天他学会了控制自己的脾气，每天钉的钉子也逐渐减少了。他发现，控制自己的脾气，实际上比钉钉子要容易的多。终于有一天，他一根钉子都没有钉，他高兴的把这件事告诉了爸爸。

　　爸爸说："从今以后，如果你一天都没有发脾气，就可以在这天拔掉一根钉子." 日子一天一天过去，最后，钉子全被拔光了。爸爸带他来到篱笆边上，对他说："儿子，你做得很好，可是看看篱笆上的钉子洞，这些洞永远也不可能恢复了。就象你和一个人吵架，说了些难听的话，你就在他心里留下了一个伤口，像这个钉子洞一样。"插一把刀子在一个人的身体里，再拔出来，伤口就难以愈合了。无论你怎么道歉，伤口总是在那儿。要知道，身体上的伤口和心灵上的伤口一样都难以恢复。你的朋友是你宝贵的财产，他们让你开怀，让你更勇敢。他们总是随时倾听你的忧伤。你需要他们的时候，他们会支持你，向你敞开心扉。"告诉你的朋友你多么爱他们，告诉所有你认为是朋友的人，你的行动可以从邮寄这个小小的故事开始。有一天，当这封信回到你的信箱里时。你会发现你有一个很大的朋友圈.

Hallusinating?? Reality...

Drizzling... Looking out from the window, somehow I felt... Felt... Undescribeable.... Disappointment is the word to sum my feeling... Yesterday memory flash back in my "processor". Talking to a sister till late at night or should I say early morning? Haha.. Sister, no, I am not being influence by your words nor thinking but I think you yourself also sense that I am somehow partially in the same boat with you.

I didn't realise small things such as this tend to lead to a big big trouble... People words towards me... People thinking regarding the word of God... I am concern.... Many people told me that I am too devoted, I am like hallusinating, I am like a person that don't have the direction of life anymore, some even tell me that "God wants .... on me, God said it is not right to do this" etc.. However, all those words doesn't go in my head immediately. I filtered it a lot.. I have only one thinking and one stand, if what you said is what God said show me in the bible. Don't confuse your own desires, your own demand towards me and tell me that "That is what God wants from you". Don't even think I will entertaine your words, yes, I will listen and think about it but don't expect me to take all of it. I WILL NOT.

I learn a lot throughout my walk with God and I always believe that if He wants me to do something, He will tell me... I can see more clearly what is "white" and what is "black"... Though I am not very very strong in His words but I believe that God is powerful and mighty. When He wants to do something, nothing can stop Him. Not even you. If I am going the wrong path, His spirit will lead me back to Him. If I am rebellious, He will punish me. My life is in His hand, He will take care of each and everything in my life. Though my ways may lead me into the wrong path, God will bring me back to Him and He will never leave me...

I Can Stand Secure

Father, give me strengh
To walk the narrow way
Shepherd, hold my hand
So I'll never be astray
Jesus, draw me near,
So that I will never fear
To know in all Your promises
I can stand secure

Here I am O Lord
Come and fill my cup
Healer of my soul
When I'm weak You lifted me up
Jesus, draw me near
Come and wipe away my tears
To know in all Your promises
I can stand secure

Jesus hear my cry
I've only one desire
To be faithful to my calling
All the days of my life
Jeus, draw me near
In my heart I'll hold You dear
To know in all Your promises
I can stand secure

Sad..

Really tense up... Blood pressure going down, heart beating fast.. Tomorrow.. SAD TEST... 845 in the morning, a test will be carry out.. Prayer needed... Haven finish study.. Will set alarm clock to wake up in the wee hour to finish all the chapter.. All browsing through... Hopefully all in my head! Luckily I concentrate in class so understand a bit here and there.. Hmm.. Scary... Pray that I can do well and glorify His mighty name..

Got another assignment today... Wao.. How many already I have? VB, OB got 2 assignment, CAS, and SAD! I am so so died... Time management is super important now.. Hmm pray for wisdom and knowledge so that I can manage my time well...

ZzzzZzzzzZ......

STRESS UP!

*Crying* Hand aching! Thanks to SAD assignment... Seriously headache doing that assignment hopefully I won't caused any troubles to my team members.. Hopefully I write a good assignment.. Munching Oreo while staring at the monitor, hand typing non-stop.. THIS IS SO BORING! GET A LIFE! I have a SAD test on this coming Thursday and I haven even start my revision! Great.. Im so going to screw up my test paper! ACCOUNT test is next week.. *feeling my heart* Eh.. No heart beat.. Hahaha... Pray for me! I super need prayer! Thanks..

Anyone, Someone, No one, Everyone and Sorry

Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan?

Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.

Caller: No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!

Operator: You are talking to someone! Who is this?

Caller: I'm Sam Wan. And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent.

Operator: I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?

Caller: Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother Noel Wan was involved in an accident. Noel Wan got injured and now Noel Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan is on his way to the hospital.

Operator: Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!

Caller: You are so rude! Who are you?

Operator: I'm Saw Lee.

Caller: Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!

The meaning of Faith

The Meaning of Faith...

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the sign that the things not seen are true. For by it our fathers had God's approval.

By faith it is clear to us that the order of events was fixed by the word of God, so
that what is seen has not been made from things which only seem to be.

(Hebrew 11:1-3)

Have faith, my daughter...

Cloudy... All I can see now is cloud..

"White cloud! White cloud! White cloud!"

I shouted on top of my voice but... All I can see is the sky is getting dark, the cloud is getting greyish... Sunlight is getting dimmer and dimmer.. Soon it started to rain.. It started of by drizzling, I felt comfort as the rain hit on my face but slowly.. It hit on with pressure, with a much heavier raindrop... Hitting on my body, I started to feel the slight pain, chill run across me... All I have in mind is... "God, cover me!"

Prayer is a powerful weapon, that is what I believe and hold on to. Last time, I got the diploma scholarship by God grace and now only I realise how come He didn't want me to take a degree scholarship! Previously, I was asking the MAPCU person in charge whether is there a degree scholarship for full time, he said no. If there is, I would have apply for E-commerce! However, I just applied for diploma. When the moment I got to know that I got the scholarship, I was super happy and thank God for His blessing!

Then... Student service staff asked me why didn't I apply for a degree scholarship, if not I will be granted a full scholarship until degree. I told them due to no full time therefore I didn't apply for it. They told me there is scholarship for full time! I.... I.... Need to register again after diploma... Slowly... I realise why didn't God wants me to get the degree scholarship... Because... I plan to change my course! I don't plan to take E-commerce anymore but BIT (business with IT). Imagine what will happen if I will need to take E-commerce though I don't have the interest to study that anymore.. SCARY....

I just got a bad news today...
"Sorry, we didn't provide any scholarship for APIIT course (SU Degree) but we do provide for UCTI course"
My heart sank.... I know by heart that I got a scholarship by God grace last time but it will end after I finish my diploma, which is this year! I continue to "bug" the person by asking whether I can just write a letter to them and asked for an exceptional and praise the Lord they said I can give it a shot. Though the opportunity is slim but I uphold it into God's hand... I seriously am stuck on what to do next... Have tones of unfinish assignments on hand and having test here and there... Wao.. Stress up...

I can't stop thinking what should I write in that letter. Ended up I have a blank paper in front of me. How am I suppose to impress them and convience them that I am worth that amount of money? I seriously don't dare to imagine what will happen next if I don't get an approve letter from them. All I can do is just pray...

Life is full of ups and downs just like our heartbeat... Without ups and downs life will not be life anymore.. However, no matter what happened in my life, no matter how many downs I need to go through I know it well that God is with me.. Now it is the time... My faith is being tested.. Will I stand strong and hold on to Him no matter what happened? HAVE FAITH!

Your name I cannot find...

THE POEM

I knelt to pray but not for long,

I had too much to do.

I had to hurry and get to work

For bills would soon be due.

So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.

My Christian duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.

All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.

No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.

No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.
I went before the Lord, I came,

I stood with downcast eyes.

For in his hands God held a book;

It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said
"Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time"

A thing to ponder..

Are you spending time with God? Would you like this to happen at the end of the life, whereby God telling you that "Your name I cannot find"?

He paid the price for us...

Story Time...

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak...

"I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there, son?"

"Just some old birds," came the reply.
"What are you gonna do with them?" I asked.
"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered.

"I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time."

"But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?"
"Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."

The pastor was silent for a moment.

"How much do you want for those birds, son?"
"Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!"
"How much?" the pastor asked again.

The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, "$10?"
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.

The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free. Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting.

"Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"
"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
Satan replied,

"Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"
"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.

"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!"

"How much?" He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life."
Jesus said, "DONE!"
Then He paid the price.

The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit.

Notes:

Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.
Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also "believes" in God).
Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing?
Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.
Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.
I pray, for everyone who sends this to their entire address book, they will be blessed by God in a way special for them.

You said VS God says

Who are we to challenge the creator of all anyway... Enjoy reading

=) God bless all of you... May His peace be with you

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34 )

You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

Complain...

A net friend shared this knowledge with me and I think it is important for me to share it with all of the reader of my blog as this is something that we always faced in our daily life, COMPLAINS.....

Every time you want to grumble, Think of others who have less; Ask the Lord to keep you humble, Grateful for each happiness.

—Marye

Whenever we are tempted to grumble, let’s remember Numbers 11:1,

“When the people complained, it displeased the Lord.”

We too sometimes tend to focus on the negatives rather than the positives of life. We murmur against the Lord when we should be praising Him for His countless blessings. We let ourselves be distracted by the disappointments and deprivations that God allows for our spiritual good.

The people of Israel had the same kind of complaining attitude. God had miraculously taken care of them during their wilderness wanderings, yet they constantly complained. For example, they griped about the manna that God had so graciously provided. Remembering the fish, cucumbers, melons, leeks, onions, and garlic of Egypt, they whined, “There is nothing at all except this manna before our eyes!” (Numbers 11:6). What ingratitude!

There’s a story about a farmer who was known for his negative attitude. One day a neighbor stopped by and commented on the farmer’s wonderful crop. “You must be extremely happy with this year’s harvest,” he said. The farmer grudgingly replied, “Well, yes, it looks like a pretty good one, but a bumper crop is awfully hard on the soil.”

READ:

Numbers 11:1-10

When the people complained, it displeased the Lord. —Numbers 11:1

Are You A Complainer?

Balance Sheet of Life

An interesting post from Amy.. Hehe.. "Stole" this from her blog.. Hehe.. USED BLOG TO SHOOT ME! Isshhh... Anyway.. I learn something through this post also.. =) thanks sister.. Hopefully I like accounting more haha.. Isshh...

Balance Sheet of Life

Our Birth is our Opening Balance
Our Death is our Closing Balance
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets
Heart is our Current Asset
Soul is our Fixed Asset
Brain is our Fixed Deposit
Thinking is our Current Account
Achievements are our Capital
Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade
Friends are our General Reserves
Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill
Patience is our Interest Earned
Love is our Dividend
Children are our Bonus Issues
Knowledge is our Investment

Experience is our Premium Account

The Aim:

Reduce liabilities to zero at the end of the day

Keep the current account active and alive.

Increase the value of the fixed deposit transferring funds from the current account.

Increase the value of the current assets every day.

Distribute the dividend with open hands.

Stand still and have faith

To some brothers and sisters out there,

I know some of you are facing a hard time... Some even lost faith in God as He is not answering his/her prayer, but let me remind you that no matter what happened, no matter how human treat you, no matter how human betray you, no matter how human leave you, God is still besides you!

He is not answering your prayer doesn't mean He is not listening or forgotten you, but he is testing your faith towards Him! Therefore, hold on strong towards Him. Man fall but God's words stand forever...

God still sits on the throne.

Each and everyone one of us are going through tough times right now,

but God is getting ready to bless you in a way that only He can.

Keep the faith.

The prayer:

Father, I ask You to bless my friends, relatives and those that I care deeply for, who are reading this right now. Show them a new revelation of Your love and power.

Holy Spirit, I ask You to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where there is self-doubt, release a renewed confidence through Your grace. Where there is need, I ask you to fulfill their needs. Bless their homes, families, finances, their goings and their comings.

In Jesus' precious name. Amen.

Money isn't anything...

Got this from a dear friend... I am touched by her action when I saw what she wrote in her address book about my first name and last name... "Shan Shang" "My good friend"... Simple words yet it melted my heart.... Allow me to share what she shared with me in that very mail... =)

ABOUT MONEY
With money you can buy a house BUT NOT a home
With money you can buy a clock BUT NOT time
With money you can buy a bed BUT NOT sleep
With money you can buy a book BUT NOT knowledge
With money you can see a doctor BUT NOT good health
With money you can buy a position BUT NOT respect
With money you can buy a blood BUT NOT life
With money you can buy a sex BUT NOT love

How true these words are... Lately I realise something very important in my life.. How much I left out... How much blessing I have missed due to my stubbornness, due to my stupidity, due to my blindness... How this world have draw me away from God... Help me Lord to be more like You each day! Just as my dear friend said "when you have faith in God, there is nothing He CAN'T do!" As I hang on to You, show me the path that You have prepared for me...

Your grace is enough for me

How long does it take for me to learn my lesson?

How long does it take for me to wake up?

How long does it take for me to realise that I am on the wrong path?

It is not that knowing what is wrong or right that made me righteous

but carrying out what is right made me a righteous person

Am I doing it?

Am I carrying out what is right in God's eyes?

I have one desire....

A desire that seems so far yet so near to me..

All I want is to just seek His face,

All I want is to just know Him more,

All I want is to just do as He told,

All I want is to just be an obedient daughter of His...

All this seems so easy to achieve yet am I achieving it?

Plenty of trials,

Plenty of struggling,

Plenty of suprises,

Plenty of blessings,

But I thank God for my life

For allowing me to continue travelling in this world

Though I wanted a rest so much

Though I wanted to see Him this instant

Hoping that He will just call me to His side

But before that happen

All I want is to glorify His name in this world...

I know I didn't deserve all this

All I have in hand...

I know it well that I don't deserve it

Yet He blessed me,

Yet He still love me,

Yet He still stand besides me,

Yet He still put trust in me,

All because of His grace...

I am weak

But You always use the weak to win the strong

I am a fool

But You always use the fool to fool the wise.

Thank you, Daddy....

You grace is enough for me..

Song with no name

Song with no name

by Boa

離開唇瓣 在黃昏的天空

消失的旋律 無名之歌

曾經關於某個人 珍貴的回憶

把一點的勇氣 悄悄的帶給了我

A song for you

A song for me

隱約的 可以聽到

A song for her
A song for him
過去的一個場面

A song for boys
A song for girls
令誰人 翩翩回首

A song for friends
A song for lovers
在心中可以感受

渴望用溫柔的話語將它包裹

旋律它誕生了 然後又消失了

它是撫慰受傷愛情的良藥

它是失眠夜里的搖籃曲

A song for dream

A song for tears

徘徊在時代里

A song for winds

A song for rain

在夜里閃耀

A song for stars

A song for flowers

在記憶的角落

A song for cry

A song for smile

用心來唱歌

The Law of the Seed

A friend of mine send me this through mail and I would like to share it with all.. Enjoy reading....

The Law of the Seed

Take a look at an apple tree. There might be five hundred apples on the tree and each apple has ten seeds. That's a lot of seeds! We might ask, "Why would you need so many seeds to grow just a fewmore apple trees?"

Nature has something to teach us here.
It's telling us: “Not all seeds grow. In life, most seeds never grow”.

So if you really want to make something happen, you had better try more than once.

This might mean:You'll attend twenty interviews to get one job. You'll interview forty people to find one good employee. You'll talk to fifty people to sell one house, one car, one vacuum cleaner, one insurance policy, or a business idea. And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find one special friend.

When we understand the "Law of the Seed", we don't get so disappointed. We stop feeling like victims. We learn how to deal with things that happen to us. Laws of nature are not things to take personally.We just need to understand them - and work with them.

IN A NUTSHELL

Successful people fail more often. But they plant more seeds.

When things are beyond your control, here's something that you must NOT DO so as to avoid misery in your life:
- You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be.
- You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave
- Then, when the world doesn't obey your rules, you get angry!
- That's what miserable people do!

On the other hand, let's say you expect that:
-Friends SHOULD return favours.

-People SHOULD appreciate you.
-Planes SHOULD arrive on time.

-Everyone SHOULD be honest.
- Your husband or best friend SHOULD remember your birthday.

These expectations may sound reasonable. But often, these things won't happen! So you end up frustrated and disappointed.

There's a better strategy:

Demand less, and instead, have preferences!
For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself:

"I would prefer this, but if that happens, it’s OK too!"

This is really a change in mindset. It is a shift in attitude, and it gives you more peace of mind... You prefer that people are polite... but when they are rude, it doesn't ruin your day. You prefer sunshine... but if it rains, it is ok too!

To become happier, we either need to:

a) Change the world, or

b) Change our thinking.

It is easier to change our Thinking!

IN A NUTSHELL

It is not the problem that is the issue, but rather it is your attitude attending to the problem that is the problem. It's not what happens to you that determines your happiness.It's how you think about what happens to you!

God is Nothing

I got this from a friend.. Very interesting indeed.... Hopefully this will speak to you... God bless all of you..

VB ROCKS!!!!!!

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I can stand secure

I Can Stand Secure

Father, gave me strength to walk the narrow way

Shepherd, hold my hand, so I'll never be astray

Jesus, draw me near, so that I will never fear

To know in all Your promises I can stand secure

Here I am O Lord Come and fill my cup

Healer of my soul when I am weak you lift me up

Jesus, draw me near, come and wipe away my tears

To know in all Your promises I can stand secure

Jesus hear my cry, I have only one desire

To be faithful to my calling all the days of my life

Jesus, draw me near, in my heart I'll hold You dear

To know in all Your promises I can stand secure

Worthy To Be Praised

Worthy To Be Praised

Lord I come into your presence,

Here I stand in awsome reverence

Falling before the wonder of Your name

Humbly now, Lord I surrender

This offering to You forever

Take all i am and use me Lord I pray

Make me what you want me to be

Teach me your way...
I Lay down my life for You

Throw down my crowns before You

Give up my all, for Your name

My Saviour how i adore You,

Healer my heart longs for You

Jesus, you're worthy to be praised

Initial D

HoHoHo.. Greeting.. Amy send me this through E-mail... Super HAPPY! Thanks Amy... INITIAL D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! However, I don't like the show at all, yes I don't deny that it is a very funny show but is Initial D suppose to be a comedy? INSULTING! Some part of the story is not based on the real animation Initial D! No matter what happen... I still like initial D =P

Some cool poster from the Initial D movie.. JAY! AE 86! How I wish I can buy a Toyota AE86 model car.. Can't find it anywhere in the store though.. Snift.. HOW COME GOT KANCIL NO AE86?? NOT FAIR!!!! A small car model also I don't mind... Anything! Anything! But NO! UNFAIR T.T

Hehe.. anyway.. Ignore my sudden emotional act.. Enjoy the poster =)

...My favourite singer with AE86...

...余文樂...

...陳小春...

...陳冠希...

Existance of God

Have you ever think of the existance of God? Have you ever ask yourself whether is there really God in this world? You might not be able to see Him with your physical eyes but does that prove that He does not exist in this world?

Yes I won't deny that if you want me to prove to you that God exist in this world is a very difficult task but I can tell you that it will be harder for you to prove that God does not exist in this world!

God doesn't exist because you believe He does exist but He is there from the beginning whether or not you believe His existance or not. Have you ever wonder why are you denying the fact that God does exist in this world? There is only one answer to this question, SINS.

Imagine this scenario, if there is law in a country, eventually people will start obeying it eventhough unwillingly as they are scare that when they disobey the law, they will be punish. There is/are people that they are afraid of therefore they are obedient and will not sin. However, when there is no law, imagine what will happen to the country. For sure HAVOC will occur, people will sin like nobody business as there aren't any punishment nor justice but some of them might enjoy it in short term as they are the big bully.

Relating this scenario to God, if there is a God that is poweful and mighty, will people not be afraid? Some people tend to said that God doesn't exist but think again, is it because of fear of punishment of their sin they said that? In their mentality, if God is not around, I can do whatever I like eventhough it is sinful because there wouldn't be any punishment. Let me tell you something... YOU ARE WRONG! Whether you believe on His existance of not, God is always there watching you, recording what you have done in this life. During judgement day, like it or not, you will need to justify each and every action you did.

Repent now, this very moment... As it is written in the bible that is you confess with your mouth that "Jesus is Lord" and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the died, you will be saved (Romans 10:9) and If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9)

Let me show you some of God's amazing work in this world.. Something that you can't explain how come it is there with science theory.. Only God can do all this amazing work in this world...

A scene taken from Arena Green Apartment, a picture of Bukit Jalil Stadium. It is around 6 something in the morning.

Sun rise in Bukit Jalil area..

.....A light that shine the earth....

Beautiful piece of art... Work of God...

Hang on there...

I will be posting a lot on bible stuff... Currently I am trying my level best to fix my modem that connect my with Daddy God. Trying to meditate His word as much as possible.. I really can't afford to loose Him... Take everything in me, I don't mind... My money, study, internet, car, health etc anything BUT not my bible.. I can't afford to loose that.. I have 5 bibles with me and those are my gold..

Until recently only I realise how come bible always used "clay" to describe Christian... Though clay is simple and ordinary but last time do you know what is the usage of that? To keep treasure.. That is the purpose of the clay... Although clay are easily to be broken yet people still choose to used clay to store their treasure..

Drawing back to Christianity, we are like a clay... Why you might ask... Because although we are fragile outwardly but inwardly we are store with treasure, which is the word of God. Yes, no doubt that we are weak but yet He still choose to used us to glorify His mighty name... That's God grace...

Yes, we will definitely go through trails and test in order to test our faith and to mould us. Are you still holding strong to His words? Look back and think back... Did you realise that actually all the suffering you went through actually make you grow? Made you a stronger and more mature person? Besides that, did you realise that all those trials you went through actually reveal your weakness to you? So when you are facing struggling, face it with courage and faith in God! Even though we will not know what lies in the future but always remember that The Lord is with us... Never shall He forsake us nor leave us.. So have faith!

Always remember that we are a tourist in this world.. We will go back to our home one day.. Our citizenship is in heaven not on earth.. Our reward is in heaven not in earth so hang on there and have faith...

For which cause we do not give way to weariness; but though our outer man is getting feebler, our inner man is made new day by day. For our present trouble, which is only for a short time, is working out for us a much greater weight of glory; While our minds are not on the things which are seen, but on the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are for a time; but the things which are not seen are eternal.

(2 corinthians 4:16-18)

Renewed..

Was still in a spiritual down mode before I attend cell group... Somehow I am in stress... I felt that I am not even worthy to be called a Christian...

"Am I a Christian?" I asked myself over and over again throughout the whole week... I don't know what gone into me.. I am too tired to wake up for devotion and sick is the reason I gave myself. Am I pulling myself away from God? What on earth hit my head? My "wires" are somehow mess up... Not knowing what is right and what is wrong. Have I forgotten the joy of salvation? Where is all my joy?

Looking back at my life now I thank God for every single second in my life.... I shall be more discipline starting from tomorrow... I WANT TO HAVE A BREAKTHROUGH!

God is seriously challenging me till the maximum this few months and the only word that God said to me is "I am with you" Sweet doesn't it... but somehow I don't get his meaning... Doesn't understand His plan towards me... Then a song came to me.. "And even though sometime Your way I may not understand, I will never walk away because my future is in your hand."

Today... God spoke to me through CG, again He told me that He is with me and besides that He told me that

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair, persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

(2 Corinthians 4:8-9)

My faith is shaken by some trials that He set before me... Hopefully starting from now I will stand firm on His word and not compromise. May He strengthen me everyday and equip me well so that I will not fall on temptation nor stray away from Him....

I want to take this opportunity to thank Michael and Kelvin for supporting, encouraing me and praying for me.. I appreciate a lot.. Your words, your encouragement, your prayer came in just in time....Specially Kelvin, I am so touched by your action man haha.. Thank you...

Special thanks to Ewilly as well... She taught me sometime valueable today, kept me thinking for quite some time... Still thinking though... Hehe.. Thanks sister...

Right after the CG, I felt refilled... I come back to the Lord asking for forgiveness, asking for guidance and asking for strength. I thank God for today CG... I just want to say... I love You, Lord... Help me Lord to know You more and to love You more!

Book of Ruth

I got this passage from a friend of mine.. Hope you enjoy it..

Read the book of Ruth.....

The name Naomi means “my delight.” But when bad things happened to her, Naomi wanted to change her name to match her circumstances. After her husband and sons died, Naomi concluded, “The hand of the Lord has gone out against me!” (Ruth 1:13). When people greeted her, she said, “Do not call me Naomi; call me Mara, for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me” (verse 20).

Rather than judge her circumstances in light of her identity as a follower of the one true God who had proclaimed unfailing love for His people, Naomi did what most of us tend to do: She judged God in light of her circumstances. And she judged wrongly.

The hand of the Lord had not gone out against her. In fact, Naomi had a God-given treasure she had not yet discovered. Although Naomi lost her husband and two sons, she was given something totally unexpected—a devoted daughter-in-law and a grandchild who would be in the lineage of the Messiah.

As Naomi’s life shows us, sometimes the worst thing that happens to us can open the door for the best that God has to give us.

Loving Father, help me not to judge Your love for meon the basis of whether today brings good newsor bad. Help me remember that You desire to usemy circumstances to make me more like Jesus. Amen.

God’s purpose for today’s events may not be seen till tomorrow.

The women said to Naomi, “Blessed be the Lord, who has not left you this day without a close relative.” —Ruth 4:14

Ruth 4:13-22.

[For non-Christian, this is one of the book in the Bible, Old Testament]

So Boaz took Ruth and she became his wife; and he went in to her, and the Lord made her with child and she gave birth to a son. And the women said to Naomi, A blessing on the Lord, who has not let you be this day without a near relation, and may his name be great in Israel. He will be a giver of new life to you, and your comforter when you are old, for your daughter-in-law, who, in her love for you, is better than seven sons, has given birth to him.

And Naomi took the child and put her arms round it, and she took care of it. And the women who were her neighbours gave it a name, saying, Naomi has a child; and they gave him the name of Obed: he is the father of Jesse, the father of David. Now these are the generations of Perez: Perez became the father of Hezron; And Hezron became the father of Ram, and Ram became the father of Amminadab; And Amminadab became the father of Nahshon, and Nahshon became the father of Salmon; And Salmon became the father of Boaz, and Boaz became the father of Obed; And Obed became the father of Jesse, and Jesse became the father of David.